My dad has passed away

TW: death, grief

My father passed today. He went peacefully, gratefully, and seeing him looking to his end with welcome was just proof of how much pain he was in. I will miss him so much. He was the one who told me I should publish, when I first started releasing my books twelve years ago. He designed two of my book covers (one of them is Sine Qua Non's), and I dedicated the last book I wrote (Xander: Helen of Troy Retelling) to him. I'm so glad he got to see a book with my name get a little number one best-seller banner before he passed. All I have ever wanted to do is make my parents proud.

I appreciate the support and kindness of everyone over the last couple months. The emotional drain of watching a loved one slowly succumb to cancer is something I wouldn't wish on anyone. Knowing that I was in the thoughts of my friends got me through some pretty tough times. So many people were so very, very kind, sometimes in ways that I didn't expect.

I miss my dad. But I will continue to try to be a person I think he would be proud of, and I will carry him in my heart.

Nenia ♥
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Published on June 12, 2024 01:56
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message 1: by Alex (new)

Alex Dear Nenia, I am so sorry for your loss.

Fuck cancer! It got my dad in 2013.

I hope you stay strong! I can't think of other words that might help, because words did not help me. My family and friends helped me. I'm thinking of you. >:D<


message 2: by Benjamin (new)

Benjamin Appleby-Dean So sorry for your loss, that's awful


message 3: by Nicki (new)

Nicki So sorry to hear this.


message 4: by niki ✨ (new)

niki ✨ gosh, that must be awful!! i bet he was amazing person, so sorry to hear this


message 5: by Nayab (new)

Nayab I am so sorry for you loss :( *hugs*


Maya (Sup3rN0va) I'm so sorry for your loss. May he rest in peace. I'm keeping your family in my thoughts


message 7: by gabby (new)

gabby I'm so sorry for your loss!


message 8: by Alyson (new)

Alyson Stone So sorry for your loss!


TL *Humaning the Best She Can* So sorry for your loss 🫂 ❤️


message 10: by AziaMinor (new)

AziaMinor So sorry for your loss. ❤


message 11: by Jay (new)

Jay So sorry for your loss.


message 12: by Ashley (new)

Ashley I'm so sorry, Nenia <3


Sarah (is clearing her shelves) I'm so sorry, Nenia. I hope you don't need anyone to tell you that you have made your father so proud. I don't think you need to try too hard to be who your father would have wanted you to be, as I believe you've already attained that accomplishment and he loved the person you've become.


message 14: by Scott (new)

Scott Rhee My heart goes out to you, Nenia. I'm sorry for your loss.


message 15: by David (new)

David Gustafson May I direct you to “What Wondrous Love Is This,” a short gospel song written in 1811. I think you will find much consolation in the final verse. It fits the father you describe very well. You will find versions of this song all over YouTube. May I recommend the one by the Sunday 7pm Choir.


message 16: by Angelina (new)

Angelina Myers So sorry for your loss.


message 17: by VKNask (new)

VKNask So sorry Nenia *hugs*


message 18: by B. (new)

B. Goodwin So sorry. It's a hard loss.


message 19: by Suzana (new)

Suzana Thompson So sorry to hear that. I know how hard it is to lose someone you love. Words are no comfort during this time, but I hope you find solace in those closest to you.


message 20: by Meggie (new)

Meggie I'm so sorry for your loss. My brother passed away in 2011 from glioblastoma - it changes you on a fundamental level when you watch someone you love die. The feeling of helplessness never really goes away, but you do learn to live with it.

He was lucky to have you as a daughter, and you gave him everything he needed in life merely by existing!


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