“I know I probably should. I should explain about the argument with Mum and all the arguments we've had over the past few weeks. I should explain how difficult it is to keep trying to do better when there are so many people who just refuse to understand how hard it is. I should explain that I barely slept last night because I was so anxious about dinner and, even though I actually did well, I still feel like everyone was watching me, waiting for me to fuck up and ruin the day.
But it's so much easier to just not think about it.”