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ugh please not this. if this particular story beat follows the route it feels it might... it certainly wouldn't be enough to ruin the experience, but i find it hard to believe this trajectory wouldn't sour it for me, at least a touch

interesting to read "god, this wanting" in reference to a similar situation after just having heard jeremy discuss the "tragedy of kendall's wanting [deforming] his life." while i suppose it's a common thematic element in both fiction and life, everything is succession all the time if you're me, i guess.

ooooough yeah, this one is gonna hit. not the direction i anticipated maggie to lean but very pleased with her execution thus far. a bit of a stretch from the raven cycle but quite an apt maturation. very good i am excited to continue thru this

reading so many things at once it feels pointless to log them all until i finish them. spreading myself too thin for fun (?) i guess? and i Need to reread no one is talking about this AND foster dade. so very much to get to and so very little time...

always a fan of a well-done cannibalism story; simultaneously, i am growing Very Tired of the, at this point, incredibly overplayed theme of female hunger. i cannot stress enough. we understand. women have always harbored a hunger for a myriad of earthly pleasures. please, for the love of christ, say something interesting about it.

"i have a dog who almost died but doesn't care about being alive."

hm. that doesn't sound familiar...

"she sits in the bottom pew and opens the missal at random, reads the lesson from palm sunday and thinks judas iscariot is a beautiful name." <3

her name is cordelia :'] forever and ever my girl my girl my girl

after the intro + noted collaboration btwn penward and alex hirsch i'm blubbering dumbly. nothing i love more than these guys. wowowow what a gift to humanity--angels on earth. del toro's intro already had me weeping btw. can't recommend enough. this show and everything surrounding it fucking rules

taking a break from all my other literary endeavors as my mind is so swamped in depressive grief that i can't possibly focus on anything i've already begun well enough to meaningfully engage. this is the pinprick of light at the end of the tunnel. grateful for it.

ohh claire keegan you're incredible

we don't need to talk about it. yes i'm going through something yes i need this rn. this is to me something fundamentally unknowable to anyone else living or dead i'm sorry

"maybe there exists in my subconscious a masochist hell-bent on punishing me."

tell me about it!!!! >_<

OUGH I FEEL SICK. LING LING HUANG YOU ARE EVIL AND BRILLIANT. I ADORE YOU FOR THIS.

"i can see it in my past works, how reactive they were. i was frozen in this weird way in which my entire identity was just that of someone processing trauma." uhhhhh yeah brother

i've always imagined what it would be like to merge minds with my best friend. now i wonder if i'd even like to. jesus. horrific. this book brings to mind so many variables i'd never have considered. still, i think i still would, if it would make it any easier for either of us.

WHATTTTTTTTT. WHAT

"i just don't have it. whatever it is that propels people forward. i don't know if i'll ever have it again, don't even remember what it was like."

"while i was genuinely worried for her, looking after mathilde was a necessary distraction from the paralyzing depression that came from being so terribly suited for the thing i most wanted to do."

louder for the ppl in the back...i guess...

"as much as i disliked them, i also felt sorry for them. i couldn't have been the daughter they'd been conditioned to want."

AYO!!!! ENOUGH!!!!

"for the jealous" oh this is about to be SO good i've never been more locked in in my whole life

"i have become something of a pet to her, and i am so glad, because without a guiding hand i am no good."

she gets me

"forgive me, forgive me, forgive me, i am going to do whatever heinous thing i need to save myself."

k.

"we make each other. i wouldn't make sense without them. i might not even exist."

ah yes, the overwhelming and all-encompassing Correctness of lifelong friendships formed through the strife of high school

"the silence says a lot. all that upset has to go somewhere; i sometimes feel it moving under my skin, waiting to be lanced. i never thought i was being a pest until i was made aware i was one."

ayo ease up we're only 6% in!!!!!!!!!!! got damn!!!!!!

eugh gross dude i am so nauseated

wait this is kindof tea though

"he allows this grey space for delusion. you take a void and you name it 'goodness,' and is it so? if you can lie to yourself that you're a good person, despite all evidence, then suddenly is it so? then, within this system, anyone with enough self-delusion can admit himself to heaven. this is nonsense."