Sugar and Spice

All his training and experience suggested that doing nothing was the most reasonable course of action.  After all, often the analyst finds that maintaining silence and a failure to respond to the most provocative and outrageous behavior by a patient is the cleverest way to get to the psychological truth of those actions.
-John Katzenbach
"The Analyst"

Twenty-five years ago today

December 31, 1985
Tuesday

I did not telephone Chad until 11:45AM. It may have even been later. I didn't say much except to call. It was a call that meant I was thinking of him.
Chad questioned me, "Why are you calling if you have nothing to say of any real significance?"
I chose to think nothing of his question. It was just difficult for me to talk from my position. I can't say a whole lot.

I would later learn from Larry that Chad would often say, "He calls me and has nothing to say. It bugs me."
Well frankly, he is starting to bug me. I wonder if I want a prolonging "bug" in my life in 1986. I hope he shapes up. He seems to be more of a GEMINI to me because there are times when he's such a sweet guy and then turns evil. Why do I care so much for him?

I had a great sales day. I miraculously sold eight 'Remote Call Forwarding' Services.

After work Margaret Lai and I went to the Stagecoach for appetizers and White Russian cocktails. We had a good talk and a good time.

When I arrived home Sue Miller called me.
"What are you doing tonight?"
"I'm not sure."
"Maybe a movie would be good," Sue hinted.
"Yeah, but right now I just want to rest," I said.
I also wanted to wait for Chad to call me.

I telephoned mom and learned that Ricky Nelson died in a plane crash. How awful!

I telephoned Larry and he actually made me feel good.
Larry said, "You know…you have to realize how lucky you are. You are good-looking, you have a good job, a nice place and things will work out. You and Chad will adjust."
After that I took a nap.

Erika Hurst called me. She's that elderly woman who likes to talk a whole lot (practically about nothing). She's still interesting in her own right.

Chad finally called at about 9PM to say, "Happy New Year!"
"Happy New Year."
"I'll be coming over."
I was glad about his coming over. I want to see him. Then again this ever-changing attitude (hell of) bugs me. If he'd only be "good" and nice with sugar and spice all of the time. Perhaps his moodiness is because school is starting up again.
Chad had said, "Once school starts I won't be able to spend as much time with you."

Chad arrived at 11:30PM. He seemed down and out. I think he wanted to go out tonight but my funds were too low to even consider it. So, we counted down to midnight in my living room and smacked XXX kisses at midnight.

We watched a sinister film called "SISTERS". And then—to my dismay---we slept much too much.


Life had such a strong hold upon him that a fresh wave of nausea broke out in slight perspiration upon his brow.
-Joseph Conrad
"The Secret Agent"