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Flying Lessons – The Time is NOW!!

(photo credit: Viv McMaster)
For the last couple of years, I've offered a one week only sale on my e-book, Flying Lessons.  Each year you guys go wild scooping it up, and I just smile wide all week long at the thought of all those hearts opening up to what is possible. I love a good, well received sale. So much that I've decided to make it a full-on, possibility-fueled tradition.

So, starting today, friends, the time is NOW, and THIS WEEK is the week!

This one week only sale is HUGE: 50% off!!!  Annnnnnd the e-book has been TOTALLY redesigned and fully updated. 

I am so proud of this book. So proud.

Let's make 2015 the year your creative biz will soar. Let's start with everything you could ever need to make that dream real. Let's simply begin, one small step at a time.
I WILL NOT be offering this sale again this year. Now is the time. Get it while you can. You will not be disappointed and once downloaded, it's yours forever.

PS: This e-book comes with membership to the ultra supportive private Facebook group where a community of your fellow ebook Flyers offer ongoing support, resources, and inspiration. This alone is a game changer for you and your creative biz! 

Ever wonder....

: How to build a devoted following and online presence?
: How ultra-successful artists sell, price & package their work?
: How to create a visually stunning website + blog, without spending a lot of $$?
: How to effectively organize your time & energy, and deal with all the outrageous fears that pop up, when you “go public” with your heart’s work?
: How to get published, licensed, and accepted to art shows?
: How to diversify + expand your income with possibility-drenched revenue streams?
: How to stay engaged with your heart while managing the business side of creating a business?

You aren't alone.

I know exactly where you’re coming from. Just a few years ago, that was me — sending heartfelt emails out to artists & entrepreneurs I admired. I always wished that there was some way I could access their brains, just for a moment. And that kind of direct-line-of-access is exactly what I want to offer, to you.

It took me half a decade of wondering & wandering (and very hard work) to find answers that worked for me. And now, I’ve bundled up my very-best resources & how-tos … for YOU.



Flying Lessons is a beautifully designed, highly interactive + functional e-book.

Did I mention it's 261 pages? Yes, yes it is. It’s packed with information, personal stories of what’s worked for me (and what hasn’t worked – lots of wisdom in those hard earned lessons), links, resources, and informative interviews with some of the most knowledgeable people I know, including licensing and publishing directors that I’ve personally worked with. The resources, information, and direct leads/contacts in this e-book will save you boatloads of time and money in hours spent researching.


It's for anyone who wants to start, grow, or enliven their creative business with smart, soul-based growth strategies.

Whether you’re a beginner, or an accomplished crafter, coach, photographer, artist, writer, or anyone with a big message to share, this e-book will give you concrete information and and empowering inspiration to get you moving toward the direction of your soul-filling mission.




The Details:

Top-notch design: Highly functional and interactive with internal links, external links, and a super loaded appendix dedicated to resources just for you! Once downloaded, this e-book is yours forever.

Private Facebook Group: This e-book comes with membership to the ultra supportive private Facebook group where a community of your fellow ebook Flyers offer ongoing support, resources, and inspiration.
Blogging: Everything you’ve ever wanted to know about how to create an effective, fulfilling, soul centered blog, including how to create, how to improve, and surefire ways to get more blog traffic.

Websites and social networking: The specific ins and outs of how to create, how to improve, and the secret ingredients to using them effectively.

Fear Wrangling: We all have them. In fact, being afraid of a big dream usually means it’s a dream worth pursuing. In Flying Lessons, we dive into effective strategies on facing our fears with the utmost care and intention.

Community: How to build long lasting creative allies inside a nurturing community that will have you counting your lucky stars, daily.

Marketing: Effective soul-based marketing strategies that will build traffic, buzz, + joyful momentum, including detailed information on how to use print media, newsletters, advertising, social networking, and more.

Selling Online: Specific strategies for successful selling on Etsy and other online marketplaces, including tried and true tips on how to get more traffic to your online shop, and effective ways of styling, photographing, and packaging your goods.

Selling Offline: Detailed information on how to sell your work at boutiques, and craft shows. You want to start wholesale accounts? I cover that, too.

Making Prints: I share all my secrets and how to’s, including scanning, printing, which paper to use, how to ship prints, etc. I share which mattes I use, which mailers I use, and more.

Press: Everything you've ever wanted to know about how to get good, solid press that will build your audience, build your credibility, and create effective, lasting momentum for your business.

Publishing: The ins and outs of how to get published, including in depth interviews with industry stars, Christen Olivarez (Editor-In-Chief of Stampington/Somerset Magazines) and Tonia Davenport (long time Acquisitions Editor for North Light books).

Licensing: In depth discussion on everything you need to know to get started, including finding manufacturers, attending licensing shows, + considering agents. Included is a revealing and informative interview with Ingrid Liss, Creative Director for DEMDACO. Also included are detailed interviews with three highly successful licensing artists who share what’s worked for them. I also share my own licensing story and everything I've learned along the way. This section is a big licensing round table, and there's a seat just for you.

Money (!): The skinny on how to diversify your income with several smart, often easy and soul-filling, income streams. I believe in inviting abundance into our lives. Consider yourself invited into the world of abundance, too.

Time management: Your super big, seemingly unreachable dreams? We'll break them down into doable steps and whip up a doable time management plan complete with breathing room and time to celebrate all the goal reaching that will be reached, often.

The Journey: The creative business journey is a unique one. We'll discuss ways to wholeheartedly and bravely embrace it, including recharging wearied souls, handling competition, burnout, as well as everyday ways to celebrate the journey.

Personal Stories: I share my best mistakes, my worst mistakes, my secret tips, and lots of personal and true stories about what it looks like to start, grow, and nurture a successful creative business. Kind of like we’re sitting together on a cozy couch, having some tea, sharing stories, side by side. Yes, just like that.



What is calling you? (Truly)
Because it's not just about building a web presence, marketing like a pro, and building a successful, sustainable income selling your goods. All of that matters, of course, but it's more about answering the little nudge of the whispers that have been calling you. It's about tapping into what is possible when you face the direction of those whispers and begin to create a more brave, full, inspired life. Flying Lessons will help you answer the call. 

Download it now. It's fast + easy.
: Click the “buy now” button below to pay for the e-book with a credit card.
: Once you’ve paid for it, you will be immediately and automatically prompted to download the e-book/PDF (it’s about 9mb and will take a few quick seconds to download).
: I recommend reading it with Adobe Reader which is free to download.


(Click the image or click right here to purchase)
Once downloaded, you will have it forever to refer to as your creative biz continues to grow and grow. Because of the nature of e-books (once you download it, it’s yours forever), all sales are final.


“This content has been a catalyst in helping me to see exactly where I want to take my creative business. Before I felt like I was floundering around in uncertainty and fear. Now I really believe that I can make my artsy dreams a reality! You have given me the resources, tools, and knowledge to take my creative business to places I thought were only open to a chosen few.”

“This information is SO, SO helpful. I feel like I’m reading a letter from my biggest fan / supporter / friend / mentor – I can’t thank you enough.”

“The content totally exploded my mind and continues to push me into all new places…Kelly is generous beyond belief. I wish I’d “met” Kelly when I was a fledgling business woman and yet there were still volumes to learn from her rich content. What I have learned is helping me to prioritize my creative business and stay true to my creative spirit.”

“You’ve covered topics that I have long wondered about, but didn’t know how to do or where to go for answers. Thank you for your generosity in sharing.”

“This content has helped me with so many things, from mental clarity, to organizational skills, to technical details to reconnection with my spiritual path and growth… This was worth SO much more than what I paid in terms of the growth it inspired in me.”

“Flying Lessons was fantastic. You went above and beyond. I have taken many classes/workshops but not one of them could even come close to the information/content you shared.”

“I am in possibility heaven!”


“Kelly Rae, this is generous…. and I mean GENEROUS amount of info and insight you are showering upon me! Thank you!”

“I am blown away by all the work you have put into this Kelly. WAY BEYOND what I expected.”

“I am absolutely floored at the empowerment you are giving me Kelly. I dont think I have ever felt as confident as I do now.”

“This content has been beyond helpful. You’ve answered every single question that had been circling my brain for months, and now I feel so much better prepared to get my creative biz up and running. Thank you!”

“I have struggled so long on my own as an artist, succumbing to the fear over and over. Marketing, follow through, and consistency have been the biggest challenges. Now I feel as though I have a mentor, cheering me on and laying out the steps one by one. There’s only one direction to go from here!! Thank you Kelly Rae for your generosity of spirit!”

“Holy Moly, Kelly! Thank you for being so generous and thorough in everything you are covering! I’ve taken several e-courses and read many e-books, but this is by far the most practical and actually makes me feel like I can do it. Awesome.”

“I cannot thank you enough for this wonderful content and the fact that it was not just informative, but that you, yourself, Kelly Rae, came shining through, making it all so personal. This is the most amazing, WORTH IT content I have ever read.”

“Holy Camoly. Where in the world could we find all this info in such a short time, from someone who KNOWS? It would have taken me a LIFETIME…thank you so much Kelly Rae!”

My Weekly Instagram Update – Wearing my Joy, Angels, and True Inspiration

I'm obsessed with Instagram – it's my favorite online home! Here's a recap from the last two weeks, and for those of you who aren't on Instagram, come and join me!

Friday February 20


Today it's skinny jeans (pilcro brand, perfect and so comfortable for muffin top), boots, and a long shirt under a lace vest under a jacket that I've had for approximately 10 years. #dressedupinjoy #thewearyourjoyproject




Note to self. #silencethenoise #getquiet #goinward One of my favorite paintings I've ever made ;). PS – it is available in my shop right here!

Saturday February 21 

We put up a little reminder in our dining room inspired by True's "have fun on planet earth" mantra. Here's to a joyful weekend. On the agenda: a few small house projects and play. Also, Bella's daisies are still going strong. #thanksbella #wemissyou


And then there were two. #ilikecolor #andruffles #kellyraeshome


I have been wanting to sand this piece down and make it all chippy for about 10 months. Today it finally happened. I love its imperfectness. #weekendproject #kellyraeshome #chippypaint 
 Sunday February 22


I haven't seen it yet but apparently this is a huge wishing tree in north portland. Holy smokes, I love this so much. Thank you Melanie @whimsykitten for sending this to me. Totally going to take True. #wishingtree #nopo #pdx


The boys are out and about today and I have the entire house and sunshine to myself for a few hours. Ahhhhhh. Spruced up True's room today and although it never really looks like this (#imperfectlivingisbest) I do appreciate this tidy glimpse every now and again. ️ #kidroom #littleboyroom ps: True picked out the paint color: #marlboroblue by benji moore. Curtains handmade (thanks mom!) #kellyraeshome


This is my "now, where have you been, so nice to see you" face for what I'm certain is my long lost BFF shirt. If there are spirit animals, can there be spirit shirts? If so, this is mine. And I took it home today. Thanks, #anthro. #green #bffshirt #allofthissunshineismakingmesilly


More #angels the last few days. #thankyou #grateful
  
Monday February 23


Not what, but who. #notetoself This is an older piece, but still a fave. Happy Monday , friends. #kellyraeroberts signed print available in my shop! #pdxartist PS – this print is available in my shop right here.


Hey friends. So excited to announce the launch of The Possibilitarian Podcast coming in March. My co-host Nichole and I will delve into all things Possibilitarian - exercising our creativity, taking risks, finding inspiration, spiritual quests - PLUS we'll be answering your questions and talking to special guests. I'm recording my first episode this week (OMG!), and we need your help! Are there topics, specific questions, stories, or thoughts that you'd like to hear more about from me? If so, please tell me! Comment here or send me an email at hello@kellyraeroberts.com (include Possibilitarian Podcast in the subject line). This has been on the dream list for quite some time, and I'm thrilled it's finally happening. Beginning with our first episode in March, podcasts will be available on my website as well as on iTunes (free). #makingdreamsreal #hellopodcastworld #podcast #bravery #tenderness #achievement #kellyraeroberts #lovemyjob


I'm done. Cooked. Drenched in four year old sweetness over here. We surprised True with a note in his lunchbox and his unexpected reply was almost too much for my heart to stand. #gah #love #trueelioorlando


Having a bit of a slow morning. Super thankful John is back home, that our little family is falling back into our "normal" routine. Life feels incredibly GOOD lately and I'm taking notice. My old default in times like these was to wonder when the shoe was going to drop, or at least anticipate when it would end. Something about getting older, learning to lean into joy, experiencing gratitude vs dress rehearsing doom - it's clicking in big ways for me these days and makes these good days feel that much more saturated in enjoyment. #grateful I love that there is so much to learn and cultivate both in times of struggle and in times of joy. #alwayslearnin #seeking #discoveringjoy #flow

   Tuesday February 24

Today it's skinny jeans (not your daughters jeans - love them), a long polka dot tank under flowy green shirt under a belt under a gifted vest. Hello layers. #thewearyourjoyproject #dressedupinjoy 

Found this mid century piece in a junk store over the weekend. I immediately thought of John, that he would love it too. He DID love it and it now sits on the mantel and I just keep going back to it. #treasure #surroundyourselfonlywithwhatyoulove


LOVE this photo from Hello Soul, Hello Mixed Media Mantras student @lilyuchin!! Come join in on the fun, registration is open for this self-paced course! Check out my website for all the info! #hellosoulhellomantras #kellyraeroberts #somuchfun


Current view on my painting table. #wip #flowers #collage #kellyraeroberts


Current view on my painting table. #wip #flowers #collage #kellyraeroberts
  Wednesday February 25


It reads, "your heart will never be alone." A piece for our sisters, our besties, and anyone else whose heart we adore. Send some virtual love and tag anyone you want to share some love with today. #love #besties #sisters #bffs #heart #collage #painting #pdxartist #kellyraeroberts
It reads, "your heart will never be alone." A piece for our sisters, our besties, and anyone else whose heart we adore. Send some virtual love and tag anyone you want to share some love with today. #love #besties #sisters #bffs #heart #collage #painting #pdxartist #kellyraeroberts


#hi Crazy grateful for this space. It inspires to keep pushing forward in my mission, even on those days when overwhelm is close by, which is inevitable when passion is in the equation. #lovemyjob #kellyraesstudio 

I love his flower drawings. #treasure #trueelioorlando   Thursday February 26

Throwing it back to a five month (ish) old #trueelioorlando. He had the rounded head. Once, we had a babysitter that wondered if he ever made a peep. He was so quiet and calm that I remembered getting concerned. Turns out he was just a quiet little observer of a fella. This photo captures his laid back style. #love


Yes. Yes it does. #kindness #radiatekindness


Dear #pdx #portland, I adore you. #quirkycity Also, I want one of these in my backyard!



That's it for this week! Check back here next week for another update, or join us over on Instagram for daily photos and thoughts!

XO,
Kelly Rae

We're Hiring A Videographer!

Videographer Needed –Portland, OR immediate need for one short video (shot and edited to final cut)
Kelly Rae Roberts is an artist, author, and possibilitarian. Her artwork can be found worldwide on all kinds of uplifting home decor, gift, and stationery products. Through her art, writing, workshops and e-courses, she inspires others to dream and take flight, celebrating the collective journey of our messy, complicated, yet deeply beautiful lives.
Kelly Rae’s business and brand are expanding in wonderful new directions. She’s building a roster of like-minded professionals in Portland, Oregon—folks she can call upon as needed to support this exciting growth—and has an immediate need for a videographer with a fun, spontaneous documentary style. (You might like to watch the video piece below on Kelly Rae’s site to get a general sense of the style we’re after, though we’d like the new piece to be primarily video rather than primarily stills.)

Kelly Rae Roberts - manifesto from kelly rae roberts on Vimeo.
Do the themes of beauty, possibility, joy, and community light you up? Does the idea of following our whispers and creative expression resonate with you? Are you gifted behind a video camera and with video editing software. Do you enjoy developing playful, lively, colorful video shorts in collaboration with other creative professionals? If so, we’d love to hear from you a.s.a.p.!
Working directly with Kelly Rae Roberts, our videographer will:·      Shoot footage of Kelly Rae (and 1-2 friends) in her beautiful Portland studio and its surrounding environment (estimated shooting time 2-3 hours).·      Source and recommend royalty-free music to accompany finished video (one track should be sufficient).·      Communicate with our team’s graphic designer to specify size and format for any needed graphic assets.·      Edit the resulting footage, music and graphics to a one-to-two minute long video which will be used to promote an upcoming Kelly Rae Roberts e-course.·      Respond to Kelly Rae’s feedback to take the edited video to final approved cut, which is needed no later than Wednesday March 18, 2015.
Our budget for this video project is $300-500. Kelly Rae Roberts LLC will require exclusive rights in the resulting video (though our videographer will, of course, be able to include the video in his/her reel and portfolio to demonstrate style and clientele).
To applyPlease send a short letter of interest, your bio and links to relevant video to hello@kellyraeroberts.com.
We will review submissions as they arrive and we’re looking to engage a videographer to get started on this project a.s.a.p.

My Instagram Weekly Round-Up – A Double Dose of Insta-Goodness!

I'm obsessed with Instagram – it's my favorite online home! Here's a recap from the last two weeks, and for those of you who aren't on Instagram, come and join me!

Friday February 6


See that little white boxy thing on the left? That's our happy light. As much as we love the PNW it can totally be disorienting in the winter when you don't see the sun, sometimes for weeks. And so. We keep our happy light in the kitchen and turn it on each morning while doing our morning stuff. And it works! Its daily dose of bright light does indeed help to keep the seasonal blues away. @lisacongdon and @clay_walsh this will be my "welcome to PDX" gift to you. I can't wait for you guys to get here and brighten up the PNW!

Saturday February 7 

Today I am getting to some house projects and I'm so glad how our stairwell came together!


I am currently working on bringing this family fort room together. John had the idea to hang a ladder with light bulbs over the couch. Today I am trying to pull together the space above the ladder with baskets and our globe collection. Just started and I'm super excited to see how this turns out. Stay tuned!

Finally! Our family fort room is near complete and I'm a digging the vibe. Gonna fill out the globes a bit but omg, I'm in love. In love!!! #familyroom #design #decor #kellyraeshome
 Sunday February8


Totally love it when the weekend feels weekendy. And this has been a good one filled with family, house nesting, and friends. Ahhhh, I can sense that life is settling in. Feels awesome. 

Totally scored this adorable chair at Home Goods. I COULD NOT resist. Gonna put it in our dining room. #happychair


My old studio mates and dear friends @lynzeelynx and @florabowley came to see my new space today. We did a little recorded conversation about how we each seek and collect inspiration as artists. I was reminded that it wasn't that long ago that I was not living a creative artful life and it would not have occurred to me in those days to practice the art of SEEING, finding, and somehow recording (photos, journals) that which I find inspiring. It's a process of unearthing who we are, discovering in those nudges of inspiration what delights us. And what delights us is a big clue along the path of finding the life that most fits who we are. Anyway, I love that I have soul sisters that geek out in conversations such as these. #soul #creativity #inspiration #kellyraesstudio
 
Monday February 9


My biz manager @february13creative is in town for a couple of days of strategy, brainstorming, and creative work. Here she is with Nichole (my lovely communications mgr @freewitchnoguilt) sitting on my old KRR couch (sadly, no longer in production). I cannot tell you how much these two ladies have impacted my biz life in such positive ways. How adorbs are they? #lovethem

 Tuesday February 10

Ok you guys. Can you guess which one is the original and which one is the reproduction? I'll share the answer later today!

For those of you who guessed the original was on the left, you were right! What I loooovvveee about our reproduction canvases is that the color is so well done, and the actual canvas is well made AND super affordable. This is my 7th year partnering with @demdaco for wall art and I'm still loving how these canvases anchor all that we do and how well they represent my originals. For those of you who asked, you can purchase this reproduction and many many more online. One of my favorite online retailers that carry my stuff is Garden Gallery (you can google them) as they carry just about every single canvas reproduction I've ever done. #lovewhatido! #kellyraeroberts #kellyraesproducts
Wednesday February 11


Just had the most amazing session with Mandy, an energy healer here in Portland. I saw her once a few years ago when I was struggling with new mom and birth trauma stuff and it made a HUGE difference. This time I saw her just because (no big clear thing to adjust) and it was just as powerful. I'm so thankful for ALL the ways in which we can learn to harness our spiritual, mental, and physical expansion. I learned so much today and am inspired to step further into my highest self/purpose. #inspired #thesebootswillhelp #itallmatters #energyhealing

Feeling mighty mighty grateful this week. #thankyoulife #feelingit #flow #love

Thursday February 12

Big thanks to @stylish_living_apex for tagging my newest angel. It's a "survivor" angel and possibly my favorite one we've created. It reads, "May you surrender your fear to immense faith and trust. And may you stay brave knowing that you are not alone, that you are supported and loved, and that your journey deeply matters." Xxo #kellyraesproducts #survivor ps: I believe online retailer Garden Galley Iron Works has this angel in their online shop.


Today. So thankful for the unusual warmth and sunshine today. The sun put me in a mega good mood despite being so tired (my energy lately had been way down. I'm thinking I'm just getting older). Also, we bought these flowers right after Bella died. Actually True saw them and said, "These are Papa's favorite flowers and we should buy them for him because he is soooooo sad." And so we did because daisies are indeed his favorite flowers (loved that True remembered that about John). Anyway, that was two weeks ago. I can't help but connect Bella's uncanny longevity of life to the uncanny longevity of these daisies. Call me crazy but I heard recently that crazy is actually perfection. And she and these flowers are perfect together. #signs #sheisstillhere

Whoa. #sogood #rise

Friday February 13


Hard to believe we moved into our home almost a year ago. Since moving my work space out of my home (and not being there most of the day), I have renewed energy and inspiration to finally finish decorating and tackling some DIY projects. This week I've been working on pulling our kitchen together with some colorful fabrics. These are soon to be ruffle skirts for our island stools. Cannot wait! #kellyraeshome #gettingthere


 Before.


After. Love how the curtains bring focus to the farm sink and add a pop of color to this room. Getting there! #kellyraeshome


Eeeeek. The wallpaper I ordered for a little kitchen office nook just arrived. Omg, I love it even more in person. Annnnd, I just talked my mom into coming over to help me hang it as I'm not certain I know how! It's by #hyggeandwest and designed by @riflepaperco.


He's getting impossibly big. Last night I rocked him like a baby (bad dream) and as he fell asleep in my arms it occurred to me how much I missed the baby rocking days. And then today we snuggled a bit more in the afternoon and it was just bliss. Today John was telling True how he once broke his nose while playing soccer. True immediately asked, "Did your mommy take care of you?" I realized in that little moment that that is how he sees my role as his mama. As the one who nurtures boo boos and hard times. Such a gift, this parenting thing. The other day he said, "I love you for ever and ever and ALL DAY LONG." You too, buddy. #forever #alldaylong #trueelioorlando

Saturday February 14


Before.


After. LOVE!!!! Huge thanks to my mom for hanging the wallpaper for us! I have a couple more touches to do but loving how our kitchen office nook is coming together. Paper is #hyggeandwest designed by @riflepaperco #kellyraeshome


I've never been a huge Valentine's Day person. But I'm definitely a fan of #love, a believer of soul mates, and a seeker of connections during our traveling journeys in life. #loveeveryday PS – this print available in my shop right here!

Sunday February 15


Got my hair did. #dressedupinjoy #thewearyourjoyproject 


Totally geeking out at the flowers and light in our home today. The move last year, the patience it's taken....totally worth it. The slow food movement makes me want to start a slow decor movement. It takes time to make a house a home, no? This has been a great teacher for me, this process. #grateful #kellyraeshome #slowdecor #decor #design #vintage #houselove


Friends, it's no secret that I am not a cook. Food, in general, is hard for me. To stop and eat it. To make it. To eat what's considered nutritious. Other than my almost daily green smoothie, I struggle. But, I am trying and today I actually made three delicious and easy things in prep for the week inspired by @blissholistichealth. 1) a pizza frittata (eggs, spinach, tomato, pepperoni) 2) advocado, spinach and basil dip 3) all natural cocoa balls with almonds and dates. Can I get an amen? Here's to slowly making better choices all around. Last year I tackled sleep (I now get a lot of it) and a spiritual practice. This year I'd like to focus my intention on FOOD.  #wellness #foodwellness


Just looked up from cooking and THE LIGHT is slaying me today. Gah, thank you #pdx weather gods. We all needed the sun for our mental health. Also, I am loving how the living room is coming together. #almostdone #kellyraeshome

Monday February 16


May your Monday be rockin. Love, True #trueelioorlando


Weekend DIY project success. I have a think for ruffle skirts on stools. And I'm just super thankful that my mom helped with this and that John appreciates and supports my house ideas. #beforeandafter #kellyraeshome #decornerd #diy


 Totally INSPIRED. Check out @skidrobot. And thank you @justinablakeney for the introduction. #helpthepoor #artsaves

Tuesday, February 17


First layer. #collage #lovewhatido #kellyraeroberts


Layer two. #paintingday #kellyraeroberts #collage #paint #pdxartist


That's twice this week that I've got 1:11. #angels


Today I just piled on the layers: a long sleeve shirt under a slip dress under a lace tank under a ruffly hand me down vest. Threw on a belt and boots and called it artsy. #thewearyourjoyproject #dressedupinjoy #ilikelayersinmypaintingsandinmyclothes


 

We weren't together on Valentines Day but at the exact moment he called to say, "will you be mine?", he looked up and saw this heart on the wall. Whoa! He snapped a photo and texted it to me. #signs #angels #universe #hearts We've been together 15 years. Some amazing, some hard, but our paths always lead us toward one another, even when it has taken some time. I'm just grateful to have had a significant amount of years and experiences (high and low) together that I know we can get through and celebrate and appreciate and learn and experience all that life gives us together. When I was younger I swore I'd never get married or have kids. I'm enormously grateful I met him and instantly changed my mind. We have been guiding each other's souls toward healing and joy ever since. #reallove #notalwayseasy #butworththeeffort #soullove 
Wednesday February 18

Home with my little guy today. On the to do list: lounge and play. Repeat. 

We call this the February tease in #pdx. It will be back to rain and grey in a minute and some of us will remember the tease with fondness for the reprieve while some of us will wish it never arrived because it feels like torture to have it only to loose it. #lifeinportland I love these glimpses of spring. Heart=full 


Loving how @motleyturtlearts styled my wall canvases with the JOY sign! WOW, love love love seeing how you guys style my products!


Today it's slip dress under a long sweater over jeans, paired with a mustard scarf and my favorite red boots. #dressedupinjoy #thewearyourjoyproject #ilikecolor


You guys. True and I made a #fairygarden today in our front yard. I am totally in love and I may have enjoyed this WAY to much for a soon to be 40 year old. #swoon


Love that our gnome has a painting set. #fairygarden


True gave Buddha a box of donuts. #fairygarden


Friends, I'm on my 8th day of solo parenting. Three more days to go. Here are my current thoughts: how do single parents do it? How do stay at home parents do it? I am loving all this time with him and also loving going to bed at approx 830pm and waking at 6am. I'm doing a great job keeping the house moving, food, cleaning, kid activities, schedules and energy up and I've had to very tightly squeeze work hours in while also squeezing in the quiet soul care time. Thankful for my parents help and grateful True is a pretty easy going naturally happy kid. But still. I am tired by 4pm and have a renewed appreciation for John's stay at home papa role. But still. I have really loved and cherished these last many days. All this 24/7 play and silliness and sweetness has been good for the soul. #onlyfouronce

Thursday February 19


Hello Thursday. Let's do this. #shine #celebrate #surrender PS – this piece available in my print shop right here! 


Back at it in the studio today. Working on a couple of fun deadlines (alivelines) while dreaming about building a staircase up the tree for our new fairy garden (told you I was obsessed). #paintingday #lovewhatido #daydreaming


Current view. #paintingday #blessed

"Have fun on planet Earth!" We've been talking a lot about heaven (spirit world), stars, rockets, Earth, why we are here. Millions of questions and I try to answer each one honestly and respectfully. I'm learning four year olds are way smarter than I ever imagined. Mixed in with these conversations, he's been asking what "fortunate" and "unfortunate" means and coming to his own conclusions that the world is a magical place, that we are fortunate to be here, and we should all enjoy ourselves. So. The other morning, after several days of these conversations, he came to me and asked if I would tell him how to spell, letter by letter, the phrase he wanted to write that was in his head. And this is what came out. #love It's his conclusion, his mantra I suppose, and it's a good one. Gah, I adore this kid. He is an awesome teacher. #trueelioorlando #enjoylife #earth #havefun #mantra


That's it for this week! Check back here next week for another update, or join us over on Instagram for daily photos and thoughts!

XO,
Kelly Rae

Thoughts on awakening

New Art – available here!
“When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy.” ― Rumi
You know how you have seasons of your life when you are in a moment of expansion? You do things you haven't considered doing before. You say yes when perhaps you would have normally said no. You say no when perhaps you would have normally said yes. You read books you wouldn't normally read. You're just open. Open to seeking, discovering.....
Lately, I've been devouring, seeking, and considering new ways of seeing my purpose, my soul mission, my relationship with others, my work in the world, others work in the world. Big stuff. Metaphysical stuff. Woo woo stuff.  Honestly, I've been practicing not calling it "woo woo", but rather AWAKENING. Because that is what it feels like. It feels quite similar to when I discovered making art just before I turned 30 years old. I devoured it. I couldn't get enough of it. It led to all sorts of incredible personal discoveries, but also to a life I couldn't imagine. Exactly 10 years later, I have a sense that something similar is happening. A new shift and awakening. 
I can't wait to see what unfolds. I have no idea what it is. I'm just committed to following the clues and trusting that if it ignites and delights my spirit, it must be important. 
Here's to calling in awakening, seeking, discovering, and blooming! We are meant for these journeys.

XO
ps: This new piece is available here!

My Instagram Weekly Round Up – Mind/Body/Soul Care, Allowing Unfolding, and True Love All Around

I'm obsessed with Instagram – it's my favorite online home! Here's a recap of my week, and for those of you who aren't on Instagram, come and join me!

Friday January 30



Too perfect not to post. Happy Friday friends. And may you protect your magic. It is sacred, blessed, worthy, and so needed in this world. Xxo ps: this photo was originally posted by Selma director @directher who inspires me immensely.

Got #dressedupinjoy yesterday and today. Lately, I'm just pulling things out of my closet and layering up. I'm really interested in, and fascinated by, how this simple practice changes everything. Look for an upcoming ecourse on #thewearyourjoyproject. It's gonna be so good, nurturing, and creative !

Nichole (@freewitchnoguilt) likes to hula hoop during the day for quick breaks and energy boosts. I know. She is adorbs. This hoop is weighted and it's HARD. I thought I was an expert hooper until I tried this thing. But for reals, the two of us having been talking about how this new studio/office space has greatly improved our quality of working. I'm so happy here, I could hula hoop and play hop scotch all day long. #kellyraesstudio #hulahoopingattheoffice
Saturday January 31

Happy Saturday, friends. Here's to staying #eager.


I'm having a rare, delicious day alone in the house. Omg! Currently indulging in watching the Parenthood finale in the middle of the freakin day. I'm so sad to see this show come to an end. I'm pretty certain I have cried during every episode. #deeplyloved


Obsessed with greenery lately. I went to three nurseries today looking for large 6-8' house plants. No luck. But loving this little guy in our bedroom birdcage. #pdxplants #birdcageplants
 Sunday February 1


Our sweet Bella dog took her last breath late yesterday. She was nearly 15 years old and although we knew her time was near, we weren't prepared to let her go and say goodbye. We rescued her from a terrible puppy mill when she was 6 weeks old. She had parvo, a belly full of worms, and she could barely open her eyes because of the amount of fleas. Still, she had a skip to her step. We took her straight to the vet. I remember the drive so clearly, cradling her in my lap. We named her Bella and we cried after we dropped her off, not sure she would make it. She DID make it and many weeks later she was diagnosed with severe VonWillibrands disease (similar to hemophilia) which made for an interesting life for all of us. Despite all of this she lived a long, happy life full of hikes, snow adventures, road trips, camping and beach trips, and so much love. When we lived in Oakland, one dear homeless man always called out when he saw her, "HAPPY Dooooog!" She has been with us since the beginning, even going on our honeymoon with us, and she was indeed a happy happy dog. It's been strange today, not hearing her nails tap on the floor, or hear her snoring on the couch, or have her begging for our food. We are sad, a little in shock, but also honoring her unexpected long life. We've had a candle burning for her all day while we all go through our emotions, and we're making a cake to celebrate her life. She was a sweet soul. And we will miss her. Thank you to the amazing vets at Dove Lewis Emergency Vet for their compassion, and professional care. It deeply mattered to us. #kindnessmatters #belladog
Monday February 2


Our Impossibility – Print Available Here
Thank you so much for all the Bella love. We are feeling peaceful, and just allowing whatever emotions to come as they do. I was looking at this painting of mine this morning and I immediately thought of her. It reads, "Our impossibility is often our greatest gift" and it's quite true in her case. Her unexpected survival, her implausible long life, the many times she was given another chance. Her impossibility turned out to be our great gift. And we are so thankful. #grateful #thankyou


I wore these ruby red Mary Janes on our wedding day. Love breaking them out every so often. Today felt like a good day to put some love, joy, and history in my step. #alliswell #love #dressedupinjoy #thewearyourjoyproject    I shared Part 1 of my (sort of) recent solo journey in this space a few weeks ago (#kellyraetakesaweek) but I really want to share Part 2 as it was the this part of the trip that has sparked a deeper knowing in me, one that I hope to continue to cultivate. Now that I've been home a couple of months, I can see how the gifts of allowing myself this time away from home, alone, for an entire week in the AZ desert for mind/body/spirit and soul care was vital to my growth as a mother, a wife, a human AND spiritual being. You can read all about it (alert: lots of woo woo) over on my blog here.   Tuesday February 3

We created a little art gallery wall for True's drawings. It's hard to see but many of the framed pieces are portraits of the family, Bella dog included. Love this wall. And love True's pride when he sees his art on the wall. PS: we've been in our new home almost a year. It's taken this long to feel really settled and doing things like this wall help make this place feel like it's really really ours. #kellyraeshome


So. This little guy saw his name on a box of heart shaped candy and had the sweetest, softest, most sincere response with a gentle smile and a huge look on his face of awe and wonder. It was pretty awesome. We bought them, of course, and went home where he gushed to John, "Papa, you're never going to believe what I found!" We named True True not just for true love, but for all things true: honesty, following ones true north, being and living our true, speaking our truth. And I've never, not once, regretted it. It suits him perfectly. #trueelioorlando #true #truth #truenorth
Wednesday February 4


Current scene in the studio. So many exciting projects in the works and I'm still slightly in disbelief that I get to come to work here everyday. #grateful #kellyraesstudio
 OMG. Loving this shot that @kaseydamiata shared! She says, "My First Graders really enjoyed making self portrait collages in the style of Kelly Rae Roberts." Friends, this really speaks to that part of myself that is feeling called to work with kids and could not make my heart beam more. How cute are these? #kidsareawesome #creativityandkids #kidart #happy    New Art – Allow the Unfolding I've been thinking so much about the unfolding we do in our lives. The unravelling. The unlearning. It requires a certain openness, and immense amounts of trust to simply allow the pieces to fall where they may, no? Yet the magic is waiting for us in those moments when we're we're willing to let go, even just a little bit. I am learning that falling into a place of allowance is peaceful. I'm not going to lie. The better part of last year was a huge learning period for me, one of transition, burn out, and uncertainty. I deeply underestimated the stress of moving homes, even if it was a dream come true. I also underestimated the impact of moving studios and being displaced, work wise, for about 9 months. In the midst of all of that, I had some significant shake ups in my biz life - nothing bad, but it required a lot of change, and building something new. For a good amount of time, I was either burnt out, overwhelmed, or disappointed that I wasn't finding enough time or inspiration to produce a lot of new content, creatively. Looking back, I can see how it was a time for me to learn the hard lessons of how to unhook from all the rules I set for myself and just simply be, allowing the natural unfolding of what was to come. Although I wasn't necessarily creating or accomplishing super tangible things, I WAS doing a lot of internal work, and making slow, steady steps toward building a new foundation on which to live, play, work, and parent. GOOD STUFF. Nichole (@freewitchnoguilt) calls it the "fertile void - the feeling like nothing is happening, but actually everything is happening and brewing underneath, things that are beyond our knowing or comprehension." YES. I can see how last year was exactly that. And now here I am, many months later, in recognition that those months were about my learning to trust, to allow the unfolding of what to come. And what has come is peace, inspiration, and true personal sense of ease. I'm also in full trust for the next unfolding, whatever that may be. So, yes. Here's to allowing the unfolding, friends. Hard, but such good personal work in service of our deeper purpose.  Thursday February 5

I went to a luncheon earlier this week and it forced me not to wear denim. It's been awhile since I wore a dress with tights and shoes that weren't boots. I also wore my own KRR scarf, which I loved too! #latergram #dressedupinjoy #thewearyourjoyproject

#tbt to our old backyard. Oh man. I miss it but plan on making our new backyard equally amazing. #backyard

 New Art – Grateful Soul
She was discovering the beauty around her, the peace within her. The lessons hard won, the joys easily found, the mysteries embraced, she felt blessed by all of it as it bloomed inside moments of real life. Soak it in, her heart suggested. Remember this. Record it in your sacred memory. Besides, there are times to dream and there are times to savor. And this was a moment to savor. #lifeisbeautiful #gratefulsoul

That's it for this week! Check back here next week for another update, or join us over on Instagram for daily photos and thoughts!

XO,
Kelly Rae

NEW ART – Grateful Soul

 
New art – available here!
She was discovering the beauty around her, the peace within her. The lessons hard won, the joys easily found, the mysteries embraced, she felt blessed by all of it as it bloomed inside moments of real life. Soak it in, her heart suggested. Remember this. Record it in your sacred memory. Besides, there are times to dream and there are times to savor. And this was a moment to savor. 

New art and thoughts around allowing the unfolding

New Art – Allow the Unfolding
“When the petals of the heart unfold fragrance spreads across the valley.”
― Amit Ray

I've been thinking so much about the unfolding we do in our lives. The unravelling. The unlearning. It requires a certain openness, and immense amounts of trust to simply allow the pieces to fall where they may, no? Yet the magic is waiting for us in those moments when we're we're willing to let go, even just a little bit. I am learning that falling into a place of allowance is incredibly peaceful.

I'm not going to lie. The better part of last year was a huge learning period year for me, one of transition, burn out, and uncertainty. I deeply underestimated the stress of moving homes, even if it was a dream come true. I also underestimated the impact of moving studios and being displaced, work wise, for about 9 months. In the midst of all of that, I had some significant shake ups in my biz life - nothing bad, but it still required a lot of change, and building something new. For a good solid amount of time, I was either burnt out, overwhelmed, or disappointed that I wasn't finding enough time or inspiration to produce a lot of new content, creatively.

Looking back, I can see how it was a time for me to learn the hard lessons of how to unhook from all the rules I set for myself and just simply be, allowing the natural unfolding of what was to come. Although I wasn't necessarily creating or accomplishing super tangible things, I WAS doing a lot of internal work, and making slow, steady steps toward building a new foundation on which to live, play, work, and parent. GOOD STUFF.

Nichole calls it the "fertile void" - the feeling like nothing is happening, but actually everything is happening and brewing underneath, things that are beyond our knowing or comprehension. YES. I can see how last year was exactly that. And now here I am, many months later, in recognition that those months were about my learning to trust, to allow the unfolding of what to come. And what has come is peace, inspiration, and true personal sense of ease. I'm also in full trust for the next unfolding, whatever that may be.

So, yes. Here's to allowing the unfolding, friends. Hard, but such good personal work in service of our deeper purpose.

XO,
Kelly Rae

Saying goodbye to our sweet Bella dog

(Photo credit: She Saw Things)
Our sweet Bella dog took her last breath late weekend. She was nearly 15 years old and although we knew her time was near, we weren't prepared to let her go and say goodbye.

We rescued her from a terrible puppy mill when she was 6 weeks old. She had parvo, a belly full of worms, and she could barely open her eyes because of the amount of fleas. Still, she had a skip to her step. We took her straight to the vet. I remember the drive so clearly, cradling her in my lap. We named her Bella and we cried after we dropped her off, not sure she would make it. She DID make it and many weeks later she was diagnosed with severe VonWillibrands disease (similar to hemophilia) which made for an interesting life for all of us. Despite all of this she lived a long, happy life full of hikes, snow adventures, road trips, camping and beach trips, and so much love. When we lived in Oakland, one dear homeless man always called out when he saw her, "HAPPY Dooooog!" She has been with us since the beginning, even going on our honeymoon with us, and she was indeed a happy happy dog.

It's been strange, not hearing her nails tap on the floor, or hear her snoring on the couch, or have her begging for our food. We are sad, a little in shock, but also honoring her unexpected long life. We've been burning candles for her while we all go through our emotions, and made a cake to celebrate her life. She was a sweet soul. And we will miss her. Thank you to the amazing vets at Dove Lewis Emergency Vet for their compassion, and professional care. It deeply mattered to us.

#kellyraetakesaweek Part 2

I shared Part 1 of my recent solo journey in this space a few weeks ago, but I really want to share Part 2 as it was the this part of the trip that has sparked a deeper knowing in me, one that I hope to continue to cultivate.  Now that I've been home a couple of months, I can see how the gifts of allowing myself this time away from home, alone, for an entire week in the AZ desert for mind/body/spirit and soul care was vital to my growth as a mother, a wife, a human being.

I journaled constantly while I was gone - something that I haven't done consistently in years. I share some of those entries below in hopes of sharing the full story of what I received, what I had trouble receiving, and what was awakened. I share it in hopes that it encourages you to take care and nurture pieces of your own soul, however that might look. I am learning that many of us make the mistake of not creating sacred time for ourselves to access the deepest, highest, wisest parts of ourselves. This trip awakened in me that I'm not getting to that place enough, but when I do, I am most at peace, at clarity, at ease.


April 2014, journal entry:
I am utterly exhausted. E-course just launched, and its success makes my heart beam, but I have poured all of my inner well into it, and I'm feeling like I need to recharge. We are in the midst of moving homes, another dream awakened, but right now it feels like another depletion of energy. I am cranky. I am tired. I am grieving. I am not myself. I have recently hired a biz manager to help me get more support in place in my biz. I'm desperate to get ahold of my life. It's so good, so full, but I'm out of inspiration, steam, and energy. I must recalibrate, and soon. 

John took me on a lunch date and while complaining about my inner state of being, he implores me to take a week and go to that spa in the AZ dessert that I'm always dreaming about. He says I deserve it, that I've worked really hard, that I need some time to refuel. I decline. I have too much to do. He suggests that I look at why I insist on martyring my well being.  He's right, I think. Exhausted by my stubbornness, he picks up his phone, googles "Miraval Resort" and calls the registration desk right there as we are sipping our drinks. "He's crazy," I think. As soon as someone at Miraval answers the phone, John shoves the phone at me, insisting that I  talk to the receptionist. 

So there I am, and before I know it I'm making a reservation for an entire week at a place I've dreamt about for years. I don't have my calendar in front of me. I haven't researched where this resort is exactly, or what it even offers really, or even if I can afford it.  I just throw out some dates into the phone, give them my credit card info, make the reservation, and end the call. I figure I can cancel later when John's not looking. 

When I hang up the phone, I look down and notice the perfectly heart shaped light beam on the table next to my drink (photo above). It's a sign, I think. Source/God/Spirit/Light has just informed me that I made a very good move in the right direction. I don't dare cancel the reservation, and months later I muster up all my courage and concerns about leaving my family, my to-do lists, my obligations, and I practically force myself to board the plane and go on the solo retreat. Best decision I've made in years. 

DAY 1:
I made it to AZ. And the very first cactus I examined up close (because I have not seen plants like this in 15 years and they are extraordinary) had a huge heart shape leaf (is that what you call them?) waiting for me. Not only did it remind me of the heart-shaped light beam/sign I received the moment I made the reservation to come to this place, but it felt like the universe saying, "Girl, you made the right choice. Despite all the barriers and gremlins, you made it here. Welcome to YOUR week."

I am doing something I've never done nor dreamed I could. I am spending an entire week at a gorgeous resort spa with a focus on mind/body/spirit (Miraval). And I am doing it ALONE. My intention? To rest. To revive. To silence the noise. To unleash my joy. To lean into deserving. To honor my introvert spirit that has dreamt of doing something like this for years. To stretch. To listen. To JUST BE. Yesterday after the Oprah event was over, I cried my heart out (release, gratitude) and today I've been here at this place for just a few hours and already the happy grateful tears have come. I just cannot believe my fortune. I will honor it with an open heart this week.


Day #2:

The littlest things....the bright starry night sky last nite, the softness of the bedsheets, the simplicity of the yogurt breakfast this morning with ginger/lemon tea, the walking paths and gorgeous landscaping. It all seems so precious. I woke up ready for whatever the day had in store. 


I did a challenge course today where I climbed up a pole and tried to walk across a tightrope while holding onto vertical, dangling ropes. It was super challenging physically, and I thought it'd be MUCH easier than it actually was. I learned a lot about myself when it comes to setting expectations too high, that my natural enthusiasm and optimism to accomplish something doesn't quite match what is realistic for what my current life is capable of holding. It's why I keep finding myself in a cycle of burnout. It also made me think about how small adjustments in life, like the slightest shift in feet placement up high on the wird, can have the biggest impact. I'm often fearless, not afraid to make big giant moves, but this challenge taught me that not everything has to be a big move, that the tiniest of steps can make big changes. Loved it.

Later: a massage, delicious food, a nap.


I didn't see the giant heart in the sky until I got down. And it just made me so delighted, and lit up. I am on the right path, here challenging my body, trusting it. Who knows what is next. 


I lingered after lunch and found a cozy spot in the sunshine. I asked the server if it was okay if I stayed. She said, "If you're happy in the sunshine, we're happy in the sunshine." Totally made me think of online community. I've been instagraming a little bit of this experience and I've been blown away by their support of me. I had gremlins about coming here, about it being too much for me to ask for, about being self-indulgent. But my community has been nothing but encouraging, supportive of this journey. I guess my lovely lunch server was right. If we're happy in the sunshine, those who are truly WITH us will be happy in the sunshine as well. My heart can hardly receive this abundance, but I'm leaning in. I am beginning to really relax. 

Day 3:
Woke up today feeling a little homesick. Promised myself I wouldn't wiggle my way out of anything nurturing. And so. I went to a gratitude meditation even though I had no idea what I was doing. Something shifted during that meditation, and I began to relax deeper, and feel my spirit connecting to my body inside absolute stillness. 

After the meditation, I went to the spa for a hot stone massage. And then lingered in one of their cozy chairs with my book, The Seat Of The Soul. This book. THIS BOOK. It's changing everything. It's no coincidence I've had this book for months but haven't picked it up until packing for this trip. Love. Another sign. 



This teeny tiny feather fell into my chair the exact second I sat down to take in the view. The exact moment I was breathing in this experience and thinking about this passage I had just read moments before in Anam Cara by John Donohue: "Sometimes it is easy to be generous outward, to give and give and yet remain ungenerous to yourself. You lose the balance of your soul if you do not learn to take care of yourself. You need to be generous to your self in order to receive the love that surrounds you. And we must remain attentive in order to be able to receive." 

Wow. Thank you, tiny feather, for the reminder that life is teaching us in every moment, and for your symbolism of spirit and lightness. I am here this week in total practice and commitment to radical self care so that I can begin to love deeper, receive deeper, to bring my soul back to balance. I am so thankful for these little confirmations and signs everywhere. 



My day continued toward a long hot shower, a lecture on intuition by a most interesting woman named Tejpal, and a delicious dinner and deep conversation with a lovely stranger/friend. 

As the day ended (only my 2nd full day here), I found myself leaning into what this experience might be offering up.  I can feel the realignment of my soul. And I know it to be true not just by how I feel but by how all the mysterious coincidences and signs that used to be present in my life all the time seem to be coming back. I have missed these gentle companions of found hearts in the rocks, feathers in the paths, and coincidences galore. So glad John made this week happen for me. And I'm so glad my higher self accepted the gift. I am receiving it with a grateful, full, humble heart. 



Day 4:
I floated in silence today in a warm salt water pool. I stared for what seemed like hours at a dragonfly that kept coming to the pool's edge. His eyes, his wings with red marks, beautiful and still. I put my finger out, curious if he would hop aboard and hang out awhile and guess what? HE DID. I could hardly believe it. Another sign. Another gift. Totally on the right path. Thought a ton today about karma, reincarnation, soul journey stuff. It's been a couple of days of alone time, sleeping, nourishing my body first, and now I can see how my spirit and mind are quieting too, absorbing inside those spaces where everything important generates. My mind is free to wander, to linger in that place where I don't get to nearly enough, a place I'm not even sure I missed. But now I can see. Not only do I miss it. It's critical to my well being. 
Later in the day I climbed a pole 30' high, and then I walked across a wooden beam while strapped in a harness. The first step was hard, and I was the first to go in our group which made me super nervous, but I utterly surprised myself by not only walking across the high beam without issue, but also walking backwards. I have come a long way on my trust journey and this particular challenge reminded me of that. Very cool. 
Even later: more walks, more delicious food, and another night in the most comfortable bed I've ever slept in. 


Day 5:
This week continues to blow my heart wide open. I thought I was coming for new adventures and self-care and all that remains true but I didn't expect the depth of healing, soul recovery, energy shifts, and the LEARNING of new things and what I am capable of with my energy alone. This horse. As fortune would have it, I got to hang with her for a couple of hours. She liked me and I really liked her. Her name was Fancy and she had a heart shaped scar an over her right eye (not even kidding). 

I learned how to use nothing but my energy and body language to communicate with her. When I told her (without using verbal commands!) to walk, she walked. Turn, she turned. Gallop, she galloped. Stop, she stopped. When I centered myself with a deep breath, she did the same thing. It was remarkable to see and experience how horses mirror our energy. I learned how I am very good at energetically creating safe spaces for people but not so much commanding and communicating my needs and what I want. Once I did that, she obliged my commands. Also, horses are boundary masters. They will always take care of themselves first and they expect you to do the same, responding to commands only once your boundaries are shored up and made clear what you want. SO COOL. 




One of the best parts of this week has been the time to finally dive into this book I've had forever. I deeply believe in divine timing and I can't believe how aligned this book is with all that I'm soaking in this week when it comes to mind, body, spirit, and soul. I have never devoured a book so much. I have never underlined and written in the margins so much! I love that it's so well loved by millions, that it resonates and speaks to the highest parts of ourselves. I feel like this book has lifted the veil on so many of my questions in the pursuit of being awakened. Love, love, love.

Later in the day I went to see Brent Baum, a trauma specialist who uses Holographic Memory Resolution to help resolve emotions and physical symptom of trauma. Truthfully, I heard a woman in the dining room talking to her girlfriends about her session with him with such gratitude, and awe that it peeked my curiosity, thus my session. I'm so glad I saw him. I learned a ton about trauma, how we all have it, how our body stores it, how our minds cope. Like so many others, I had significant trauma in my early years, and then later after giving birth. Although I've done a significant amount of personal work to clear and heal it, I found this session with Brent to be transformative, like a peaceful closing to chapters long gone. At the end of the session, he gave me a warm hug and then told me that I had a lot of "heat" in my hands. He said I was a healer, that I should consider Reiki training, that it would serve me well in motherhood. I leave, astonished, curious, awakened. THAT was interesting, and will definitely go into my woo woo files.  

Today was my 5th full day here. I miss my family but this feels really meaningful, important to be here. I will return home changed, a better partner, mama, friend, boss. 


Day 6:

During this trip, I've promised myself to remain curious and open, to say yes to anything that might feel nourishing. So in addition to the everyday activities they offer here (yoga, massage, healthy food, meditation, horses, challenges courses, etc), I also had the spontaneous session with Brent, and today I had another extraordinary session with another intuitive healer, Tejpal. 

I saw her speak a couple of times during the week, floored by her wisdom and her ability to "read" people, channeling their essence. I felt enormously called to have a private session with her, and it was the icing on the cake for me, the perfect ending to what has been a transformative week of spiritual reflection and body rejuvenation. In my session with Tejpal, I learned that I was a yogi in a recent past life, that I am an old soul, like a large oak, but I don't get to my center near enough. She told me my path to my most centered self is through my body, and after doing some complicated breath work together, she practically jumped out of her skin with excitement for me. Although I had never done any breath work before (I'm a newbie to the world of woo woo), apparently I impressed her with my abilities! She encouraged me to seek out Kundalini Yoga when I returned home, that I am perfectly suited for it given my natural ability to drop right into this kind of breath work and meditation, like someone who has been doing it for years. Really, I ask?  REALLY, she says. Something shifts inside, and all of the sudden I deeply believe her. As our session continues, I get more clarity and direction from her, especially around my role as an artist, and she is enormously helpful around giving me some tools to let go of old anger. I leave our session in awe. I feel a deeper awakening, and stronger commitment to exploring the deepest, highest, most sacred pieces of my soul. I am inspired. 

Day 7:

I am heading home today. My heart is full, my body nurtured, my spirit enlightened. I am going home with a renewed sense of purpose and commitment to my spiritual practice and body wellness. I have learned so much and all of it unexpected and welcomed. I can barely believe my good fortune of being here and I am grateful for all that showed up in service of my soul. 

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Since returning from my trip in Nov, I've continued the path of seeking. I've been devouring spiritual books, journaling, opening my mind further, going to my local healers (energy, acupuncture, massage, astrologer), doing some guided meditation, and paying more attention to how I use (and don't use) my energy. Although I haven't started a formal yoga/meditation practice yet, I hope to soon! I have a real sense that my trip to AZ was a pivotal moment in my life. It came at a time when my spiritual practice was already awakened, and this trip deepened that awakening, calling me forth to keep going, discovering, and seeking. I. Am. So. Grateful.

XOXOXO