So Cruel To Think Of Adieu

(A poem not for lovers per se)

suddenly, yes, suddenly

i know all will end

in a fleeting moment of awakening

those lingering illusions of love

those tempting stares and smiles

and tender caresses on the arms

are mere pieces of shattered glass

scattered on desolate leaves of grass.

i know everything

will come to pass

like footsteps on the sand

like flashes of lightning in the sky

or the last gasps of a dying man.

so cruel to think of adieu

for am certain after parting

painful memories

will scorch my flesh

and pierce my mind

your shadows will stalk me

in every deserted streets

together we’ve strolled

in every poetic places

we’ve built our castles

of liberating dreams.

how can i learn to forget

when in every minute

memories cascade

in the waterfall of my brain?

but can you still remember me

as time silently passes by

especially at dusks

when loneliness is as cold

as the dewy december dawns?

can you still remember me

in the years to come

in your world of sacred dreams

even faded are the pictures

of our struggling togetherness

while tenderly, so tenderly

the dried leaves of memories

begin to fall and kiss

the parched earth of despair?

can you still remember

the old rag you most needed then

when your shivering soul

feverishly groped for love’s embrace?

when gone you are

and wish no more

to glimpse at me and behold

what can i do

but to embrace my solitude

and hope forevermore

that in this time and space

in the rebellious moment

of my forsaken life

you will again walk by

like the solitary music

so many, many times

am always yearning to hear

though violently slashing my heart

and continuously paralyzing

my meandering tormented soul

so cruel, yes, so cruel

to always think of goodbye!