Himmilicious's Blog, page 21

"Itz all over" and he walked away...

He killed me, because he knew how to kill me, because I gave him the weapon to kill me..
I was smiling silently when I said " I won't get anything by fighting with you, not even the alimony"
As usual, Like I tease him, " I love you for your property"
When he said, " don't behave like other female members of my family, I have earned a lot, more than you, I won't take a minute to leave you"


I said, " Go" and kept walking, he couldn't see that I was still smiling at the property thing, was about to turn and sing "jiye aap kahan jayenge, ye nazar laut ke fir aayegi' leaving all the differences behind, we are used to.

As I turned, I saw him walking away, far from my sight to the metro station, I was still smiling, expecting he will see me once and I will laugh.

And he walked away.. I kept standing there, expecting he might be hiding nearby among the cars in the parking lot of Connaught place.

I was standing, where he left, the curve on my face started fading.
After ten minutes I received a few messages, what was written in those messages, I couldn't understand, because I never meant that. I am the one who consider him my pride, the cause of my existence.

I could understand only the last line.. "Itz all over"

It was enough to understand that he left me in the middle of nowhere.
Everything just blacked out, I tried to cry but couldn't, all I was trying and focusing was not to cry in public.

I walked a few steps and saw Mr.Sahay, the famous puppet seller of CP, sitting with some north eastern people, they were helping Mr. Sahay to sell puppets and were talking to him.

I never believed in the story of Mr. Sahay, That he is retired and selling puppets for the survival of his wife and him.

I watched him, standing there and smiled again. Honestly, I wanted to sit by his side and ask "Do you really work for your wife?"

Anyways, I waited there for more than an hour, expecting him to come back, I couldn't dare to call him. I didn't want to call him..

.. a person, who can leave me, in the middle of the road, for no prime reason,how can I expect him to stay by my side for the life long...?

He didn't care, how will I go back? Didn't even think for once what will happen if he leaves? His messages said, I supported him till he was earning well? When did I ask for anything? What did I take from him except his presence and support? I couldn't answer these questions.. Probably I am also among those girls who USE men for money.. And above all,I know I am not a kid that I won't be able to go home back, but  He really didn't take One minute to leave me.

My mother called me up at 7:00 pm, I realized, I am late for home..
I hired an auto and left CP for my home. After getting inside the Auto, I couldn't stop myself. I hid my eyes with my goggles and cried the whole way to my home.. 

Auto driver asked me once, " Madam aap theek hain?''
I said, "haan bhaiya, thoda jaldi chala lijiye"

I wiped my tears by my sleeves and reached home.

Maa was as usual frustrated and yelling at me for being late.
I said nothing to her and realized, "well, nothing has changed, life is same, once again, back to zero"

He knew, I have nothing else, except him, He himself said "you will be dead the day I leave you"

He was right, I am dead, maybe.
I found it true, 'you cannot realize how strong you are until to be strong is the only option left'


At night, the same routined dinner, insomniac life style, yes I cried and I will, whenever I will miss him and by the time I will be strong 'again'

Well, once again, I loved and lived. To be honest, I am blank with no feelings. 
Maybe I have grown up, maybe I am practical, Maybe I am just an Idiot, I was..

And I am still smiling like an idiot, because I have two crazy old people to take care and a long life ahead.. :)

Bill Gates had no Facebook account

I like it when little kids update quotes of those big daddies of the world who were once a loser, poor, disabled and helpless and eventually ruled the world..
But baby, they worked hard for it after discontinuing education or getting expelled from school.. They didn't update status, gained meat coatings on parents' money and downloading apps on iPhone...  

#BillGatesHadNoFacebook

Oops! Did your ego hurt?

Never understood, whenever something is said in favour of women, why men come up with arms and ammunitions to fight a battle between the sexes?
Why they take it personally? Is the male ego is so high that blinds the logic and reasoning to judge the statement and context behind it?
Well, that's something acceptable because increasing the pitch of voice is far easier than increasing the quality of argument.
But the thing that is more to feel sorry about, barely any woman comes up to stand or support the issue with logical reasons..

Well who wants to indulge in unnecessary argument? It's easier to mend the smudged kohl after crying than to waste time in removing the causes of pain.

True, when men say, women are the cause of their own miseries!

Are you organized?

How organized a person is; his wardrobe tells.How clean a person is ; his toilet tells.How well educated a person is ; the pattern and organization of books in the shelf tells.How sincere a person is; his punctuality tells.How successful a person is; his quality of work tellsHow polite a person is; his eyes tell.AndHow perfect a person is, the selection of his company and friends tells.
There's a huge difference between being well educated and being civilized. Qualifications can provide you with a chair to sit among elite class but your behaviour gives you the glass of scotch to toss with them.
Filter your life now! Or you'll be among those, who sooner or later make a munching sound while chewing food..

The lost beads of the friendship Band.

How strange when the people you grew up eating in the same canteen, sharing same notes and were the part of same group photos become the dead profiles in your Facebook account just because you took some time just to create your life and stand somewhere in life.. 

Yes, there is a category of "friends" who were "besties" till you were actively participating in daily craziness and as you took a couple of years for yourself, stopped pleasing them, they are just lost somewhere..
Never respond and rather you can't feel their happiness for you, and your achievements..

And when years after, you initiate, a cold response to the wordless complaint "you left us.. We didn't leave you, now nothing left.. And we have moved on.."

What kind of friendship was it?
A friendship of availability?
A friendship only to share laughs?
 A friendship of pseudo promises to stand by each other till the heartbeats stop..?

Remember? Just a couple of years back there was a friend you mentioned as a brother, a crazy girl whom you treated as a younger sister, and a best friend with whom you set relationship just to make people laugh that we were homosexual...

Every successful person had a mediocre life, once, faded childhood.. Sleeping somewhere in the graveyard of the last pages of "friends" section in Facebook..

When, Love is....

Love is when after 33 years of marriage you hate each other for being senile,
At every second thing blame and call each other an oldie sextant,
But wake up at night just to give her medicines,
Just to switch off the bed lights and take his glasses from his nose,
Still give the softer part of chicken to him to chew easily and the sweet mango pulp to her to relish,
When sometimes you rub Iodex on her knees and when you stand up taking support of her shoulder,
When she frowns at your coughs but gives you medicine,
When you bought her favorite childhood ice cream cup at the time of night walk,
When you have nothing else to do but take out the mistakes and fight,
When you talk about your kids' childhood,
When she cries and you behave strong..
When your blood pressure goes up and so her heart beats..

When one day she is gone.. And you cry alone holding her saree..
And..
When she is unable to breathe and miss your arms to hold..

तेरी बाहों का आसरा..

बिखर जाती हूँ मैं,हर एक शब्द में ऐसे,जैसे तेरी बाहों का,आसरा मिल गया हो,जब भी लिखती हूँ,कहानी तेरे लफ़्ज़ों की,हंसती है ख़ामोशी,जैसे ज़र्रा हिल गया हो,कलम थिरकती है मेरी,स्याह करने कागज़ के बदन को,देख किस्सों की अंगडाई जैसे,बारिश का समां हो,वो हंसती है, रिझाने तुझको,झांके कभी सिरहाने से,वो किरदार है मेरी कलम की ,फिर मांगे क्यूँ साँसे,तुझ बेपरवाह दीवाने से?चल हट!मुझसे ना कर बातें ऐसी,इश्क तुझे हो गया हो, बिखर न जाऊं शब्दों में ऐसे,जैसे तेरी बाहों का मुझे आसरा मिल गया हो… 
- हिमाद्री 

काश फिर मिलने की वो वजह मिल जाये

काश फिर मिलने की वो वजह मिल जाये,तेरे संग बिताये वो पल मिल जाये बातों बातों में जो बालियाँ कानो की खींची थी,रोई थी जब मैं, गीली आँखे मींची थी,कान पकड़ कर वैसे फिर से मुझे मनाये,काश फिर मिलने की वजह मिल जाए,
पुलिया पर लटकते हमारे पाँव,सपनो की दुनिया का चक्कर लगाते,चूंटी काट फिर तुम मुझे,वापस यहीं ले आते थे,कब, कैसे, बादलों की गुडिया बना देते तुम,जो पूंछू मैं, तो मुंह बना देते थे,वो बादलों की गुड़िया मिल जाये,काश फिर मिलने की वजह मिल जाए … 

आज कमर से भी लम्बी है मेरी चोटी ,पर खींचने वाले तुम नहीं,देखती हूँ तुमको कभी, छुप कर, यूँ ही,पर बचपन वाला यूँ नहीं,कद बड़ा तो बढ़ गए फासले भी ,न कच्ची कैरियां, ना वो त्योरियां अब,कान की बालियाँ कभी जो खिंच जाए,वो सिसकियाँ कहे,काश फिर मिलने की वजह मिल जाए ...

Sucksex Mantra 11 to 20

Sucksex Mantra 11 to 20
for 1-10 read  http://himmilicious.blogspot.in/2013/05/sucksex-mantra-1-to-10th.html 11. Light a candle beside you when you are reading in the evening. It is most relaxing and creates a wonderful, soothing atmosphere. Make your home an oasis from the frenzied world outside. Fill it with great music, great books and great friends.

12. To enhance your concentration and powers of focus, count your steps when you walk. This is a particularly strong technique. Take six steps while taking a long inhale, hold your breath for another six steps, and then exhale for six steps. If six steps is too long for the breaths, do whatever you feel comfortable with. You will feel very alert, refreshed, internally quiet and centered after this exercise. So many people allow their minds to be filled with mental chatter. All peak performers appreciate the power of a quiet, clear mind which will concentrate steadily on all important tasks.

13. Learn to meditate effectively. The mind is naturally a very noisy machine which wants to move from one subject to another like an unchained monkey. One must learn to restrain and discipline it if one is to achieve anything of substance and to be peaceful. Meditation for twenty minutes in the morning and twenty minutes in the evening will certainly provide you with exceptional results if regularly practiced for six months. Learned sages of the East have been advancing the many benefits of meditation for over 5000 years.

14. Learn to be still. The average person doesn't spend even 30 minutes a month in total silence and tranquility. Develop the skill of sitting quietly, enjoying the powerful silence for at least ten minutes a day. Simply think about what is important to you in your life. Reflect on your mission. Silence indeed is golden. As the Zen master once said, it is the space between the bars that holds the cage.

15. Enhance your will-power; it is likely one of the best training programs you can invest in. Here are some ideas to strengthen your will and become a stronger person:
a. Do not let your mind float like a piece of paper in the wind. Work hard to keep it focused at all times. When doing a task, think of nothing else. When walking to work, count the steps that it takes to get all the way to the office. This is not easy but your mind will soon understand that you hold its reins and not vice versa. Your mind must eventually become as still as a candle flame in a corner where there is no draft.
b. Your will is like a muscle. You must first exercise it and then push before it gets stronger. This necessarily involves short term pain but be assured that the improvements will come and will touch your character in a most positive way. When you are hungry, wait another hour before your meal. When you are labouring over a difficult task and your mind is prompting you to pick up the latest magazine for a break or to get up and go talk to a friend, curb the impulse. Soon you will be able to sit for hours in a precisely concentrated state. Sir Issac Newton, one of the greatest classical physicists the world has produced, once said: "if I have done the public any service, it is due to patient thought." Newton had a remarkable ability to sit quietly and think without interruption for very long periods of time. If he can develop this so can you.
c. You can also build your will-power by restraint in your conduct with others. Speak less (use the 60/40 Rule = listen 60% of the time and speak a mere 40%, if that). This will not only make you more popular but you will learn much wisdom as everyone we meet, every day has something to teach us. Also restrain the urge to gossip or to condemn someone who you feel has made a mistake. Stop complaining and develop a cheerful, vital and strong personality. You will greatly influence others.
d. When a negative thought comes to your mind, immediately replace it with one that is positive. Positive always dominates over the negative and your mind has to be conditioned to think only the best thoughts. Negative thinking is a conditioned process whereby the negative patterns are established over and over. Rid yourself of any limitations and become a powerful positive thinker.

16. Make an effort to be humorous throughout the day. Not only is it beneficial from a physical viewpoint but it diffuses tension in difficult circumstances and creates an excellent atmosphere wherever you are. It was recently reported that members of the Tauripan tribe of South America have a ritual where they awake in the middle of the night to tell each other jokes. Even tribesmen in the deepest sleep wake to enjoy the laugh and then return to their state of slumber in seconds.

17. Become a highly disciplined time manager. There are roughly 168 hours in a week. This surely allows plenty of time for achievement of the many goals we desire to accomplish. Be ruthless with your time. Set aside a few minutes each morning to plan your day. Plan around your priorities and focus on not only those tasks which are immediate but not important (i.e., many telephone calls) but especially on those which are important but not urgent, for these allow for the greatest personal and professional development. Important but not immediate activities are those which produce long-term, sustainable benefits and include exercise, strategic planning, the development of relationships and professional education. Never let the things which matter most be placed in the backseat as compared to those that matter least.

18. Associate only with positive, focused people who you can learn from and who will not drain your valuable energy with complaining and uninspiring attitudes. By developing relationships with those committed to constant improvement and the pursuit of the best that life has to offer, you will have plenty of company on your path to the top of whatever mountain you seek to climb.

19. Stephen Hawking, one of the great modern physicists of the world, is reported to have said that we are on a minor planet of a very average star located within the outer limits of one of a hundred thousand million galaxies. Are your problems really significant in light of this? You walk this Earth for but a short time. Why not become devoted to having only a wonderful experience. Why not dedicate yourself to leaving a powerful legacy to the world? Sit down now and write out a list of all that you have in your life. Start first with your health or your family - the things we often take for granted. Put down the country we live in and the food we eat. Do not stop until you have written down fifty items. Once every few days, go through this list - you will be uplifted and recognize the richness of your existence.

20. You must have a mission statement in life. This is simply a set of guiding principles which clearly state where you are going and where you want to be at the end of your life. A mission statement embodies your values. It is your personal lighthouse keeping you steadily on the course of your dreams. Over a period of one month, set a few hours aside to write down five or ten principles which will govern your life and which will keep you focused at all times. Examples might be to consistently serve others, to be a considerate citizen, to become highly wealthy or to serve as a powerful leader. Whatever the mission statement of your life, refine it and review it regularly. Then when something adverse happens or someone tries to pull you off course, you quickly and precisely return to your chosen path with the full knowledge that you are moving in the direction that you have selected.

Sucksex Mantra 1 to 10th

First of all..
It has nothing to do with sex or suck..

I always wish my besties when they get married and start a new life... "wish you a very happy and sucksexfull life ahead"

So, here I wish you too... Stay blessed fellas.. :)

1. Sleep less.

This is one of the best investments you can make to make your life more productive and rewarding. Most people do not need more than 6 hours to maintain an excellent state of health. Try getting up one hour earlier for 21 days and it will develop into a powerful habit. Remember, it is the quality not the quantity of sleep that is important. And just imagine having an extra 30 hours a month to spend on the things that are important to you.

2. Set aside one hour every morning for personal development matters.

Meditate, visualize your day, read inspirational texts to set the tone of your day, listen to motivational tapes or read great literature. Take this quiet period to vitalize and energize your spirit for the productive day ahead. Watch the sun rise once a week or be with nature. Starting the day off well is a powerful strategy for self-renewal and personal effectiveness.

3. Do not allow those things that matter the most in your life be at the mercy of activities that matter the least. Every day, take the time to ask yourself the question "is this the best use of my time and energy?" Time management is life management so guard your time with great care.
4. Use the rubber band method to condition your mind to focus solely on the most positive elements in your life. Place a rubber band around your wrist. Each time a negative, energy sapping thought enters your mind, snap the rubber band. Through the power of conditioning, your mind will associate pain with negative thinking and you will soon possess a strongly positive mindset.

5. Always answer the phone with enthusiasm in your voice and show your appreciation for the caller. Good phone manners are essential. To convey authority on the line, stand up. This will instill further confidence in your voice.

6. Throughout the day we all get inspiration and excellent ideas. Keep a set of cards (the size of business cards; available at most stationary stores) in your wallet along with a pencil to jot down these insights. When you get home, put the ideas in a central place such as a coil notepad and review them from time to time. As noted by Oliver Wendell Holmes: "Man's mind, once stretched by a new idea, never regains its original dimensions."

7. Set aside every Sunday evening for yourself and be strongly disciplined with this habit. Use this period to plan your week, visualize your encounters and what you want to achieve, to read new materials and inspirational books, to listen to soft soothing music and to simply relax. This habit will serve as your anchor to keep you focused, motivated and effective throughout the coming week.

8. Always remember the key principle that the quality of your life is the quality of your communication. This means the way you communicate with others and, more importantly, the way you communicate with yourself. What you focus on is what you get. If you look for the positive this is what you get. This is a fundamental law of Nature.

9. Stay on purpose, not on outcome. In other words, do the task because it is what you love to do or because it will help someone or is a valuable exercise. Don't do it for the money or the recognition. Those will come naturally. This is the way of the world.


10. Laugh for five minutes in the mirror each morning. Steve Martin does. Laughter activates many beneficial chemicals within the body that place us into a very joyous state. Laughter also returns the body to a state of balance. Laughter therapy has been regularly used to heal persons with varied ailments and is a wonderful tonic for life's ills. While the average 4 year old laughs 500 times a day, the average adult is lucky to laugh 15 times a day. Revitalize the habit of laughter, it will put far more living into your life.