What are we searching for?
I consider myself a spiritual being having a human experience - but what does that actually mean? I feel connection to Angels, spirit guides, spirit and nature in all her glory, but for how long? Here's an example.
I went to a spiritual retreat that was lasting four days, but I was only going for the day - to 'dip' my toe if you like, see how I felt. A gloriously, sunny day with lots of kind people willing to talk to me as I was alone and did feel vulnerable in my alone-ness - why is that I wondered? Everyone seemed to have arrived with friends - I was alone - the 'friend' I would have shared this experience with has gone from my life and I did sit and feel grief in my aloneness - which is okay to go through this process - it just took me by surprise. Even more so when i found out later in the day she is still held within my womb - it surprised me. Anyway, I digress.
I thoroughly enjoyed a dance session to wake up my body, a gong session to heal, followed by a back and shoulder massage. I sat in the sun and watched and listened to nature and those enjoying it. I had a vegan lunch followed by two hours in 'Red tent' with other women and found that experience enlightening, emotional and connection. Now, by this time it was four in the afternoon and I had been up since seven - I was tired, hot, emotional and loved the vibe - yet, I had also had enough and needed to return to my family and enjoy a pint sitting in the sun - which I did. (no alcohol was allowed at the festival - which I understand completely)
Now, some may judge this and say why in all of that connection - did I feel the need to rush home for alcohol? I asked myself the same question as I drove home, knowing that the evening would be a fun filled night of ale, wine and a curry - things I enjoy. So, did I stop connecting?
I feel a deep connection to my family and close friends I consider family and find pleasure in sitting outside our local inn (Colomendy Arms) with a fine ale and talking with my husband and daughter - do I need alcohol? No, but I want one - well two actually, but I chose to feel all connections that day and thoroughly enjoyed myself. So, am I still a spiritual being having a human experience? Of course and learning along the way. I came to the conclusion that I shall not judge myself harshly. It was a joy to experience connection to self and others and a joy to connect with family, food and drink - all are spiritual experiences so long as joy is reached. If it becomes a chore - something is very wrong.
Enjoy life as you wish it to be - so long as it harm none.
Blessings
P.J Roscoe
www.pjroscoe.co.uk
@derwenna1
I went to a spiritual retreat that was lasting four days, but I was only going for the day - to 'dip' my toe if you like, see how I felt. A gloriously, sunny day with lots of kind people willing to talk to me as I was alone and did feel vulnerable in my alone-ness - why is that I wondered? Everyone seemed to have arrived with friends - I was alone - the 'friend' I would have shared this experience with has gone from my life and I did sit and feel grief in my aloneness - which is okay to go through this process - it just took me by surprise. Even more so when i found out later in the day she is still held within my womb - it surprised me. Anyway, I digress.
I thoroughly enjoyed a dance session to wake up my body, a gong session to heal, followed by a back and shoulder massage. I sat in the sun and watched and listened to nature and those enjoying it. I had a vegan lunch followed by two hours in 'Red tent' with other women and found that experience enlightening, emotional and connection. Now, by this time it was four in the afternoon and I had been up since seven - I was tired, hot, emotional and loved the vibe - yet, I had also had enough and needed to return to my family and enjoy a pint sitting in the sun - which I did. (no alcohol was allowed at the festival - which I understand completely)
Now, some may judge this and say why in all of that connection - did I feel the need to rush home for alcohol? I asked myself the same question as I drove home, knowing that the evening would be a fun filled night of ale, wine and a curry - things I enjoy. So, did I stop connecting?
I feel a deep connection to my family and close friends I consider family and find pleasure in sitting outside our local inn (Colomendy Arms) with a fine ale and talking with my husband and daughter - do I need alcohol? No, but I want one - well two actually, but I chose to feel all connections that day and thoroughly enjoyed myself. So, am I still a spiritual being having a human experience? Of course and learning along the way. I came to the conclusion that I shall not judge myself harshly. It was a joy to experience connection to self and others and a joy to connect with family, food and drink - all are spiritual experiences so long as joy is reached. If it becomes a chore - something is very wrong.
Enjoy life as you wish it to be - so long as it harm none.
Blessings
P.J Roscoe
www.pjroscoe.co.uk
@derwenna1
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