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Deadass just want a smoke and some pleasure rn

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That’s the thing about being in relationships, you’re anchored to one person

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Like you can’t go fuck with anyone

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The benefit is that he helps me study and we go to the gym together and he cleans my car when it snows

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Oh it’s 2:10, time to cry!!! See you guys in 2 weeks for my next round of mildly concerning posts

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I’ve got a newfound passion for legos after I built my first set at work on Saturday. I’m on thanksgiving break early bc all my Wednesday classes were cancelled so I’ve got off of school till Monday,,, and I’m having issues with life in general because I feel like I’m genuinely the most annoying person ever and everybody hates me lmfao

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Like my personality is just annoying,,, so like. people must hate me,? And if they act like they like me then they’re faking it & actually talk shit about me

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I acknowledge that I’m having a thought that I am annoying and people don’t like me

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Gotta use that mindfulness u know

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I rly just don’t have much 2 say,,,

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deleted user wrote: "Woah there. Got a sudden wave of feelings for an ex. *pushes it back frantically while scrolling through pictures of hot Russians*"

This was 5 years ago yet I know exactly who I was referring to

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Do u ever just catch yourself slipping

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I’m an idiot with withdrawal symptoms

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I just wand 2 b off of meds. I haven’t not been on meds since I was 10. It’s a full decade later.

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Have I mentioned that my friends are really great

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Monster fucking gay dating simulator dev team

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Deadass tho we’re working on a game. It’s a gay dating simulator based on Cyp’s monster fetish

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Life’s wild

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I miss my ex

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I also miss my friends & it’s gonna suck this week bc today was our last day together before everyone goes home for thanksgiving

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I mean we still have the group chat which is great but still

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Today we watched high school musical and played cards against humanity with our custom deck

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One of the cards is legit ‘jaysons bad timing’ because literally every time I decide to say something wildly horrible, someone important walks past

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I find it really funny that none of the people within my friend group are dating. It’s just really strange to me because we’re all queer asf and complain about being single a lot.

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To be fair, W is married to their wife and D has a girlfriend back home

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Also there’s like a lot of sexual tension between me and T

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Do you ever just cry because of how good the chicken strips are

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Might just duck around and drink ketchup, idk tho

[[deleted user]]

lol

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You can tell that my life is getting increasingly boring based on my increased activity on here

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it’s getting tighter

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Closer to thanksgiving, gotta spot them wedges

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Also I chewed off all my nails rip me

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Like they had grown out real nice and I was like chomp

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I also cut my hair with a pair of safety sossorcs at school on Tuesday while my friends were distracted with watching high school musical and when someone noiticed they were like “what the fuck Jayson” and I was just sitting there in a pile of my own hair

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Adventures in the lgbt resource center be like

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I also can’t spell the office supplies that cuts things

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Soccers

[[deleted user]]

Happy Thanksgiving

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I just made a playlist. 6 songs. One song for each person I truly loved this decade. 5 of them were “our song” respective to the relationship, 1 of them was what got me through the relationship because it was so awful.

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Here it is: (I can’t link bc it’s Apple Music not Spotify)

1. I’m Yours - Jason Mraz
2. Fallen Angel- Three Days Grace
3. One Step Closer- Linkin Park
4. Blue- Eiffel 65
5. Broken- lovelytheband
6. Cheerleader- OMI

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That’s in chronological order too, starting in 2012 and ending in 2019.

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#3 is the yucky relationship, obviously

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But yeah, so I keep a list of all the people I’ve ever mildly liked/had something going on with (because of my horrible memory) and i looked over it this morning and found that there were 6 people on there that truly left a lasting impact on me. Granted, in different ways — #1 was my middle school relationship, #2 was someone who filled me with so much emotion, #3 was someone who hurt me really bad, #4 was someone it took me forever to get over, #5 was someone who made me feel alive, and #6 was... well. You know.

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I just felt like that was a good reflection of who I am and why I’m that way. It also does a good job of summarizing the evolution of my music taste, oddly enough.

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So yeah I don’t know why I did that, but I just felt like it was a good way to preserve the way people have made me feel over time. Just a good way to remember the specific ways people have touched my heart in different ways.

[Wilbert]

what is going on???

[[deleted user]]

M?

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My semester has been over for a week and I still feel like every free moment I have should be spent studying

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Like I’ll be relaxing and then I’ll be like “oh shit shouldn’t I be studying”