Regrets

"Do you regret our love? I must know."
Why do they ask? He thought. Do they ask the sun if it regrets the light?
"No, I do not," he answered tenderly. "I only regret that we must part today."
"Must it be today?"
"Today is easier than tomorrow," he replied.
He did not deny the truth.
-Bette Bao Lord
"Spring Moon"

Twenty-five years ago today

January 1, 1986
Wednesday

The holiday went by so fast. I know it's because of my frequent moments with Chad over my holidays. He makes the time go by faster—for some reason—because he's fun to be with. That's it, of course.

This morning I wasn't in the best of moods. It was because of the previous night. I wanted more than just 'sleep'. Chad was going to leave a note and simply leave because he thought I was unhappy. He decided against of (and I'm glad of that). He didn't leave. If he had left I would have been displeased.

On this New Year Day we took a walk to the Islandia Recreation Center and then on to Alameda's South Shore Shopping Center where we stopped and ate at McDonald's. When we returned home Chad made a comment.
"You know, Mike, you've been boring lately."
I don't think he really meant it. I, at least, hope he didn't mean it.

We ended up leaving my house at 5:45PM and headed for Hayward to meet Larry at the Festival Cinemas. We watched "The Young Sherlock Holmes". I enjoyed it very much.

This would be Chad's last recurring sleepover night. We satisfied our good-byes upstairs in my room. He starts back to school tomorrow. I begin my exercise and nutrition program tomorrow, too.

Creative thinking emerges from stillness.
-Tony Parsons
"As It Is"