The ups and downs of writing

I'll be honest, as I've always promised i would be on my blogs, I feel down. I feel sad and anxious and very worried about my future.
I have been feeling let down, conned, stupid and vulnerable these last few weeks by people who promise much, but deliver nothing. being an author, over the years I have found that I need a hard outer skin, to take the lies, the broken promises, the comments, feedback, but sometimes, I can't always shake it off.
For those who know me, patience is not my strongest point when it comes to waiting for something. My anxiety levels go sky high. On top of that, the constructive feedback from various people have made me question my ability.
Oh, I know I can write a damned fine story! I am the storyteller, but what works for me in grammer, is not always working for others and it's a tough pill to swallow.
Even as i write that, I am very aware of the readers who've enjoyed the books so much, they hound me to finish the third!! Plus, a writer's digest judge considered my book good enough for screen - whoohooo!
On top of that, having offered to give my book away for free, only one person took me up on the offer!!! I can't even give my award-winning book away!
I know it's fierce competition out there and at this moment I am wondering if I should continue?????????

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