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Done! Thanks. I must say, she did yeoman's work on your reviews. Truly outstanding.

I've never seen anything like it. One review, sure...but something on all your books. To die and go to Heaven!!!
It's hard to pick which one I want them to write about- so I send them a sample of each different series.

My books are doing terribly considering the amount I paid for promo over the last few days, but I'm really glad one of us is succeeding. ;)

Yeah, particularly because this was one of the last-ditch hail mary passes I had to try and make this writing this a success. I'm actually *thisclose* to giving up because I can't keep getting my hopes up and then having yet another thing fail. I've been in a depressive episode all week because of it - it's pretty much the only thing that triggers my bad mental health now. I just really can't keep doing it because it's making me miserable. But then the thought of giving up makes me miserable because I want to make a living off this so bad. (But then, of course, the fact that I DO want it so bad makes the failures so much worse. A vicious cycle.)
I don't know. All I know is that I can't keep working myself into exhaustion trying things only to have it be yet another thing fail. So if I disappear at any point in the few weeks or months, you'll know why.


I work at this more than full time. 12 hours a day (sometimes more) 7 days a week. It's not sustainable, particularly when I don't see any improvement. I've put out 3 books and 2 novellas since October last year, and I'm still making exactly the same amount of money each month.
I'm just...tired. And heartsick.

Being an author is a lot like being in business for yourself. It's not like having a regular job with a steady paycheck. There is no security. It's a very hard road. I have been in business my whole life- there were days I never knew how I was going to pay for food. My friend is a teacher with a very reliable paycheck. We often talked and she would tell me she could never live the way I did.
I respected her opinion- it's not for everyone. I look back on my life and think- I was educated as a teacher- I have never had a real "job," I never really worked for anyone else. My friend had a steady life- like a ride on a carousel. It was fun- she enjoyed the ride. My life was like a roller coaster with amazing dips- highs and lows- thrilling and hair-raising turns with twists I never saw coming- Like a good novel. While some of the lows were hard, they made the highs so appreciated, so rewarding. I think they toughened me up (I was such a baby when I started out). I don't think I'd trade it for anything in the world. They say the more hard knocks- the tougher you get.
I respected her opinion- it's not for everyone. I look back on my life and think- I was educated as a teacher- I have never had a real "job," I never really worked for anyone else. My friend had a steady life- like a ride on a carousel. It was fun- she enjoyed the ride. My life was like a roller coaster with amazing dips- highs and lows- thrilling and hair-raising turns with twists I never saw coming- Like a good novel. While some of the lows were hard, they made the highs so appreciated, so rewarding. I think they toughened me up (I was such a baby when I started out). I don't think I'd trade it for anything in the world. They say the more hard knocks- the tougher you get.

I've been doing this for 1 year and one day now (my publishing anniversary was yesterday). I'm nearly 2.5k in debt just on this writing thing. So the end of the end of the year figures make it look even more dire, not better.
I still love writing, but it's tough to find motivation when you know no one will ever read it. I can't keep crying myself to sleep forever feeling like a complete failure. Just one 'win' would keep me going for a while, but it just keeps getting worse. I quite honestly can't take it anymore. I'm not a soft person, I've been through really tough stuff without blinking an eye. But this is really killing me and I need to get out before I do my mental health permanent damage.
Alex- I cant even express how happy I am for you. I am wishing you continued success!
Aislinn- I completely understand what you are going through. I have been back and forth on that thought myself. Everytime I get a new opportunity to promote (paid and free), I get my hopes up. Then when I see the flat lines on my sales graphs, my heart sinks. I have decided to stick with free promotions for now, unless it is a very unique opportunity, and focus on having fun writing, my family and my "real" job. I can't imagine giving up writing completely because it is a big part of me and I enjoy meeting other authors and readers.
Aislinn- I completely understand what you are going through. I have been back and forth on that thought myself. Everytime I get a new opportunity to promote (paid and free), I get my hopes up. Then when I see the flat lines on my sales graphs, my heart sinks. I have decided to stick with free promotions for now, unless it is a very unique opportunity, and focus on having fun writing, my family and my "real" job. I can't imagine giving up writing completely because it is a big part of me and I enjoy meeting other authors and readers.
To me, no matter what is going on in my life, I am always happy to celebrate a friend's success. :) I enjoy hearing your good news and am sure many others feel the same way.

Being an author is really tough task. I agree with Carole. First of all, we have to decide why we are writing? If it's hobby then free promo is best, if you are a new author then also I would suggest free promo only. Bestsellers can't be created within a year or two.
I am open to all, I may help if anyone needs.
I would suggest you to continue your writing and if required search for a job altogether. The more you write, the more you will get.
Wish you all the best!

But its times like these that I try not to let my usual depressive mental health come in. I'm writing more books, but I still think in the back of my mind, "Does it really matter?" And somehow I know it will in the long run. I've been doing the writing and publishing thing a lot longer than you.
Even though I started in this writing and publishing thing when I was a middle schooler, which was 27 years ago. (Man, I feel old in this industry even though I'm just in my late thirties). I still know I have more miles to go. Many times I wanted to give up. But something in me no matter how deeply and utterly depressed I am won't let me quit. My dream is to live off my writing full time, too.
Hang in there, Aislinn. It will pay off, you'll see. Even if it doesn't look like it right now. It's a journey. You have all our support here! :)
Something that Tyler Perry said the other day that struck a chord with me. He said, "Whatever your intention is that's where you'll end up." You intend on making it as a writer full time. That's where you'll end up. Don't give up and you'll get there.
It's hard and time consuming. Success can be selective as well as fleeting.
I have kept my day job. I enjoy the writing and it is like a second job for me. The marketing part takes up a lot of time too. They are demanding.
I have set up every goal we've ever gone after with a five year plan. If we see we are not heading in the direction we wanted, we often have to readjust the program.
Be realistic, be prepared and understand very few make it to a place where they can support themselves solely on their earnings.
I have kept my day job. I enjoy the writing and it is like a second job for me. The marketing part takes up a lot of time too. They are demanding.
I have set up every goal we've ever gone after with a five year plan. If we see we are not heading in the direction we wanted, we often have to readjust the program.
Be realistic, be prepared and understand very few make it to a place where they can support themselves solely on their earnings.

From what I've read, even to earn modest amounts from writing takes several years. I did my tax return the other day, and I've spent twice as much as I've earned! But I'm in this for the long haul.
Please don't lose heart.

When I talk about what it costs to hire cover art, editor, marketing and the rest, people say gosh isn't that a lot of money. Yes it is. But as hobbies go, it's pretty cheap. Cheaper than a boat, for example. Cheaper than an RV. Cheaper, even, than model railroads or collecting comic books.
I don't regard the money spent as going into a hole. It's just money I've spent. I could have gone to Vegas or Disneyland. I've spent five times that to go to Europe. None of that money has been wasted (well, maybe Vegas).
I have to write. I've been writing my whole life. If I spend some money on that writing, that's pretty much fine by me. I figure out how much I'm willing to spend and I spend it and I don't look back. Plus, I have actual books!
I'm retired. I can afford to be a little philosophical. If I were thirty and trying to make a living at it, I'd be less patient. But I do think that choosing to spend, say, $3000 a year on the project is an okay choice (assuming I have that!). The time isn't wasted. The money isn't wasted.
All this advice is based on the assumption that you're going to keep writing anyway, because the prospect of not writing is worse. I've always held that if a person *can* stop writing, they should. Or at least they shouldn't fret over the decision.

http://chryscymri.com/blog/a-first-at...

Yeah, particularly because this was one of the last-ditch hail mary passes I had to try and make this writing this a success. I'm actually *thisclose* to giving up because I can't keep..."
Aislinn, I felt much the same way. I wanted to 'make it' with writing and quit my day job eventually, but realize it's not going to happen for me at this point in time. (I've been at it two years, but my productivity is slow - day job and life.) I've settle back into thinking of writing as a hobby, and I'm actually enjoying myself more. I feel like less of a failure and am just having fun writing again. Not sure if a new perspective can help. Sorry about the sales, though... I can give away my books, but nobody seems to want to buy them. I get it.
Most of the authors I have met- who publish books- do have a "day" job- even it's it's writing articles for magazine.
Nat, I completely agree. In college, I originally pursued a degree in music performance and education. I started the degree program because I loved music, but the more it became a job, the less I enjoyed it until I got to the point I didn't even want to pick up an instrument. When I began writing, I told myself that I would not make that mistake again. I set out knowing that it wouldn't become a full time job for me, but I at least hoped to make back what I put into it. I am finding more and more that is not the case and have been trying to refocus my mindset on enjoying writing again. If I am not enjoying it, then I have lost the point of writing.



Thanks Erica and Alex :) My goal is to make the next thousand in less time ;)

Thanks Erica and Alex :) My goal is to make the next thousand in less time ;)"
Sound thinking. Now you've..."
Best of luck Alex!! I'm sure you'll make it :D


Are we supposed to have Amazon author pages in more than one place? Don't they copy round to all available markets?



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