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"certain people were born with the internet inside them and suffered greatly for it. thom yorke was one of them, she thought"

well...Yes!
p.s. i already really enjoy the structure of this. imagining it'll be helpful in my wip project...we guttering...or something

"dean doesn't see that i already have the complex in question, by virtue of being her daughter"
Yeah This Girl Gets It

"THE APOCYALYPTIC NATURE OF GRIEF AND THE IRRATIONAL DEMAND THAT THE ENTIRE WORLD HALT TO ACKNOWLEDGE A PERSONAL CATASTROPHE."

the quote on suffering........
oh mary shelley you and i are cut from the same cloth

sooooooo frustrating that paperbacks aren't the immediate release. i want a physical of everything must go but i refuse to annotate a hardcover :/

related: that book is so interesting already--chock full of references (in my case, recommendations) and wonderfully written, engaging conversation on The Eternal End Times. love it <3

"i figured that it might make me feel better in a funny way, gorging on unrealized nightmares"
Uh Yeah This Guy Gets It

if u think about it this is kindof like five nights at freddys

i think my heart has broken at least four times since picking it back up today alone. stellar

ough every part of this chapter sucks to read (it's meant to feel this way but man oh man)

"when you're on coke, you think you're really smart and interesting, but really, you're just boring and self-absorbed."

hey bud. hate to break it to u. i don't think it was the coke.

this is very dangerous to be reading at work. getting the feeling i may need to retreat from the desk to Cry...perhaps Often

god, this guy is insufferable. arrogant, self-aggrandizing, cocky, and just plain annoying to read from. at this point i just can't wait to see him get caught.

"says i persist in being damaged for my own enjoyment"

...hmm, you don't say!

"i am a house gutted by fire / where only the guilty sometimes sleep / before the punishment that devours them / hounds them out into the open."

are u so fucking serious rn

hit the wrong book i finished... BRUH gotta add east of eden back on. good thing i was barely 3% in and then abandoned it for months

"most of all i am jealous that she can experience all these things at an age when i held myself under such rigid control, when i was a creature made only from fear and survival. i am jealous that anybody has the gift of growing up differently."

finally getting back to this. i'm confused and disoriented and i miss my wife...

giggling kicking my feet we are so BACK i love vampires!!!!!!!!!!!

i promise the barrage of updates on this one will stop until i finish it. just. prevalent!

"'i have never met someone,' she said, 'who has a bigger appetite for misery. you're a glutton for punishment, foster dade.'"

XD

i've been wrong all this time. my romenation sentiments have clouded my judgment. my god...foster isn't rome...he's ken

this is gonna sound weird, but i'm getting a similar feeling to when i was watching succession for the first time, in the early seasons. i find it hard to believe it'll be anywhere near as affecting; it's that emotionally invested ethically confusing dread-sick feeling but Worse Because They're Kids

"i tend to think the saddest and most desolate things are also the most beautiful, he would later write. i realize now this is not a passive tendency. i plot my own sadness in the interest of this beauty. whether this is a coping mechanism or what dr. apple calls 'self-sabotage' i don't know. i am sad all the time and there is a magic to it."

jesus christ.

this is going to be very painful

i take it back i'm fully sick

keep feeling like i'm gonna cry and then feeling weird about that fact. getting a weirdbad gut feeling adjacent to succession but for wildly differing reasons