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ah, makes sense and sometimes it is good to have those stronger feelings but it can also be a curse. I know that feeling and yeah you should focus on yourself very a time and then maybe date later.
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If I may ask, what happened to give you trust issues? You don't have to answer if you don't want to.
Oh well, It happened awhile ago so I'm safe with talking about plus this is a group so it helps let go of my emotion barrage about these stuff. I guess you could say it technically started when my mom passed when I was 4, but I don't count that as the starting point. The first stage was with an ex of me who cheated on me in middle school with my best friend. And then my other friends were fake and told a lot of people about secrets. I mostly felt lonely over that and now have very few friends.
Sorry about that being long I try shorten it as much as I can.
mmmm....trust is hard to find in peeps theses days. everybody always looks out for number one
Yep, sadly I don't do that I always look out for others just now without telling to much to them about my past.
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I'm sorry to hear that.😕 Nothing quite hurts like the death of someone as close to you and your mom or betrayal by someone you love/were in love with. As for trust, I don't know. I feel like I have been used and stabbed in the back a lot lately, but I still somehow end up trusting people- which perhaps is how people have been able to do that to me in the first place. I don't know. I also went through two periods of depression in my life, on-and-off anorexia/bulimia, and um, a year and a half of traumatic experiences that I still don't feel comfortable calling by its term. I don't know. Maybe it would be better to just say what it is- instead of skirting around the word. Sigh. Mmm, okay. I was molested by someone close to me. Sigh. Okay, now I have said it. It still sounds and feels so strange to say.
Ah, I know a lot of people who have been through that it is sad how this world is and its okay if some stuff is to much for you to say I understand and I do hope that you will find someone or something that will make you happy. Sorry for late reply i use my school chromebook for goodreads and they block anything with the name chat in it so yeahhhh.
Mmm...well all i gotta say bout that bro is that the molester idiot can go craok on a stick...or somethin...
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Thank you.
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That's sweet... I think. Lol But I don't wish that on him. He is still part of my life and I hope he will remain that way since he is family.
No problem if you needed or need someone to talk to you my message on here are always open. Some people say I can be a psychologist so that might help, just to lazy to get a degree so yeah if you need anything you could message me on message tab or here.
mmm...fine...thoigh still think he needs to craok. though i practly almost choked someon to death cause he hurt my brother so that may just be me. hope u will be safe
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Thanks.
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Thank you, honey. I appreciate the thought.
No problem. And damn ash you are the opposite of me I mean i will fight for my brother but usually I just talk them out of hurting my brother I think I have ways with words.
yeah. i am really mean and my brother is really nice....i am workin on it....but i don't think it workin. and ur welcome Jacquueline. u sound nice and i don't like it when nice peeps get hurt
Ah sometimes its fine to be mean at least to the right people. I learn that after practically 4 of my brothers out of 8. Dad always busy. sadly now I barley see them since I live with gramps for now
mmm..i donno...i got some probs. some not like many others. dad keeps tellin me hell bring me to a shrink if i don't stop some o them. aw well how u doin Lawless!
I'm doing fine to be honest. Just got somewhat worried about one of my friends but I cheered them up 2 hours ago
yeah...friends krep given me heart attacks. they are always gettin hurt or are haven probs that i can't help with. glad u cheered em up! hope they still are!
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I don't know. I think you should always try to be understanding. Sometimes, people who are mean are just having a hard time and don't express it the right way. I know that on occasion I can be quite mean too. Sometimes I will be stressed or angry and someone that just rubs me the wrong way will say something insensitive or annoying and I will just vent it out on them.
True, my friends say I'm to understanding. In fact that's why they get cheered up but then get annoyed since when they aren't happy I butt in a lot and try to ask whats wrong and yeah I'm not good with socializing irl.
And thx ash hope you are well as well and she seems to be fine for now it was her parents that made her sad because they think she not responsible enough tho they are the ones who said for her not to get a job.
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I talked to the girl that I was complaining about earlier. Lol I think she might still like me, because we have been talking almost every day for the last week. There were a couple of moments she became awkward that were kind of cute.
ha! askin whats wrong sounds like i would do, but u do it nicer it sounds like it. ther nothin wrong with understandin peeps as long as u don't trust thwm wholeheartatly.
good luck dude. hope it works out with the girl.
yep true ash and ooo sounds interesting jacqueline
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I don't know. She is being very nice to me, but she isn't exactly flirting back. I know that she isn't the shy type and I don't think she is in a relationship, but she also seems more interested in me than when we were talking/flirting a couple years ago.
Ah so a hard one to understand. It might be that they feel safer with you but they don't know if they have feelings. Opps I'm guessing again. sorry about that I do that a lot.
mmm...i donno. maybe she don't knwo if she wanna hang with u or she is figerin out how far she wanna go...i donno. i don't focus much on that stuff.
yeah. peeps don't seem like they wanna tell anybody there feelins till they know it will be returned.
Yeah, some get confused others just don't want to ruin friendship.
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I don't know. I kind of assumed that the fact I was farther in the closet when we were talking a couple years ago was a factor. I more recently start posting more obviously bisexual memes and have been making more of an effort to come out. A couple years ago, I also avoided asking her out because I was getting over someone else and I didn't want to start the wrong way with her.
maybe she seein where u are thwn. tryin to figure u out more.
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Well, we don't really have much of a friendship. Lol Actually, I didn't think we had much of connection at all back then. It's only now that I am starting to see a little more of one.
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Maybe. Ah... The mystery that is a woman. Lol
ha! the mystery o both genders! they always confuse u!
Lol but yeah we shall see what happens. Hopefully some good news.
...and the talkin putters to a stop....
Really trying not to date now though. I just want to focus on myself and my goals. I am interested in this one guy that is quite different from the rest of the people I have liked, but that wouldn't work right now anyway. We are in different places in our lives. Dating recreationally also doesn't work for me. I feel more strongly than most people, so I also have stronger feelings for people that last longer.