Something lost - or gained?

When we lose something precious it is a loss that can be quite a shock to the system. What we took for granted is gone and a shift must take place which can be terrifying.
I am experiencing such a loss and I am having to shift accordingly. Stability was something I had considered a given thing, having experienced it for such a long time, yet now, that stability has been torn away and I am floating freely without an anchor, without a planned path and facing the fears that confront me.
At the moment I am still in the shock phase, anger, disgust, frustration have swiftly followed as well as disbelief that such cruelty could happen to me and mine.
Yet, even as I cower in fear of our future, a small part of me wonders if this is the open door rather than a closed one? Perhaps the universe is ending one miserable existance to make way for a happier road? Perhaps we need to see the fear and act anyway to live life to its fullest? To truly feel and experience all of our emotions is a rare thing these days as we plough through our lives - work - eat - sleep - where do we truly feel?
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