America Is Not the Heart Quotes

“Baggage means no matter how far you go, no matter how many times you immigrate, there are countries in you you’ll never leave”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“You've been foreign all your life. When you finally leave, all you're hoping for is a more bearable kind of foreignness.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“You already know that the first thing that makes you foreign to a place is to be born poor in it; you don't need to emigrate to America to feel what you already felt when you were ten, looking up at the rickety concrete roof above your head and knowing that one more bad typhoon would bring it down to crush your bones and the bones of all your siblings sleeping next to you; or selling fruit by the side of the road to people who made sure to never really look at you, made sure not to touch your hands when they put the money in it. You've been foreign all your life. When you finally leave, all you're hoping for is a more bearable kind of foreignness.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“This was--small talk, Hero thought to herself. Though why people called it small, she didn't know. The effort it scraped out of her felt immense, exhausting, like she should have studied for days beforehand just to be ready for it, like she'd need to sleep a dreamless sleep all night just to recover from it.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“As for loving America or not loving America, those aren't your problems, either. Your word for love is survival. Everything else is a story that isn't about you.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“You don’t ever really stop having a song. It’s easier to stop having a person than to stop having a song.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“There are mercies, and there are mercies.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“You know what it's like to have a fate; you also know what it's like to escape one.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“So that means you can't remember the last time someone told you take care of yourself in your own language.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“So then tell me. If Roni came to you now and said, Ate Hero, ako ang sira? Am I sira? Then? Anong sasabihin mo sa kanya? What would you say to her?”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“When she turned her head back to look at Rosalyn, she saw that Rosalyn had been studying her for longer than she’d been aware, arms around her knees, the gaze alert and considering. She looked at Hero like she’d looked at her this way a million times before and would do so a million times more; like she was looking at something she was used to but not tired of, something she could trace on paper with her eyes closed.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“A name had a lifespan like anything else.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“What Hero loved most wasn’t the cadre names people chose, but the word kasama itself: kasama, pakikisama. In Ilocano, the closest word was kadwa. Kadwa, makikadwa. Companion, but that English word didn’t quite capture its force. Kasama was more like the glowing, capacious form of the word with: with as verb, noun, adjective, and adverb, with as a way of life. A world of with-ing.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“As for loving America or not loving America, those aren't your problems, either. Your word for love is survival.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“Though later, as always, you'd realize that what you knew about the worst of the world, the knowledge about life you'd stored up, tart and proud because of where you'd been born, what you'd run from, what'd made you, all amounted to - mostly nothing, like anyone else's stupid history. It didn't make you any wiser or stronger, the way you hoped, the way you usually played it. It just made you you.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“You already know that the first thing that makes you foreign to a place is to be born poor in it; you don’t need to immigrate to America to feel what you already felt when you were ten, looking up at the rickety concrete roof above your head and knowing that one more bad typhoon would bring it down to crush your bones and the bones of all your siblings sleeping next to you; or selling fruit by the side of the road to people who made sure to never really look at you, made sure not to touch your hands when they put the money in it. You’ve been foreign all your life. When you finally leave, all you’re hoping for is a more bearable kind of foreignness.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“learn”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“White people always thought they were full of toxins, so you could make a lot of money just by claiming to be able to remove them.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“There are reasons people live in places, Hero said, not realizing she was quoting Teresa until she was doing it. There are consequences, too.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“You don't know that you're going to love him. and that you won't be able to differentiate this love for him from your devouring hunger to be recognized.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“Hero was touched by the small gesture of courtesy, at first only minutely, and then, for no reason at all, deeply and wholly. It was possible she was about to cry, here in this kitchen, for the first time since she'd arrived in America. To prevent that from happening, she stuffed her mouth with an entire quarter of the pizza, then huffed and gasped as the molten bite burned her tongue.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“Paz was a few years older than her; looked younger. Hero saw her alone on the veranda, in a black dress patterned with what looked like large sampaguita vines. Her center-parted hair reached just to the top of her ass; it was the most expensive-looking thing about her. She appeared to understand that beauty, at least, was also a kind of wealth.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“Paz smiled, and answered the way Hero would learn she always answered: rather than lying, or even dodging the question, she preferred to speak the supposedly shameful truth as if it were something to be proud of. Of course not, she said, her voice sweet and direct. We're too poor to have anything like a car.

She made it sound like it was desirable not to have a car, ridiculous to even want one. Hero had been impressed, not least of all because even she'd gotten in the habit of leaving a room whenever Tita Ticay entered it, terrified of her venomous tongue, her keen eyes, the ease with which she spotted weakness, and the please with which she toyed with it.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“Hero opened her mouth, still unsure of whether to use English or Tagalog when talking to Paz. Paz had a habit of speaking to Roni in a mixture of English, Tagalog, and Pangasinan. It felt like Roni didn't really know the difference between Tagalog and Pangasinan, and moved between the two interchangeably as if they were one language. Nobody had told her otherwise, Hero supposed. But for Hero, listening to the mixture was like listening to a radio whose transmission would occasionally short out; she'd get half a sentence, then nothing -- eventually the intelligible parts would start back up, but she'd already lost her place in the conversation. But when Pol would come in, they'd switch to English, and like adjusting a dial to get a sharper signal, Hero would be able to tune in again.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“Hero had the sense that Pol's Ilocano was stuck in time, that he only wanted to speak it with the people he'd always spoken it to, but even when Hero and Pol spoke in Ilocano with each other in California, there was a playacting stiffness in their voices that hadn't been there back in Vigan, when Hero used to hang on every word.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“You already know that the first thing that makes you foreign to a place is to be born poor in it.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“Huwag kang matakot. Ligtas ka dito, Adela murmured. Don't be afraid. You're safe here.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“Hero ached to be far from her knowing that nearness would present a yet more grievous and enduring ache. She stepped forward.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“You don't know yet that you're going to love him, and that you won't be able to differentiate this love for him from your devouring hunger to be recognized.”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart

“The older Hero got, the less she got along with romantics: people who liked courtship and courtly love, people who had big ideas about how men and women should behave in their relationships with each other—since typically these people thought only of men and women when they thought of romance. She found, oddly, that those people were often the least suited to sexual or romantic relationships, were staggeringly selfish and borderline abusive both in bed and in life, and treated their partners and friends more like protagonists and side characters, props in the love story they were constructing, in which they played the starring role, full of grand gestures and pronouncements”
― Elaine Castillo, America Is Not the Heart