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Sep 30, 2013 05:55AM
She didn't care that he was leaving, "I'm an idiot to have thought you cared. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you." She hugged her knees a whispered like a child, "I miss my mommy."
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Noah walked out. He clenched his teeth and balled up his fists. Once outside he silently punched the side if the hospital. Which was brick. Noah scraped his hand but didn't care.
She just sobbed her heart out. She had no family left because of Noah. She had TOLD him that her mom was all she had left. That she couldn't live without her and he STILL had called! How could he?! She felt heartbroken over the loss of her family and that it had been Noah to take that away.
((What should happen from here?))
((Sure. Maybe they avoid each other?))
((or are too close for comfort with derrel and lisa but refuse to speak to each other?))
((Yeah.))
Noah groaned when Darrel told him that him and Lisa were going to a party. Noah was going too, but if Lisa was going so was Kenzie. He muttered a few curse words and slammed his locker shut. Storming out of the school.
Noah groaned when Darrel told him that him and Lisa were going to a party. Noah was going too, but if Lisa was going so was Kenzie. He muttered a few curse words and slammed his locker shut. Storming out of the school.
((Yeah.))
Noah groaned when Darrel told him that him and Lisa were going to a party. Noah was going too, but if Lisa was going so was Kenzie. He muttered a few curse words and slammed his locker shut. Storming out of the school.
Noah groaned when Darrel told him that him and Lisa were going to a party. Noah was going too, but if Lisa was going so was Kenzie. He muttered a few curse words and slammed his locker shut. Storming out of the school.
Kenzy said, "No. We are not going. If Derrel goes so does Noah." Lisa said, "So your going to let me go alone with him?" Kenzy muttered, "No." She said, "But you ssssssssooooooooooooooooooo owe me." Since her mom had been arrested she had but in a foster home and everyone who watched the news and their friends looked at her different. Some pervs even had the gall to touch her and ask her why if her mom was a whore why she wasn't. All because of Noah's big mouth.
Darrel walked after him, "Dude. What's wrong with me and Lisa going together? Or you for that matter?" he asked. Noah looked at him, "Cause if Lisa goes to the party, so will Kenzie. And right now the only thing that is going to keep me sane is staying away from her!" Noah exclaimed. He knew what was happening to her and Noah knew Kenzie blamed him. Which she was right to do, but neither of them could tolerate each other. So being near each other would be like putting wrestlers in a ring together.
Lisa said, "Common. Get over it. She was abusing you. Maybe it's better this way." Kenzy smacked her hard and growled, "Don't you ever say that again. I've lost my dad to death. My mom was all I had left and now she's gone too. I have nothing left and your telling me it's better like that?" Lisa bit her lip, "I'm sorry Kenz..."
Noah walked outside and leaned against the wall but sank down to the ground. He put his head in his hands. "Look," he said to Darrel, "if you're taking Lisa I'm not going. So its either me or her. And honestly I don't care who the hell you choose." Darrel debated for a moment. "Ya know what? I'll just take Lisa. You wouldn't have fun anyway." he said walking away. Great. Now Noah was losing his friends.
Kenzy just wanted to be alone she sighed, "I'll come but if Noah's there I leave." Lisa nodded.
Noah leaned his head against the wall behind him. He was shaking. He hadn't smoked in a few days and he needed too. But he'd left his at home and Darrel was out of earshot by now.
Kenzy walked out and Lisa ran over to Derrel. She passed Noah and didn't say a word to him just gave him the heartbroken, ' I can never forgive you' look she always did.
Noah didn't see the look. Seeing as how he was trying to control himself. He needed to get over this. His hands were balled up into fists.
She went home, slipped up the room and cut. It was a bad habit but it was starting to form. She felt like nothing. She was the wierd one with the messed up family. Her foster brother came in and watched her harm herself, "Hope no one else knows you do that. You have a hard enough time in the love world without adding 'emo' to your list of unattractive traits." She looked down and muttered, "Leave me alone, Devon."
Noah had to go home. He found Darrel and traded vehicles with him. It wasn't safe for him to drive in this state. He drove home and went inside to his room. Grabbing a pack of cigarettes and a lighter. He pulled one out and quickly lit it.
((Yeah.))
Noah inhaled the cigarette. He sat on his bed and waited for the trembling to stop. He rubbed his forehead with his free hand.
Devon shrugged. "I'm just saying. Who's this Noah guy you're always avoiding anyway?" he asked.
Noah inhaled the cigarette. He sat on his bed and waited for the trembling to stop. He rubbed his forehead with his free hand.
Devon shrugged. "I'm just saying. Who's this Noah guy you're always avoiding anyway?" he asked.
"What are you talking about?" she asked, not wanting him to make fun of her. She put the knife away and bandaged her arms before putting on her jacket again.
"What am I talking about? We all know you're avoiding him. And by 'We' I mean the school. You two look like y'all would, and could, kill each other in seconds. What happened?"
"Maybe you heard about how I landed in your house too. I'll give you a hint it's connected."
"I know how you got here. But what's it got to do with him? Hmm?"
"He was the one who called the police. After dropping me off from our one and only date. And after I had told him that my mom was all I had left. I was stupid to trust him."
"He did the right thing, ya know. Are you positive you'd still be alive by now? Cause from what I know, it doesn't sound like you would be." he said.
((I get to defend my own charrie! Yaya!))
((I get to defend my own charrie! Yaya!))
((lol))
"You weren't there, Kevon. I was cut up and bruised and unconscious but nothing was lethal. The hospital only kept me so long because I had nowhere to go. Other than that they just gave me bandaids."
"You weren't there, Kevon. I was cut up and bruised and unconscious but nothing was lethal. The hospital only kept me so long because I had nowhere to go. Other than that they just gave me bandaids."
Devon rolled his eyes. "Whatever. It would've come to that eventually, and you know it." he said walking out and away.
She didn't care. Once in a while she had liked the pain. No one understand that. No one knew what it was like to watch your role model die and your mother become a whore and a druggie. No one knew what it was like to have the formerly ever present attention and praise turn to abuse. No one."
Noah lay on his bed an arm over his eyes, covering them from the light. Noah listened to the radio as he thought. He knew that she wouldn't talk to him ever again but he couldn't see anyone get abused anymore. Not after his brother. Noah's hands balled into fists as the memories flashed through his mind.
She texted Noah, the pain too hard to handle. She only typed one word, "Why?" It was all she wanted to know. Then she could try to forget everything she had felt about him.
Noah pulled his phone out of his pocket and looked at the text. He clenched the phone. "Because I couldn't see anyone get abused again.", he replied to to her.
"Again? Because you totally saw me get hurt." She rolled her eyes angrily and tried not to throw her phone across the room.
"Bruises is enough for me, Kenzie. And yes, again. My brother died because of abuse." he replied, clenching his jaw.
She bit lip, understanding finally, "I'm sorry...she was all I had left. I didn't mind it Noah. I'm sorry about your brother though...really..."
"Whatever." was his reply as he put the phone back on his bedside table. A few tears rolling down his cheeks. Noah hardly ever cried but only if he talked about Daniel.
It was a Saturday so she ran to the flower shop and bought a bouquet of roses. She went o Noah's and rang the doorbell, holding them in front of her.
Noah sighed and sat up, wiping his face. He got up off his bed and walked down stairs. Noah went to the door opening it he looked at her and blinked. "Yes?"
She hadn't them to him, "I'm sorry for being so cold and bringing up your brother..." She bit her lip unsure if she could ever trust him again. Or even like him fully...
Noah took the roses and handed them back to her. "Keep them. You enjoy them." he said. "But thank you." Noah said, leaning down and quickly kissing her cheek before pulling away. "Later." Noah said closing the door.
She said, "I bought them for you. Give them to him..." She blushed when he kissed her cheek but looked away without smiling. He had betrayed her trust still the same.
Noah sighed and leaned against the door and sunk to the floor. Putting his head in his hands. He knew she would never trust him again but he desperately wished she would.
She felt awkward and guilty so she sat next to him and rubbed his back. Like a friend. She didn't want to be his girlfriend, not because he was the bad boy but because she didn't want him screwing up everything she entrusted to him just because of personal expirience or he thought it would hurt her. She was going to visit her mom in jail tomorrow for the first time since her arrest, but she didn't say this because he'd just think she was an idiot for wanting to see her.
