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Morning Pages Entry – March 04, 2014

Need to find some focus and purpose, before I end up becoming a statistic. I need to get the books out there, start writing, start reading, start editing, anything it takes to make this happen, needs to start happening. I seem to be wandering aimlessly, being distracted by every little piece of crap I find on the internet, that does anything besides help me get some work done, and move closer to my goals of being happier, richer, and have more choices about how to live and where to live m...

Morning Pages Entry – March 02, 2014

I really totally hate swim meets. They suck up the entire weekend, and take away from everything else I’m trying to accomplish. I just spend the last two mornings from 7 till noon at the damn swimming pool and those days were Saturday and Sunday. It’s just not right, to suck up that much time from parents who have other things to do in their lives. I mean, really, is it all that necessary. It’s supposed to be a friggin leasure activity that’s good for your health. It’s exercise. Instead,...

Morning Pages Entry – March 03, 2014

Wow, did I ever need that sleep last night. I was just exhausted after that weekend. Two 6am mornings to work a swim meet, then squash in the afternoon. Plus the couple of nights before the weekend, I let myself get roped into finishing that one video game Enslaved, which I shouldn’t have done. They were a few nights of less than 5 hours sleep. Not so good. Not so good for recovery from your workouts, and not so good for performance when it comes to playing squash. Can’t be doing that shi...

Morning Pages Entry – March 01, 2014

I have calmed down a bit from the last few days of getting so crazy upset over mostly losing squash matches. Sometimes, things get takin a bit too seriously by yours truly. So, today I played Mark, and lost, and only got a bit irritated by the end of the match. I talked with Mark a bit about how to do the lineup. Mostly about my theory with Eric playing higher up. He seems to be the sort of player, that does better against better players, but struggles against players that are weaker and...

Morning Pages Entry – February 28, 2014

Arrrgh! Squash is getting on my nerves lately. At least, the competitive nature of it. We lost again as a team last night in league, and it looks like we ended up in 3rd place after our last regular season match last night. We lost 4-1 to the Athletic Club team. Sometimes, I think that while I do like the game, that I need to stay away from the competitive nature of it. At least now, when I’m losing I do. I do often feel that I take it a bit to seriously. Really, I should likely be devoti...

Morning Pages Entry – February 27, 2014

Revitalizing is the keyword for today. I need to find a way to bring myself back into the role of a functioning human being. Enough of this negativity, and time to focus on the positive. Maybe Tony can help here. It’s definitely worth a try. Simple little things, or even complex things would be appropriate here to bring myself back from the dead. This whole feeling like giving up on the world has got to go. It’s just too hard to deal with, and not the person I want to me. I’m sure, that b...

Morning Pages Entry – February 25, 2014

Well, today I have to get to some editing and perhaps a bit of rewriting. But, before that, I have to say, it was a bit strange last night, when I came in from squash, as everyone in the house was so super nice, friendly, and happy. Which is a good thing, but just a bit out of the ordinary. I was playing squash with David from about 4-6, so I missed supper, but I have to assume, that everyone had a conversation over dinner about something, but I’m not so sure what. Even Jessica came to gi...

Morning Pages Entry – February 24, 2014

This week, starting with today, has to be about being positive. I need to find a better way to be positive and move forward. Lately, I’ve been finding myself drifting backwards into a very negative mindset. No doubt, this is a difficult position to be in, but that makes it even more important, to remain positive about the direction that I am trying to move in. I need to maintain a positive mindset and keep moving in a direction that will help me be a better person, and a better writer, an...

Morning Pages Entry – February 22, 2014

OK, so not a great few days to end the week, but it is a week ended none the less. Lots of room for imporovement these days. Need to focus more on the writing and the career, and not let silly things like squash games get the better of you. Sure, you lost a close match the other day, but it’s not like your the American mens hockey team, that just got shut out for the last 6 periods, and lost 5-0 against Finland in the bronze medal match and are going home with not medal at all in front of...

Morning Pages Entry – February 21, 2014

Yesterday, was just a crap day. All around. First, I realized I hadn’t yet lined up a replacement for Devan in league play, then I found out James couldn’t make it, then I got stuck playing Tony, who of course lost. Then I ended up losing my match, when I had 2 match balls in the 5th after coming back from being down 2-0, and was incredibly pissed off over the thing. Not my idea of a good time. Maybe I take this shit too seriously. I really wanted that win yesterday, as I wanted to hold o...