Is it really hard being an introvert?
She zipped her mouth and was mocked by many and named as shy. Just to clarify, she was not really shy but just being observant with a million thoughts running in her mind. I’m still the one who wouldn’t mumble a word until it is really necessary even for which a few rehearsals would run in my head.
I know that I have the adequate skills but still not wanting to prove my colleagues have become my mindset now because they are not going to give me a job. Why would I prove them? I claim this to be my level of understanding others. But I never give a chance to fail when it comes to an important event as like attending an interview or addressing a public gathering. These are not as same as talking casually on the phone or directly with a single person.
Spending time alone has always been my choice. I am not more open to things that do not add value to my existing understanding, undeniably this has become my only reason to lose a lot of people in my life. I wasn’t able to be like them or match them thus I became more concerned about myself.
Prioritising myself, I was aware of the major responsibilities that I need to take to become the person whom I wish. In my journey of becoming the person whom I want to be, I became connecting with optimistic people who discuss opinions and get in-depth conversations as that would enthuse more to focus on priorities than casual and informal talks. I always wish to have formal conversations and the standards stay in my mind and I couldn’t alter to become jovial and use casual tone. As to manage with other people, I stepped out of the circle that drew, and began accompanying my colleagues with the activities which they did and trust me that was a new and fun-filled experience.
But I knew my limits, a person who is not in control to be within limits can never really succeed. Thus, I always set my boundaries when it comes to relationships, emotions, food, finance etc. It is because setting a limit and sticking to it would make us feel more powerful.
Being true to the set of values would guide us to reach our destination. I have reframed my thoughts to be positive:
•If I sacrifice one for today, I can enjoy two for tomorrow.
•All my unpleasant experiences are learning for my growth and betterment. My suffering in the future would be less.
These ideologies motivate me to perform better. I.e Even when the circumstances of partying and working came, I prioritised work and started isolating myself from people to work, not in all the cases. But I believe it is necessary to sacrifice a few enjoyments and work hard as that work would be recognised one day even if it is not immediately.
I have realised the power of introverts, just spending ample time in silence is a way to recharge my battery to bring out my thinking abilities to light. Always my mind is in control with enough is enough. Just accepting my way of being myself, considering things of my own to be significant within my small circle.
Written by a quiet girl who socialises with the people she knows well.
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