Counting Stars Quotes

“We sat in silence.
We sat in silence, but our hearts were not silent, our souls were not silent, our brains were not silent. So we sat in silence and I had everything to say, but no way to say it, and he had nothing to say, and every way to say it. When he was silent, his silence was loud— the loudest thing in the world.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“Somewhere, someone is searching for you in every person they encounter. You will mean something to yourself one day. Maybe not tomorrow, maybe not the next day, but you will fill that ache in your soul, eventually, Brantley Thornton. I swear it to you. I promise you.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“I may be leaving this earth, but I will remain in the stars. I will watch over you and protect you, and when it is your time and you are ready to find me once more, you will fall into my arms. And when you do, all the planets and asteroids and stars and specks of dust in this endless universe will sigh in unison, because they will all know that our souls found their way together—somehow, someway, just as they were always supposed to.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“I’m letting you go. I’m freeing you. You are no longer mine, Caspian Marks. And when I look back at it, you never were, and I don’t know why for any fraction of a second I would have come to that conclusion. You have never belonged to me. You have never belonged to anyone. But you do, and always have and probably always will, belong to this earth. You are the universe’s child. You will belong to this earth and I will belong to the stars, for now.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“So live your life and conquer the world, because it is your world. It is your world and all of us... we are all simply living in it. Every last one of us. This world revolves around you, this world revolves for you, and this world remains to turn and always will for as long as you live... because of you. So you go and you live and you learn and you love, with everything you have in you.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“Whether I meant something to this world, whether I meant something to myself, whether I had a true, genuine life purpose or not, it did not matter. Not anymore, not to me. Because I may have not mattered to the world or in the grand scheme of things, just as you, Caspian Marks, had said I would. But I mattered to the most important person in my world. I mattered... to you.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“My life... it did mean something. And though it may have not mattered in the grand scheme of things, per se, it did matter. It took me a long time to come to terms with that, but it did. It did matter while I was still here, still living and breathing about as a human being would. And most of all, at the end of the day, not only did it matter in the grand scheme of things, but it mattered to me.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“You made me so happy, but that does not mean I was a happy person. It does not mean I had a happy mind and a happy soul. The trick to living life is to find happiness and love in everything you do, Caspian Marks. And I did. I found love and I found happiness in you, but you, you were the sole person alive who was a contributor to that. I could not find love and happiness in everything that I did, because you were the only thing I knew that was worthy of love.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“You see, people believe that depressed people are numb. Numb to any feelings and any sensations. That they cannot feel anything, when... when that is the farthest thing from what is actually going on. In reality, depressed people, we are the ones who feel the most, among everyone. We feel our emotions, our pain, ragingly, roaringly, through the rooftops and written across skylines. That is why we suffer the most. I think that is why I suffered in the way I did.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“But if she was not loved by anyone else in the world, she was loved... by me. And my love for her, Brantley Thornton, was and is unequivocal. And the flame that sets out hearts ablaze continues to burn now, fiercer and more powerful than ever. Though tragic and ephemeral, our story was the quintessence of love.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“I am forever grateful that I touched you in a way and temporarily changed that life of yours, Brantley Thornton. With that in the back of my mind, I will be able to live in this world and continue on with life, while you were mine, and you are no longer in it.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“And after time, after feeling utterly special by one individual, I realized it was never about being remembered by all. It was always about being remembered and making a significant impact on those who you have loved, and those who loved you.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“I would have given her my very last breath, but as you know, she already took hers.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“He felt so... empty. He felt so lost. So lost in a world he was so sure he would be okay to maneuver alone in. So lost in a world that once seemed so easy to figure out and establish where you were and where you needed to be. But nothing about this life without Brantley Thornton would be easy to figure out. He wasn’t sure where he was and where he needed to be when the only place he felt he truly knew and needed to be was in Brantley Thornton’s arms.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“She is deserving of many things in this world, Caspian Marks. Including such a phenomenal man as yourself. But she is also deserving of someone who will make her world light up, when she thought she would see absolutely none again. So if you cannot brighten up her world, do not enter it and allow it to become any dimmer than it already is. You love her, and you love her hard. And you take care of her, especially when she cannot take care of herself.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“So though, no, you should not mend her, you should not repair her, you have to let her do that herself, but you should, however, inspire her; inspire her to live on and find a life worth living.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“All I could’ve wished was that more people told you you were worth being loved, I really do. You still are, even now that you’ve passed and are longer gone than I’d like to come to terms with. And it is because of your worthiness of love that I will continue loving you until I take my very last breath. But this is not our goodbye, Brantley Thornton. Because I know I will simply see you in the stars later on.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“He shivered and he shuddered and allowed himself to sulk in his tears and allowed his heart to burst into flames and turn into ash, because that’s all it could do. That seemed like the most natural sequence of things to happen when the person he loved most was no longer there to love.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“The world went quiet. And so did my heart.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“I could just... feel it. I could feel my soul intertwining with his, finding a home in his presence. I could feel my heart skipping a beat, trying to spring out of my chest to chase after him, to love his heart in return the same way that he did mine. I could feel the universe fighting for us, fighting for us to be, pushing us together, even when I wanted to be as far away from him as possible. I could feel it. I could feel everything, even though it was simply asomatous. Despite lacking physicality, his love could not be denied by one who had eyes to see the sight and feel the aura of what was right in front of them.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“His love for me, it was... boundless. And at times, it was baffling and concerning, really, how easily he could have loved such a heart and soul like mine. A damaged, fragile one, that is; when his, on the contrary, was authentically pure and whole. And yet, despite being polar opposites, our hearts were the same. They were made in the same cast, beat at the same pace, leaped and danced whenever in each other’s presence. It seemed like they beat for one another.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“He ran his hands down my hair. He put his head on top of mine and said, “Someday, I think you would have looked back at this very moment and realized how strong you truly were. I think you would have realized how capable you were of getting past this. It may have not been soon, Brantley Thornton, but I promise you, I promise you, it would have been one day. This is just a chapter of your life, Brantley. Not your entire story. But you have to get through this part to be able to see the rest.”
I grabbed his hands and I traced my thumb over the places where ridges and bumps and calluses should have been and then I drew his hands to my chest, to feel my then beating heart. Tears dripped and poured down my face and I didn’t dare to wipe them. And I told him, “I do not have one day.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“I know he loved me. I know that he wanted to save me. But if you loved someone so much, you could love them enough to allow them to go. Right? That’s how love works. It may tear you apart and rip you to shreds, but you still do it and allow whatever to happen, anyway. You have to accept it, heartbreak or not. You need to face it, tears or not. You must stand up and move on and do the things that you are fated to do. Caspian Marks was fated to do a lot of things; a lot of great things that were never set out for me.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“Caspian Marks, he... he is a lot of things. He was made to mean something, to be someone, to move mountains, touch the moon, and explore the deep blue seas. He was made to become someone extraordinary. So don’t you dare let him be stripped of that potential, and help him see his potential if needs it. Sometimes he will, sometimes he won’t. And if at any time you ever need the reminder, he may be a lot of things, but Caspian Marks will never be a heartbreaker. He is not meant to break hearts.”
Caspian Marks was a lot of things. He was irritating and brave and calculative and helpful and articulate and beautiful and funny in his own way. He was a lot of things, Caspian Marks, but out of all the things he was out of the many things in the world he could be, he was a lover. He was a lover, and he loved me.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“Hold on, Brantley. Do not throw your life out of the window. You are broken now, maybe, yeah. You are broken and life feels like it is slipping through the tip of your fingers, and maybe that is because you are letting it, and maybe it is not. But who is to say that tomorrow will not be better? Who is to say that tomorrow will not be the best day of your life? You would never know because you would have already given it up. So hold on, Brantley Thornton. Hold on.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“He watched me. He didn’t move, he didn’t flinch, he didn’t try and act like he was watching the stars. And when he got caught, he didn’t even care. He watched me, anyway. And the stars that were in his eyes flowed over to mine and journeyed across my skin and streamed through my veins and made me feel like a star myself.
It was at that moment I knew I’d be okay. That that would be my future in days to come and for eternity. And I was okay with it.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“I could sit here and lie and... pretend, too, and say that I share no feelings for you. I could say that... I could say that this... love, or whatever, whatever this is, is not true. But I would be lying to myself, Caspian Marks. And more importantly, I would be lying to you.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“When I made it home that night, I pulled out my journal—a journal that hadn’t been much in use until Caspian Marks came into my life. I had stuff to write about now. Caspian Marks gave me a life I could write about.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“I am crying because I do not want to lose you, Brantley Thornton. I do not want to lose you. Do you not get that? I don’t, and I can’t. Not in this lifetime, not in the next. Not now, and not ever.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars

“Because when you have someone in your life that is more addicting than any drug or substance could ever be, I mean, those drugs and those substances have no actual use anymore. They can’t get you high in the way that that person does. Caspian Marks he... he gave me that high. Nothing in the world I could try was any bit comparable to that.”
― Braelyn Wilson, Counting Stars