Damn Good Thing -With a Catch

The other day I sat down and forced myself to write in the long put aside third novel involving protagonist Jonathan Alvey – Nine of Cups. I broke the barrier that was holding me back and since then have done over a thousand words a day (a good start but I’d like to double it).

Being back into the mindset of writing, being able to immerse myself in the world and ‘see’ the next scene is great. I love it more than anything and can’t, even as one who loves words, describe the peace and euphoria it bring me.

The catch?

Being able to do this is, all too often, a direct result of my mind going haywire. If I am in the middle of writing, and nothing stops me, I can write like a mad man even when I am not. But to start up, like this, usually means I am slipping cogs.

I wrote two good short stories while my brain was at its highest functioning state, not to mention some intense and creative edits for the anthology, so one does not rely on the other -  I don’t need to be insane to write and sometimes I am too insane to write (though rarely) – but it is another sign to add to the growing list of signs that my days of easy functioning are coming to a end.

I am lucky though. I have the escape, the release that writing bring – others are not so lucky. So at the end of the day – I count my words written as blessings granted and prepare for the next scene.

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