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“She had tied me up with wire and left me to die. But when all was said and done, she wanted me to die in her arms. So before entering my dreams every night, she yanked the wire tight to make sure I was still there.”
― Qiu Miaojin, Notes of a Crocodile

“She closed her eyes. Tears fell from her eyelashes. Every last fiber in my body felt as if it were being twisted and wrung. I’d wrenched our relationship to the breaking point and watched it split apart. I know I made you suffer. I’ll never cut you off again. I spit out the words that were caught in my throat. She let out a laugh, and then, as if she’d finally been torn open, a cry of pain. To paint a picture of our embrace, I’d almost have to use her blood and guts.”
― Qiu Miaojin, Notes of a Crocodile

“That guardedness was a by-product of my lifelong socialization, of other people labeling me and putting me in a box.”
― Qiu Miaojin, Notes of a Crocodile

“On how to love well: Instead of embracing a romantic ideal, you must confront the meaning of every great love that has shattered, shard by shard.”
― Qiu Miaojin, Notes of a Crocodile