Colleen Brown's Blog, page 12

We’ve been filling our home with lots of flowers lately and it really does brighten up the room and...

We’ve been filling our home with lots of flowers lately and it really does brighten up the room and our mood.

I followed all of you who liked that post!So let’s do this again.Like this if you read this because...

I followed all of you who liked that post!

So let’s do this again.

Like this if you read this because I need more blogs to follow!

mostlyfiction:“I was broken like this before you came along.I never lied when I told you that my...

mostlyfiction:

“I was broken like this before you came along.
I never lied when I told you that my issues
couldn’t be fixed just by filling me up with love and precious memories
that would one day turn into a smell;
the nostalgic tenderness of a time
that felt better than today.
I wasn’t able to find my heart
when I wanted to tell you that maybe
this isn’t exactly what we thought it would be.
But don’t get me wrong, I searched for it
for longer than you’d know; while you
were working, while you were sleeping
and sometimes when you were in the other room carrying on a conversation
with me as if nothing was buried beneath
the depths of my insecurities.
No one can ever tell me that I didn’t try,
that we didn’t try. I have the evidence on the palms on my hands, on the bottom of my feet
and on the rough side of my heart.
I can’t tell you the last time I freed myself
with my own words. I have felt so empty
for so long and I never once thought
you didn’t try to save me with what you thought was kindness and love.
But I needed more, and don’t we all?
Isn’t that always someone’s story? Isn’t that always the beginning of two lovers end? But I don’t want it to end,
not this way. Not before we really got started.
Not before you could one day see the sides of me
that I know are somewhere in this mess
of a woman who has taken on the responsibility
of keeping others alive. I don’t want to leave
but there are times when I know it would be easier
for you, better for you, better for everyone.
I’ve never been one to give up, have never been one
to leave without a note, without a warning,
without a trace of where you could find me.
But somewhere inside of me is telling me
that even if I did leave, that even if I did leave you
with hints of where I will end up,
where I went to get away, where I went to find the parts of myself that I know would be easier to love,
that you wouldn’t even try
to look for me anyway.”

— “to the person who loves me,” - Colleen Brown

"I was broken like this before you came along.I never lied when I told you that my issuescouldn’t..."

“I was broken like this before you came along.

I never lied when I told you that my issues

couldn’t be fixed just by filling me up

with love and precious memories

that would one day turn into a smell;

the nostalgic tenderness of a time

that felt better than today.

I wasn’t able to find my heart

when I wanted to tell you that maybe

this isn’t exactly what we thought it would be.

But don’t get me wrong, I searched for it

for longer than you’d know; while you

were working, while you were sleeping

and sometimes when you were in

the other room carrying on a conversation

with me as if nothing was buried beneath

the depths of my insecurities.

No one can ever tell me that I didn’t try,

that we didn’t try. I have the evidence

on the palms on my hands,

on the bottom of my feet

and on the rough side of my heart.

I can’t tell you the last time I freed myself

with my own words. I have felt so empty

for so long and I never once thought

you didn’t try to save me with

what you thought was kindness and love.

But I needed more, and don’t we all?

Isn’t that always someone’s story?

Isn’t that always the beginning

of two lovers end? But I don’t want it to end,

not this way. Not before we really got started.

Not before you could one day see the sides of me

that I know are somewhere in this mess

of a woman who has taken on the responsibility

of keeping others alive. I don’t want to leave

but there are times when I know it would be easier

for you, better for you, better for everyone.

I’ve never been one to give up, have never been one

to leave without a note, without a warning,

without a trace of where you could find me.

But somewhere inside of me is telling me

that even if I did leave, that even if I did leave you

with hints of where I will end up,

where I went to get away, where I went

to find the parts of myself that I know

would be easier to love,

that you wouldn’t even try

to look for me anyway.”

- “to the person who loves me,” - Colleen Brown

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I wish Tumblr was as active as it used to be because it miss the people and the whole aesthetic of...

I wish Tumblr was as active as it used to be because it miss the people and the whole aesthetic of this site and I miss sharing my writings with everyone and updating everyone and everyone updating me on what’s going on in their life. this place used to be so soft and intimate and now it just feels really empty. either way I hope all of you are doing good and are in good places in your life and are spending your time with good people and making tender memories that you will later on feel happy about.

my love is so soft & sweet

my love is so soft & sweet

mostlyfiction:My love for youis as pure as the lightin your...

mostlyfiction:

My love for you
is as pure as the light
in your lucid eyes.

mostlyfiction:i lost you somewherebeyond the trees –past the...

mostlyfiction:

i lost you somewhere
beyond the trees –
past the place
where we would
always meet.

mostlyfiction:All I want to dois be swallowedby the sky.

mostlyfiction:

All I want to do
is be swallowed
by the sky.