Nicola An's Blog - Posts Tagged "dreams"
One Year of My First Poetry Book
Oh dear Universe and all the loving spirits in the higher dimensions, thank you for A YEAR of "The Universe at Heartbeat", this is me speaking from my earth self, thank you for allowing me to create this piece. For the times of constant healing whenever I see this book because the journey that made me accomplish this will always be that one special reminder of being grateful to be here and being capable of understanding the balance and magic of existence. Thank you for making it as a bridge for me to connect to people I instantly find warm and welcoming even without meeting them, and for the kind words I randomly receive. I hope to create more and to send the love even to the next lifetime. I am not sure if I've spoken enough to deliver the true journey of this book, but hopefully to suffice it all: THE UNIVERSE AT HEARTBEAT is my gratitude to the Light that saved me, it is giving back to what I've been given, and from that Light I learned to always see the good and to never run out of something good to give. :) I wish you a lifetime full of blissful days and a peaceful heart!
Thank you for your existence, if you happen to read this, do something good to yourself now! -Infinitely,
Nicola An
Thank you for your existence, if you happen to read this, do something good to yourself now! -Infinitely,
Nicola An
23rd Year
Here's to 2 3 years of borrowing this lifetime-this exhilarating and whimsical school of life. 2 3 years of being lost only to be found. 2 3 years of dreaming illusions before waking up to truth cannot be revoked. 2 3 years of giving and to be given more than what is expected. 2 3 years of being too much of myself and to finally let go and surrender to emptiness grandly liberating. 2 3 years of holding back and now allowing what is necessary to be there. 2 3 years of constantly feeling different yet always easily creating home. 2 3 and many years of loving unconditionally. My dear Universe, earth is beautiful, I am deeply honored, bless all the souls with me here. Happy 23rd birthday to this human I am grateful to take care of very well. My Soul loves me so much, I am infinite!
Only Love only Light
-Nicola An
Only Love only Light
-Nicola An
Year-end Dreams
Might be another long post:
Dreams are the most vivid everytime the year ends and I even get a sleep paralysis, I don't know if it's just me because I believe that we all get a fair share of psychological and physical fatigue and for me, the effects are these outlandish sleep adventures.
Last night I dreamt of a meteor shower and every second I saw a meteor, it exploded in the sky as a firework, imagine a meteor shower and pyrotechnic show! Phantasmagoric,spectacular, auspicious? Maybe, just maybe because the scene was too extravagant. I am thinking that it's a reflection of my desires being all over the place, they're all scattered in my head. Lol. Everything is beautiful, lots and lots of them that they're exploding anywhere in my imagination and yes these past months have been silently explosive, it's okay to be both happy and lonely, confident and ashamed, healthy and sick, inspired and daunted.
The ups and downs are equally conducive to becoming appreciative of every now, every present, every day has been a day of healing because while life puts so much pressure, I always choose to decompress. One of the worst things you could ever do to yourself is to join those that encumber your path. Time flies and I am well aware of expectations, but then I am not comfortable with "having plans", I don't have plans and goals,I HAVE VISIONS and instead of focusing too much on schedules like how plans are being executed, I'd rather let go and surrender. I'd rather anticipate than expect so there'll be no regrets.
My mind is so full and I sometimes end up feeling so frustrated, it's always about tests and challenges and the reality of being awake is mostly you get lost in multiple realities like you are in one place and somewhere else even though in times when you think you're stuck, it has been a dilemma to decide. Now I am not sure where I'm going with this "gibberish", it's just that I hope you don't feel the burden of having the need to have a major change for the New Year, I hope that you'll remain hopeful that life is happening even when you feel like there's nothing going on for you. Even if hoping can be exhausting, don't get tired of dreaming!
-Nicola An
Dreams are the most vivid everytime the year ends and I even get a sleep paralysis, I don't know if it's just me because I believe that we all get a fair share of psychological and physical fatigue and for me, the effects are these outlandish sleep adventures.
Last night I dreamt of a meteor shower and every second I saw a meteor, it exploded in the sky as a firework, imagine a meteor shower and pyrotechnic show! Phantasmagoric,spectacular, auspicious? Maybe, just maybe because the scene was too extravagant. I am thinking that it's a reflection of my desires being all over the place, they're all scattered in my head. Lol. Everything is beautiful, lots and lots of them that they're exploding anywhere in my imagination and yes these past months have been silently explosive, it's okay to be both happy and lonely, confident and ashamed, healthy and sick, inspired and daunted.
The ups and downs are equally conducive to becoming appreciative of every now, every present, every day has been a day of healing because while life puts so much pressure, I always choose to decompress. One of the worst things you could ever do to yourself is to join those that encumber your path. Time flies and I am well aware of expectations, but then I am not comfortable with "having plans", I don't have plans and goals,I HAVE VISIONS and instead of focusing too much on schedules like how plans are being executed, I'd rather let go and surrender. I'd rather anticipate than expect so there'll be no regrets.
My mind is so full and I sometimes end up feeling so frustrated, it's always about tests and challenges and the reality of being awake is mostly you get lost in multiple realities like you are in one place and somewhere else even though in times when you think you're stuck, it has been a dilemma to decide. Now I am not sure where I'm going with this "gibberish", it's just that I hope you don't feel the burden of having the need to have a major change for the New Year, I hope that you'll remain hopeful that life is happening even when you feel like there's nothing going on for you. Even if hoping can be exhausting, don't get tired of dreaming!
-Nicola An
