O.k, I think...?

Well, it's October and I've sold some more books, I did a little 'whoohoo!' when I saw the balance go up, yet I am feeling tired and deflated - why? Is the reality setting in where I am seeing my dreams fading away quicker than mist? Did I truly believe it would be so easy to become a best-seller when the cast majority of humans on this planet have never heard of P.J Roscoe, never-mind that I write!

I read how other writers have 'done it', achieved the dream by selling thousands when they too only expected to sell a handful - so what did they have that I don't? Computer skills? Knowledge? Time?

I reach out on twitter, Amazon, e-mails, facebook and face to face (which is great because I've met some lovely people) and just for a moment, I can almost believe that I can make a living, a decent one as a writer of supernatural fiction - but am I deluded? Or is it early days and I am impatient as usual? I hear my family and close friends who know me well, shout 'YES!' you are impatient - give it time, keep reaching and let the ripples reach the right people in time - but never stop...So, here I go again on my own...!!!?