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Amber x biromantic
" Look I'm sorry, I'll stop talking about it, please stay," Luca begged, he was about to cry, " I don't want anything to happen to you, if anything does it will be my fault," Luca said, his bottom lip trembling
Cooper too was on the verge of frustrated tears. He pulled away for a little while longer before giving in to Luca's hold. His body fell limp against him and he sighed softly. "Fine," he murmured quietly.
Luca held him close, he pressed his lips to Cooper's shoulder, " I'm sorry my sweet Prince Cooper," Luca mumbled as he buried his face into Cooper's shoulder.
Cooper was unresponsive for a second. Just trying to shove feelings back deep inside. "It's okay," he murmured. He sat up and slowly removed Luca's arms from his body. Once he stood he started trying to finger comb through his hair to fix it. "Let's just go to the store," he said hoarsely.
Luca nodded and wiped his tears away from his eyes, he swallowed the lump in his throat and went to his closet and pulled out a red hoodie, Luca didn't answer, he went to find his mother, since they would need her food stamps card.
"No let's just go. It's on my mom," Cooper responded. He had a card linked to her account and she made fairly good money since she was always traveling. He was allowed to buy groceries with it and other things he might need and this permitted as both. He found his keys and wallet and went out to his car.
Luca stopped in his tracks and sighed, all he did was sigh heavily and walked out after Cooper, his eyes watering again as he kept remembering bad memory after bad memory. Luca didn't bother to wipe his tears away, he felt eyes on him but didn't bother to look to see who is was, he just made his way to Cooper's car and got into the passenger seat. Luca felt utterly terrible and felt like he shouldn't even be here with Cooper, not after all the pain he has been making Cooper feel.
Cooper sighed softly. He hadn't done anything yet. His seatbelt wasn't on, keys not in the ignition, eyes staring forward. "Why are you crying?" he asked. He went to reach a hand over but pulled it back, not sure if he'd even be comforting to Luca at the moment. Instead he played with the hem of his shirt nervously.
" Isn't there ever a time where you are suddenly happy with your friends or family and then suddenly bad memory after bad memory starts clogging your mind and you remember all the bad things you ever did to them?" Luca whispered, he didn't look at Cooper, he still felt terrible about bringing up the kiss, he just wished Cooper spoke to him.
"Yeah," was his only response for the time being. "How do I fix that?" he asked, turning his head to look at Luca. "Can I hug that away?" he questioned but knew the answer.
Luca bit his lip, he closed his eyes tightly, " I don't want to be touched right now Coop, I'm sorry, maybe we can hug later," Luca mumbled as he put a seatbelt on, he saw his mom on the porch, staring sadly at the car Cooper and Luca were in.
Cooper was honestly relieved to hear he wouldn't have to hug Luca because he wasn't in the mood either. "Do you want to stay and I'll go home?" he questioned, still not making a move despite Luca putting his seatbelt on.
Luca looked at Cooper, " Stay, I do need your company," Luca mumbled softly, he then looked back out the window, he needed to clear his thoughts and take a few moments to think about things.
Cooper nodded. He pulled his seatbelt over his body and started the car. He drove to the store in silence and went in after grabbing a cart. He tossed his favorite and Luca's favorite foods, snacks, drinks, and desserts in. The price was hefty but he didn't care. He hoped maybe of they had a good time later they could get back to normal. It hurt so bad right now.
Luca was thankful for the silence and took those few moments to think about things, his mind slowly working its way to shut down the memories and bad things he remembered. He followed in after Cooper and helped grab the things they both liked, he sighed and smiled a bit so people wouldn't ask him any questions, he bit his lip, clearly still stuck in thought.
Even on their way back and unloading Cooper was silent. Silence was his favorite state. That was why he liked school. Especially the classes with asshole teachers that had strict no talking rules. Though it was weird to be this way around Luca. He excused himself to the bathroom and leaned against the wall, slowly sliding down. He pulled his knees to his chest and closed his eyes.
Luca had collapsed onto the couch, sobbing into his hands, his mother came rushing out of her room, she saw Luca, " Honey, stop bothering him about the kiss, he'll talk about it when he wants," Grace scolded gently, she came over to her son and sat by him. Luca said nothing, Grace continued, " Everyone in this town hated it when you guys fight, it ruins people's happiness and takes the fun out of everything, you'll have to apologize soon Luca, you can't treat Cooper like this," Grace said. Luca sighed, his mother was right, " Its worse this time mom, we spent forty minutes in silence and when Cooper offered me a hug, I rejected it," Luca said, his voice cracking. Grace winced, she sighed, " You stay here," Grace said to Luca, she went to find Cooper and found out he was in the bathroom, she knocked on the door, " Honey, please let me in," Grace said softly, she had her phone and a scrapbook in her hands.
Cooper reached behind him and locked the door. "Sorry ma'am. I don't feel like talking right now," he stated. He just wanted to be alone. He knew he should have gone home this morning. Maybe they needed time apart. Sometimes that was other friendships problem, spending too much time together was possible. But it seemed not for them.
(( quick question, what happened to Cooper's father? Because I had an idea that if Cooper's mother is always on business trips or dating other men, she could have distanced herself from her son and her friends....I'm just wondering because I think Cooper should have someone to relate to about the situation ))
((His mom left his dad because he was yelling constantly and sometimes got violent. That's why Cooper doesn't like yelling.))
(( ah okay ))Grace sighed, she kneeled in front of the door and looked directly at the door, " Honey, I know what it's like to feel like you've lost your best friend," Grace said softly as she placed the scrapbook and her phone on the ground beside her. "When your mom left your dad , I felt like your mom distanced herself from me and tried to stay away from me," Grace said as she looked down at her hands. " Luca might be going through some aftermath of the divorce me and John had, you remember what happened right?" Grace asked, since she knew Luca told Cooper everything about her divorce with John. " John was drunk and almost killed Luca, he got sober though after the divorce so that he could see his favorite boys, I think Luca was effected by the divorce, I predict he'll start drinking soon if you guys don't make up, Luca feels horrible for what's he's doing to you, he feels like you are trying to distance yourself from him and that hurts his heart, he needs his best friend back," Grace mumbled as she pushed the scrapbook under the the door, it had big letters on the front that spelt Cooper and Luca's names. She then pushed her phone under the door too, the photo app was open and an album full of Cooper and Luca pictures were on that, " Those will help you calm down, I'm going to go hide the alcohol before Luca gets his hands on it," Grace mumbled.
Cooper opened the door and held the scrapbook and phone out for her to take. "You're wrong Grace. I don't feel like I'm losing my best friend because I'm not. I'm just upset right now. And I don't have someone to go to. Because Luca is upset with me and me him so I'm not going to go to him. I don't have a mother to go to. Not a dad. And I'm sorry Grace, but your son needs you right now. You go to him and I'll hide the alcohol. Then I'm going home. Because I need to be alone right now," he spoke. Though him being alone could quite possibly be dangerous that was what he wanted.
Grace turned, " Perhaps Luca feels like he's losing a friend, and keep those both, I don't need that phone or that scrapbook, and you have me Cooper, I've been here for you since you were how old? Who fixed you up when you fell on your knees and scraped them? Who comforted you after you went through a haunted house? Who was the one who went to your parent teacher conferences because your actual mother was out doing other things?" Grace spoke quietly before running to the living room after hearing a cry of pain and the smashing of a bottle.
((I don't mind drama, but one thing after another keeps happening and I'm finding it quite unrealistic. Can we have some down time where everything is calm for longer than four posts? Also would his mom be this involved in their friendship? It's kind of weird?))"Really you're going to attack me now that I've said something you don't like? Guilt trip me? Is this how you want to go about things?" Cooper had questioned. He shook his head as she spoke. He also left the room and went to the source of the crash when it rang out. "Come on Luca," he sighed.
(( oh yeah sorry, and no the mom isn't involved with the friendship, she's just a mother who tries to help when things get out of hand ^_^ also I'll calm down with the rushed drama and stuff ^_^ ))" Leave me alone mom and stop guilt tripping Cooper, we need a break! I need a break! Lately you've been hovering me like I'm some baby! I'm not a baby mom!" Luca screamed when he felt his mother beside him. Luca gripped his wrists, perhaps picking up that knife wasn't a good thing to do, because it slipped from his hand and sliced a long wound across his wrist, causing him to drop a bottle of whiskey. Grace didn't feel the slightest bit fazed, " Cooper go home, Luca I'll call your father," Grace said, she knew that everything Luca was yelling was just in anger, but she knew he meant it.
For a second, Cooper went to walk away but he sighed. "Well I can't leave now. I'm not going until Luca is okay," he stated. He could see the blood. He knew that Luca hurt himself. He'd seen the scars. He didn't know if Luca knew that he in fact also hurt himself, just in a different way. He calmly walked over and maneuvered Luca away from the broken glass. "Calm down. Stop yelling at your mother she doesn't deserve that and you know it," he said quietly. "May I please have the first aid kit?" He requested.
Luca looked at Cooper, eyes glassy, " Don't, I don't deserve to be healed, not after the pain I caused you," Luca said as he looked away, Grace vanished as soon as Cooper asked for the first aid kit, she rushed to her bedroom and grabbed it, coming back to Cooper. " I didn't mean to guilt trip you Cooper," Grace said softly as she handed the first aid kit to Cooper, " I just meant to tell you that you weren't alone and that I was here to help if you needed it," Grace murmured as she walked away, she grabbed the house phone on the way to her bedroom.
"Shut up Luca. I don't want to hear that shit leave your mouth ever again," Cooper snapped. He sighed softly had Grace's words. He wanted to say something else but she was gone already. He was quiet as he opened the first aid just and grabbed what he wanted out, immediate applying pressure to what was bleeding. "Why do you do this to yourself? Drinking Luca? You know you're more prone to being an alcoholic because of your dad," he sighed. "Never mind," he added with the shape of his head because he already knew the answer.
Luca just looked at his wrist, " I'm sorry about the past scars," Luca said softly as he reached out a tentative finger and dragged it up the bottom of his forearm, he was delusional right now, having to have drank a few secret beers before choosing to drink Whiskey. " I know I'm prone to drinking, I drank a few beers before moving onto whiskey just before you guys came to the living room," Luca mumbled, " Don't leave me alone tonight, at least not for a long period of time," Luca said softly.
Cooper looked up at Luca when he requested he not leave him alone. "Alright," he sighed. He didn't want to leave him despite needing his own alone time. But he knew Luca would do something bad. After he finished cleaning up the wound and wrapping it he set to cleaning the broken whiskey bottle.
" I'm going to bed," Luca mumbled as he pushed himself off the floor when Cooper began cleaning the glass, his mother came back out, " Your father agreed to let you stay with him for awhile Luca," Grace said as she watched her son head for the stairs. " Thanks mom," Luca said without turning around, Grace turned to Cooper, " Go home when he goes to sleep, ill stay with him," Grace said softly.
"Night Luc," Cooper said. He sweeper up the glass and threw it away then mopped up the spilt alcohol. "I can't do that Grace. You know I can't. He might get upset I'm not there when he wakes up," Cooper spoke. He washed his hands once everything was clean and sighed. "I'm sorry about earlier. I was just worked up," he told her and gave her a brief hug.
Grace sighed softly, she didn't press him any further, she hugged him back, " Think about your emotions Cooper, Luca will definitely be thinking about his, perhaps you can work this out when he wakes, just be gentle, alcoholics can be triggered by some things," Grace said softly before heading to her bedroom. Luca stumbled upstairs and stumbled to his room, he pulled off his shirt and pants and went and put on shorts, he then crawled into bed, he started crying again.
Cooper raised a brow at her words. "Shouldn't Luca be thinking about his emotions too?"he questioned under his breath when Grace was gone. He didn't understand why this was so one sided. He shook his head and laid on the couch. Tomorrow he'd leave. After Luca woke and he checked in he would leave and get some space. Because now Grace was making the problem worse for him.
Grace rolled her eyes upon hearing Cooper, apparently he hadn't heard her say that Luca would definitely be thinking about his, she needed space from children, she was making problems worse and she didn't think they would want her around for long. Grace sighed and collapsed on her bed, she couldn't believe she lost her son to self-harm and alcohol, she never expected him to go for alcohol at all, she shook her head and tried falling asleep. Luca felt like he lost everything, he didn't feel loved and he didn't feel like he was even alive, he hoped this was all a bad dream and it would quickly fade away, there was a knock on his window and it opened, he swallowed as he turned to see Cindy, she sighed, " Oh honey, what have you done?" Cindy said softly, she came over to his bed and crawled inside, she looked at her friend, " I know you self-harmed like your father did, but I never expected you to resort to alcohol," Cindy murmured, " Where's Cooper?" Cindy asked. " Don't talk about him, I don't want to think about him," Luca said as he curled up to his friend, " I hurt him badly," Luca added.
((How did she just appear without Cooper or Grace seeing her?))
(( window in Luca's room, want me to take that part out and make it so she comes through the front door? ))
((Dude I'm sorry. I guess I'm reading stuff wrong because for the feelings thing I read this instead of his. (Which Grace should have been able to actually hear Cooper he said it when she was gone) and I read knock at the door. I just think it's weird that she's there altogether but whatever.))Cooper stayed on the couch. Maybe he could sneak away for a while. No. Still if Luca came down or anything he wanted to be there.
(( oh okay ^_^ ))Luca spilt everything to Cindy, everything that happened ever since Poppy got arrested and all, Cindy listened to everything he said to her, gasping softly as she continued to listen. Luca began crying again, and Cindy was there to try and soothe him, which wasn't really helping because he sobbed even louder, that made Cindy since. " Oh kitten, you really dug yourself a deep hole here," Cindy started as she ran her hand through her friend's hair, she sighed softly and shook her head, " Cooper can't stay here Luca, he needs his free time, he needs to be at home, take a break from each other okay?" Cindy suggested. Luca sighed and nodded, he wiped at his eyes, but the tears still came, he pushed himself away from Cindy and went downstairs to tell his best friend....well probably ex best friend....to go home, he saw Cooper on the couch, he paused at the bottom of the steps.
Cooper had his fingers on his temples. He was exhausted and there was nothing he could do about it. Sleeping sounded nice but he didn't think he could do that right now. He was still worried about Luca, wondering if leaving him alone was a bad idea. Maybe he'd try and hurt himself. Though Cooper had no business pretending he wouldn't be doing the same if he were alone.
Luca watched Cooper, he saw the pain in his friends features, he saw the tiredness in them too, he stepped forward to make himself noticed and bit his lip as he looked down at the ground before Cooper could see him staring. Luca just wanted to jump at Cooper and kiss him like no tomorrow, he wanted to wrap Cooper, his Cooper, in his arms and comfort him, Luca wanted to cuddle with the only person he could ever trust until their problems melted away, but he couldn't, not after what happened. " Cooper, go home, you deserve some sleep, I'll call you in the morning," Luca murmured softly, pain evident in his voice as he spoke, his voice raspy after crying and yelling and everything, he didn't even notice he wasn't wearing a shirt.
Cooper sighed. He pulled himself off the couch and walked over to Luca. He lifted his chin to make him look up. "Are you sure?" he murmured. "I don't want to leave if you don't want me to Luca. I know you need someone," he added. He reached up and wiped the drying tears from Luca's cheeks. "If I go you have to promise me you won't hurt yourself," he continued.
Luca wanted to break down crying again, he didn't want Cooper to stand here and treat him like this, he wanted Cooper to scream at him, yell at him, blame him for anything that he wanted, Luca wanted to hear Cooper's feelings being thrown at him but he only just leaned into Cooper's when the boy touched his face. " Go home Cooper, i don't want to keep you here," Luca said softly, he pushed Cooper away a little bit so he could wipe away his own tears when they began to fall again, " I promise not to hurt myself, only! If you promise me not to hurt yourself either, I know you do it sometimes too, I'm not blind, promise me that and I'll keep my promise," Luca mumbled.
Cooper's eyes widened a bit. "How'd you know? I don't do anything obvious," he responded. He'd purposefully done that because his mother was ridiculously observant and would have gone crazy. He played with his fingers nervously. "But I promise I won't," he added afterwards.
Luca actually let out a chuckle, a small one, " I'm not blind Cooper, I always know these things, I've known for awhile now, but they stopped after awhile so I didn't question it," Luca replied as he glanced down at the ground, he then looked up at Copper when he heard the boy in front of him make the promise. " Go home Prince Cooper, if you need anyone, I suggest calling Cindy, she's an amazing person to help with things like these," Luca mumbled, he leaned forward and kissed Cooper's cheek sadly before rushing back upstairs, tears threatening to fall. Luca came into his room and found Cindy gone, did he just imagine the entire thing? Luca noticed the window was open, he sighed in relief, he wasn't going crazy.
Cooper took a deep breath. He grabbed his things and got in his car, sitting there for a few moments before leaving. When he got there to no surprise no car was in the driveway, but that was what he wanted tonight. He went in and locked the door behind him. Immediately he went upstairs to his room and stripped his shirt then jeans before crawling into bed. Finally he let himself feel. All of the pain and the fear from the day and previous one. He let tears fall down his chest and laid face down in the pillows. He cried until he fell asleep but then nightmares plagued him. Ones of Poppy getting what she wanted and ones of losing Luca.
Luca stared in shock of what Cindy left him, " No freaking way.....the friendship bracelets me an Cooper haven't worn for years! How did she get them?! We lost them ages ago!" Luca said as he walked over to them and picked them up, they would need a little tweaking in order for them to fit them again but Luca smiled softly. He frowned suddenly, " No no no! I will not let you guilt trip me," Luca growled, he tossed the bracelets onto the floor, and collapsed into bed, where he ended up staring at the ceiling, stars danced darkly across the bright blue ceiling.
Cooper woke in a panic, scratching at his skin where Poppy had just stabbed him in his mind until it bled. "Shit," he muttered after he had finally calmed down enough to realize it was a dream and what he was doing. He got up and cleaned up his chest. As he was wiping away blood he was freely crying and it bothered him. He went back and got his phone, pulling up Luca's contact before closing it again. He went back to wiping at his skin and once again was compelled to call Luca. "He's probably sleeping," he mumbled. Through blurry vision he decided to just do it anyway. He picked the phone back up as he dabbed at his chest and called Luca.
Luca couldn't sleep, his eyes darted to the bracelets, he looked away finally and sighed as he stared at the ceiling once more, before his phone ring. Luca sighed softly and reached over, he grabbed it and without even checking the contact name, he answered it, " Hello?" Luca mumbles, he half hoped it was his father or even Cindy.
"I don't know Luca in not a mind reader," Cooper groaned. "Please just let me go, I want to leave, you won't leave me alone," he continued. He needed to get away before he got overwhelmed with thoughts and emotions about everything and just snapped.