Year-end Dreams
Might be another long post:
Dreams are the most vivid everytime the year ends and I even get a sleep paralysis, I don't know if it's just me because I believe that we all get a fair share of psychological and physical fatigue and for me, the effects are these outlandish sleep adventures.
Last night I dreamt of a meteor shower and every second I saw a meteor, it exploded in the sky as a firework, imagine a meteor shower and pyrotechnic show! Phantasmagoric,spectacular, auspicious? Maybe, just maybe because the scene was too extravagant. I am thinking that it's a reflection of my desires being all over the place, they're all scattered in my head. Lol. Everything is beautiful, lots and lots of them that they're exploding anywhere in my imagination and yes these past months have been silently explosive, it's okay to be both happy and lonely, confident and ashamed, healthy and sick, inspired and daunted.
The ups and downs are equally conducive to becoming appreciative of every now, every present, every day has been a day of healing because while life puts so much pressure, I always choose to decompress. One of the worst things you could ever do to yourself is to join those that encumber your path. Time flies and I am well aware of expectations, but then I am not comfortable with "having plans", I don't have plans and goals,I HAVE VISIONS and instead of focusing too much on schedules like how plans are being executed, I'd rather let go and surrender. I'd rather anticipate than expect so there'll be no regrets.
My mind is so full and I sometimes end up feeling so frustrated, it's always about tests and challenges and the reality of being awake is mostly you get lost in multiple realities like you are in one place and somewhere else even though in times when you think you're stuck, it has been a dilemma to decide. Now I am not sure where I'm going with this "gibberish", it's just that I hope you don't feel the burden of having the need to have a major change for the New Year, I hope that you'll remain hopeful that life is happening even when you feel like there's nothing going on for you. Even if hoping can be exhausting, don't get tired of dreaming!
-Nicola An
Dreams are the most vivid everytime the year ends and I even get a sleep paralysis, I don't know if it's just me because I believe that we all get a fair share of psychological and physical fatigue and for me, the effects are these outlandish sleep adventures.
Last night I dreamt of a meteor shower and every second I saw a meteor, it exploded in the sky as a firework, imagine a meteor shower and pyrotechnic show! Phantasmagoric,spectacular, auspicious? Maybe, just maybe because the scene was too extravagant. I am thinking that it's a reflection of my desires being all over the place, they're all scattered in my head. Lol. Everything is beautiful, lots and lots of them that they're exploding anywhere in my imagination and yes these past months have been silently explosive, it's okay to be both happy and lonely, confident and ashamed, healthy and sick, inspired and daunted.
The ups and downs are equally conducive to becoming appreciative of every now, every present, every day has been a day of healing because while life puts so much pressure, I always choose to decompress. One of the worst things you could ever do to yourself is to join those that encumber your path. Time flies and I am well aware of expectations, but then I am not comfortable with "having plans", I don't have plans and goals,I HAVE VISIONS and instead of focusing too much on schedules like how plans are being executed, I'd rather let go and surrender. I'd rather anticipate than expect so there'll be no regrets.
My mind is so full and I sometimes end up feeling so frustrated, it's always about tests and challenges and the reality of being awake is mostly you get lost in multiple realities like you are in one place and somewhere else even though in times when you think you're stuck, it has been a dilemma to decide. Now I am not sure where I'm going with this "gibberish", it's just that I hope you don't feel the burden of having the need to have a major change for the New Year, I hope that you'll remain hopeful that life is happening even when you feel like there's nothing going on for you. Even if hoping can be exhausting, don't get tired of dreaming!
-Nicola An
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