Saara

“I didn't totally fit in. I kind of disintegrated around people and became what they wanted me to be. But paradoxically, I felt an intensity inside me all the time. I didn't know what it was, but it kept building, like water behind a dam. Later, when I was properly depressed and anxious, I saw the illness as an accumulation of all that thwarted intensity. A kind of breaking through. As though, if you find it hard enough to let your self be free, your self breaks in, flooding your mind in an attempt to drown all those failed half-versions of you.”
― Matt Haig, Reasons to Stay Alive

“Luin joskus jostain, että unelmien toteutumisella on varjopuolensa, sillä elettyään unelmansa todeksi uneksija on antanut toiveensa pois. Se teki minut mietteliääksi, hieman surulliseksikin, sillä ajattelin, että ihmisen pitäisi jotenkin varoa unelmiaan, niiden toteutumista erityisesti. Jos uneksinnan arvo on uneksijan haaveilussa, minkä arvoinen voi toteutunut haave olla? Minkä arvoinen voi olla esimerkiksi kirja, jos se julki tullessaan on kirjoittajansa pois antama unelma?”
― Pajtim Statovci, Bolla

“If you reveal everything, bare every feeling, ask for understanding, you lose something crucial to your sense of yourself. You need to know things that others don't know. It's what no one knows about you that allows you to know yourself.”
― Don DeLillo, Point Omega

“I admire addicts. In a world where everybody is waiting for some blind, random disaster or some sudden disease, the addict has the comfort of knowing what will most likely wait for him down the road. He's taken some control over his ultimate fate, and his addiction keeps the cause of his death from being a total surprise.”
― Chuck Palahniuk, Choke