Freeing Friday
Although the lack of sleep makes me feel like I’m going insane, I realize I can’t be. I’ve got books to finish. But seriously now, I’m sure you want to know what makes this day so freeing huh? It actually has nothing to do with my books, but more of what makes me weird and me. I had a horrible dream, I watched my husband pack up his things and leave. It was just terrible, now here’s the background info to help understand a little more……
A long long (5 years ago) time ago I had been married to a man that had a habit of leaving me in spring. For another girl, although he still lies about it to this day, I’m not dumb I can see just fine and I know what I witnessed! Anyways, so this time of year I get a little emotional still and the nightmares start which in turn starts the insomnia. It was my life for more than 7 years with that man and now 5 years later I can’t convince myself that my new husband ( well it’s been almost 3 years since we got married) is staying. I didn’t want to believe it happened to me at least 8 times that I know of in 6 years of marriage to my ex-husband. I know better but I can’t convince my brain it’s true…..
That being admitted, It was completely freeing to wake up to the most wonderful man in the world smiling back at me like he had every morning since the day we first moved in together. He is my hero and my best friend in the whole world and I am stupid for dreaming other wise. He is my dark knight (A huge batman fan if you couldn’t tell my my blog name). He wouldn’t even look at another woman let alone leave me for one! With just 5 days to our 3rd wedding anniversary I feel amazing know that even my nightmare of him leaving me are just a story I made up in my dreams. Maybe I needed a little more drama in my life? All I know is I’ve never been happier to wake up on a Friday morning and smile and the man that.
Sorry I’m sappy today.
A long long (5 years ago) time ago I had been married to a man that had a habit of leaving me in spring. For another girl, although he still lies about it to this day, I’m not dumb I can see just fine and I know what I witnessed! Anyways, so this time of year I get a little emotional still and the nightmares start which in turn starts the insomnia. It was my life for more than 7 years with that man and now 5 years later I can’t convince myself that my new husband ( well it’s been almost 3 years since we got married) is staying. I didn’t want to believe it happened to me at least 8 times that I know of in 6 years of marriage to my ex-husband. I know better but I can’t convince my brain it’s true…..
That being admitted, It was completely freeing to wake up to the most wonderful man in the world smiling back at me like he had every morning since the day we first moved in together. He is my hero and my best friend in the whole world and I am stupid for dreaming other wise. He is my dark knight (A huge batman fan if you couldn’t tell my my blog name). He wouldn’t even look at another woman let alone leave me for one! With just 5 days to our 3rd wedding anniversary I feel amazing know that even my nightmare of him leaving me are just a story I made up in my dreams. Maybe I needed a little more drama in my life? All I know is I’ve never been happier to wake up on a Friday morning and smile and the man that.
Sorry I’m sappy today.
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