Trying to Find My Academic Groove Again
I just finished my second week of school. And Christ, I’m so exhausted.
Worse, I shouldn’t be so exhausted. For every minute I’ve done homework, I’ve spent 30 minutes wasting time on Buzzfeed. Damn you, addicting quizzes.
As usual, I’m perpetually behind on schoolwork. I have a paper due Wednesday, reading due Tuesday, a tedious Food Label project thing due Friday, and a math problem set due Friday. And have I started on any of it yet? Hell no.
What the fuck am I doing with my life?
It took me twenty minutes to come up with two sentences for a post I had to make for my social science class. And they were mediocre as fuck sentences.
I honestly need to get my shit together.
Last weekend, I did nothing productive. Friday night, went to see The Princess Bride. Saturday night, got shit-faced. Spiced cider rum is my new best friend. Sunday night, went to see B1A4. OH MY FUCKING JESUS CHRIST, IT WAS SO AMAZING. I mostly got over the post concert depression, but it was hard, man. I love B1A4 so much.
And I haven’t been doing much writing either. I want to try to write 10,000 words a month, but I don’t know if that’s going to happen with my schoolwork and major procrastination.
Side note: I took a “Can We Guess What Type of College You Went To?” Buzzfeed quiz and got COMMUNITY COLLEGE. What the fuck? Sorry, but the University of Chicago is not a community college.
Oh my God, I’m becoming a snobby fuck…
Scratch that. What type of college you went to honestly doesn’t determine what kind of person you are. There have been countless times when I’ve wondered if I would’ve been happier going to a less prestigious but more laid back school. Honestly, there are so many people who haven’t gone to college AT ALL and have been seriously successful. Really, if you’re ambitious and talented enough, you can do anything, with or without a degree.
But I’ll probably end up spending four years at UChicago. Forgive me, but I kind of want the fucking meaningless prestige, man. And I need a backup option if my writing never takes off (which to be depressingly honest is highly, highly probable and almost certain).
I hate math, but a math degree will give me some options career-wise.
Ha, ha, but will I be good enough to get that degree in the first place? PROOFS ARE KILLING ME.
Seriously confused and tired college student.
