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“Събудих се от някакъв шум. Още беше тъмно. Сесилия обикаляше из стаята и се обличаше.
Погледнах си часовника.
— Часът е пет — казах. — Какво правиш?
— Искам да гледам изгрева. Обожавам изгреви!
— Нищо чудно, че не пиеш.
— Ще се върна. Можем да закусваме заедно.
— Не съм закусвал от четирийсет години.
— Отивам да гледам изгрева, Ханк.”
― Charles Bukowski, Women

“And remember the old dogs
who fought so well:
Hemingway, Celine, Dostoevsky, Hamsun.

If you think they didn't go crazy
in tiny rooms
just like you're doing now

without women
without food
without hope

then you're not ready.”
― Charles Bukowski, Love Is a Dog from Hell

“nobody but you

nobody can save you but
yourself.
you will be put again and again
into nearly impossible
situations.
they will attempt again and again
through subterfuge, guise and
force
to make you submit, quit and /or die quietly
inside.

nobody can save you but
yourself
and it will be easy enough to fail
so very easily
but don’t, don’t, don’t.
just watch them.
listen to them.
do you want to be like that?
a faceless, mindless, heartless
being?
do you want to experience
death before death?

nobody can save you but
yourself
and you’re worth saving.
it’s a war not easily won
but if anything is worth winning then
this is it.

think about it.
think about saving your self.
your spiritual self.
your gut self.
your singing magical self and
your beautiful self.
save it.
don’t join the dead-in-spirit.

maintain your self
with humor and grace
and finally
if necessary
wager your self as you struggle,
damn the odds, damn
the price.

only you can save your
self.

do it! do it!

then you’ll know exactly what
I am talking about.”
― Charles Bukowski

“The ass is the face of the soul of sex.”
― Charles Bukowski