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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Jan 24, 2018 02:43AM
They're not.
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I don't know how many times I have to say this but they're not a healthy relationship.
My emotional health is also pretty bad and I haven't had an anxiety attack at school this week and it feels like now that I'm looking back on it I wasn't thinking clearly and it feels like I didn't even have emotions. I've just rushed through everything.
I was trying so hard to respond to my roleplays tonight too and now I don't have the energy.
I'm going to Ohayocon this weekend though with my sisters so that's fun and at least we'll get a break from home.
I gotta get some sleep though, so night!
I have homework undone. Homework I'll probably never do.
Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ wrote: "That's okay."Sorta XD
❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "*hugs*"*Hugs back*
❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin guess what"You learned to fly? Or do jumping jacks upside down or fly a plane without using your hands or....idk what am I guessing?
Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin guess what"You learned to fly? Or do jumping jacks upside down or fly a plane without using your hands or....idk what am I guess..."
omfg XD
I'm genderfluid and I go by Alex now.
❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin guess what"You learned to fly? Or do jumping jacks upside down or fly a plane without using your hands or....idk wh..."
:D
Ooh okay! Cool! If I ever mess up your name/pronouns, correct me! I'm usually good at remembering but sometimes I slip up and I hate doing that!
So last month I took a Star test which is just something to track your improvement over the year and they're all timed and they always make feel feel stupider than I am, but I took my math one and I was worried about failing it since more than half the questions were on something I hadn't learned yet and then I forgot what square root was too and it made me so angry that I looked it up after the test on Google, but I actually passed and improved by seventy one points and the teacher was like "that's good, keep improving" and I looked at him so seriously and said "thanks" and when I got back to my seat I almost tripped and I wanted to laugh so badly but I'm always the quiet one in that class since I transfered and I think the person next to me thinks I'm crazy but probably not. I kinda hope so XD
Oh also I'm currently reading this super motivational book that's written by a person who's also a humorist and I keep laugh-crying and at one point I was reading in the gym in the morning and I accidently let out a weird noise, that sounded slightly like a cackle, and I just quickly coughed afterwards as if that's make it all better.
Oh, and this past weekend, I got a picture with Kaneki (my favorite anime character) and I feel so happy about that fact.
Sometimes I just like listing happiness, especially after having a pretty bad week.
Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin guess what"You learned to fly? Or do jumping jacks up..."
thank you!! and it's okay I'll let you know if my gender changes and which pronouns to use
❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin guess what"You learned to fly? Or do jum..."
:) You're welcome!! And okay!
Pretty much the same actually XD And I'm glad you're good!
My mom wonders why her brother doesn't come see her....because they always fight.
He probably hates that. He doesn't want to ruin their entire relationship, so its probably easier for him to stay away, even if he feels bad about that
Lillian wrote: "I'm glad I'm good too.XD"Yay gladliness is good lol
I keep making college plans and I'm not even in highschool yet. What is my life?
I guess it's easier to think of a future than it is to live in the present XD
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I keep making college plans and I'm not even in highschool yet. What is my life?"That's nothing I had my life planned out when I was five."
Haha good for you being ahead. I keep changing and changing my plan so I know nothing XD.
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I keep making college plans and I'm not even in highschool yet. What is my life?"That's nothing I had my life planned out when I was five."
Haha good fo..."
It's hard not to do it, not that I try very hard, and same but with my seven year old self. My five year old self would just be impressed I'm alive.
Tried planning out my major in like Senior Year of high school and it ended up being too hard
That's what I'm afraid of. That it'll be too hard when it actually comes time to planning out my major.
Hmm I should think about what major I want to take
Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA f..."Is it bad I'm thinking of Alex from Magnus chase? Because Alex is genderfluid and I go by Alex now and I'm genderfluid
Erin wrote: "I keep making college plans and I'm not even in highschool yet. What is my life?"I had mine planned out in high school tho somethings changed
❄️Aℓєχ тнє Ʋαмριяє❄️ ~He/him~ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "I keep making college plans and I'm not even in highschool yet. What is my life?"I had mine planned out in high school tho somethings changed"
Yeah, that's probably the best time to super focus on it. And yeah, plans change.
Lillian wrote: "Hi Erin!"Hey Lillian!!
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Hi Erin!"Hey Lillian!!"
:) What's up?"
Currently the ceiling XD But also, just thinking about the future. What about you?
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