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August 18, 2013
Heartweight
They say the weight of your heart is approximately 0.5% of your body weight.
Why does it often feel as if that organ is more Jovian than Gaian—in a chamber of gravity set to 250%?
*sigh*
It’s funny how each story I’m working on seems to play out in real life, in one form or another.
I’m only recording projections flickering before me, aren’t I?
Heart (Energy Anthology, Book 4) is underway… and there is plenty of material to channel through here.
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Filed under: books, present life, rambling mind, writing Tagged: emotion, Energy Anthology, healing, Heart, heartache, heaviness, heavy, imbalance, life, loss, love, pain, process, sadness
August 13, 2013
Not To Be Dead
“So we dance,
we dance so as not to be dead.
We do not want that.”
— Ray Bradbury, The Illustrated Man
I have had a hard time lately.
Such a very hard time…
All around me is decay,
All around me is heartache.
Nothing is as it seems anymore, and anymore, it seems there is nothing… sane.
The levels of inauthentic and irresponsible behavior have risen off the charts.
No one takes accountability for anything anymore, and the few who do are made to pick up the slack, and bear it all on their shoulders.
What is the point of it all?
Why even try?
Why not just join the masses—they seem to get away with it.
How can this be carried any longer?
My daughter knows.
The three year old Darling that saves my life repeatedly knows.
This tiny healer,
This mini-me,
Has always demonstrated to thirty-five year old me
The exactest and perfectest thing to do
No matter the situation.
She teaches me far more than I teach her.
Whether it is making me lie down so she can do energy work on me, or throwing her arms around my neck, kissing my cheek, and saying of her own accord “I’m sorry I yelled at you, Daddy,” she never fails to remind me of the pureness in life…
This past weekend, we actually got some Daddy/Daughter time alone.
She grabbed the Roku remote, which she fully knows how to operate and navigate Netflix, Amazon Prime, and PBS Kids to find and pick her own shows to watch, but instead went to the Pandora music channel—intentionally.
“Dance with me, Daddy!”
“Okay, Precious!”
And we danced and we danced, as the box with Pandora played the perfect songs, one after another… and we sang and we sang as the words and the music and the dancing and the movement of all the pent-up, built-up, crapped-up energy inside me shook loose and fell out of my eyes—Pandora’s Box melted into liquid form:
If you’re lost and alone,
and you’re sinking like a stone—carry on…
May your past be the sound
of your feet upon the ground—and carry on…
Settle down—it’ll all be clear…
Don’t pay no mind to those demons—they’ll fill you with fear…
Just know you’re not alone…
And I’m gonna make this place your Home…
And I found…
I’m not dead.
We danced, and we were not dead.
We were very much alive.
And alive is all I want.
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Filed under: present life, rambling mind, the juju bird Tagged: corruption, dance, dancing, daughter, dead, death, dishonesty, drama, heartache, here and now, just be happy, laughing, life, live, love, perfect, playing, pureness, singing, stress
July 28, 2013
Now in Paperback: Root, Sacral, and Solar
Hey you!
How would you like something to hold in your hand?
How about the first three books of the seven-part Energy Anthology epic?
Just these three look beautiful standing in the shelf next to each other… I can imagine how all seven will be when the series completes in 2014!
Debuted by Amazon at the introductory price of only $6.64, how can you resist? 
ROOT (Energy Anthology, Book 1) in Paperback
SACRAL (Energy Anthology, Book 2) in Paperback
SOLAR (Energy Anthology, Book 3) in Paperback
The Energy Anthology is a series of separate yet connected stories, each illustrating the seven different energy centers within our bodies— our chakras.
The Root Chakra processes our energies and emotions of fear, survival, foundation, family, and purpose.
The Sacral Chakra processes our energies and emotions of guilt/shame, creativity, and sexuality.
The Solar Plexus Chakra processes our life force energies, as well as our sense of free will, purpose and destiny, and deals with our issues of controlling and being controlled.
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Filed under: books, writing Tagged: amazon, books, chakra, chakras, control, controlling, family, fear, foundation, hope, life, love, paperback, power, power struggle, root, sacral, sale, sex, sexuality, shaman, shamanic, shamanism, shame, solar, solar plexus, spiritual, the energy anthology, tribe, will power
July 23, 2013
The Odds
“I saw the way things were going, a long time back. I said nothing. I’m one of the innocents who could have spoken up and out when no one would listen to the ‘guilty,’ but I did not speak, and thus became guilty myself…”
— Faber to Montag, Fahrenheit 451, Ray Bradbury
The state of this world saddens me, shocks me, crushes me daily.
How did we end up here?
I mean, this is two thousand bloody thirteen—we were promised peace, love, jet packs, hovercars and star travel by now… instead we have more war, greater selfishness, corrupt governments, powerless voices and less rights.
How did this happen?
Is it our fault?
Are we Professor Fabers, now hiding in our pale apartments regretting our previous silence as we try to help the Mr. Montags who come knocking at our door?
Or were our parents and grandparents the Fabers, and we are the Montags searching for answers in the dark, stealing what moments of forbidden passion we can with our books stuffed inside the hidden compartments of our television walls?
I suppose it doesn’t matter—it is here, this brave new world of 1984 where we wear the wool that keeps our temperature at 451��° in the thick of these hunger games.
And it has become increasingly apparent that it is getting worse before it gets better.
I’ve just finished watching the first three seasons of AMC network’s The Walking Dead. What an intense and realistic portrayal of what could change the world in a heartbeat. Any virus or biological warfare could make something similar a reality today.
How many people would be prepared for that, much less survive and live in it?
What can we do?
Nothing.
Nothing, except work on ourselves.
Keep the spark of what life really means alive within ourselves.
Read to, encourage, teach and play with our children.
Offer hands to as many others as we can—for no reason at all.
Seek Love in Loveless lands by being that Love ourselves.
Be Love, before we become guilty ourselves…
May the odds be ever in our favor.
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Filed under: present life, rambling mind Tagged: biological warfare, devastation, fahrenheit 451, george orwell, government, greed, hate, hugh howey, hunger games, life, love, pain, peace, ray bradbury, rights, sadness, selfishness, survival, suzanne collins, the walking dead, virus, war, wool, zombies
July 12, 2013
A Chic Review!
The Galaxy Healer’s Guide has received an amazing review and posting on Molly McCord’s Conscious, Cool, Chic website!
Check out her humbling words about my work, then grab and devour her fantastic and funny memoir that I can’t put down, The Art of Trapeze: One Woman’s Journey of Soaring, Surrendering, and Awakening.
Filed under: books, present life, writing Tagged: chakra, chakras, conscious cool chic, energy work, energywork, galaxy healer's guide, growth, healing, molly mccord, paris, reiki, spirituality, the art of trapeze
July 11, 2013
A New Old Me
I’m going to admit something to you here you may or may not know already. Are you ready?
I’ve gone a bit crazy…
…For creating paperbacks!
With my recent decision to launch each individual story of my Energy Anthology into paperbacks, (oh, you didn’t know that yet? Well, now you can start saving your $6.99′s up in preparation of a couple more weeks!) I’ve decided to also make my collection of early poetry, Good Night, Nurse, available in print as well.
That compilation was something I had originally converted into eBook format more for myself than for anything or anyone, as an act of officially closing a period of my life. I have never promoted it, and I certainly never expected people to buy it! But each month, several copies show up on my sold charts, much to my amazement!
And so, why not?
Perhaps even more people would like to explore the old me, as I grew into a newer me, which eventually led to this current me—which, of course, is still not the final me.
In my book, a new book format calls for a new book cover (for my book—LOL)! So I’ve redesigned the cover for the third time in its seven year history, selecting an old photo I took of myself back around the time I randomly hat-drew the order of the poems.
So watch for Good Night, Nurse in paperback sometime in August 2013… or grab the eBook while it’s still only 99 cents on Amazon, if you’re impatient—the new cover has been uploaded!
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Filed under: books, flashback, past life, writing Tagged: anger, contemplation, emotions, enlightenment, evolving, exploring, frustration, good night nurse, growth, healing, lamenting, life, love, maturing, path, poetry, processing, relationships, religion, searching, seeking, spirituality, venting
June 24, 2013
K, Ready? On Three…
It was this day,
this time,
three years ago,
that Melissa and I were in the hospital,
waiting forever in a tiny room to hear the results of unknown discussions about us by unknown peoples in unknown other rooms.
Were we going to be rejected from this place with our desired plans further un-planned?
Or were we going to be ejected from this place with our desired child in hand?
We had intended to have a private birth with a midwife (the same midwife who delivered my five youngest siblings, no less!) in our own home, but a slight complication sent us to an actual hospital after all, so here we sat, waiting.
The longest afternoon…
And evening…
And night of my life…
But then,
at 5:00AM,
I saw a 7lb 4oz angel—19.5″ of heaven—
for the first time
ever.
My daughter was before my eyes,
and in my arms.
And my life was eternally changed.
Julia Renee – June 25, 2010
And now my little JuJu Bird is turning THREE years old!
My tiny baby who slept on Daddy’s chest is now a 24lb, 35″ monkey with the vocabulary of a 13 year old!
How did this happen?
Julia Renee – June 23, 2013
Well, she still loves to just lay on Daddy’s chest, so I guess some things will never change.
A Daddy can hope, right?
HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JULIA!
I’ll love you forever,
I’ll like you for always,
As long as I’m living,
My baby you’ll be.
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Filed under: flashback, past life, present life, the juju bird Tagged: birth, birthday, change, daughter, growing up, happy birthday, humble, i love you, life, love, melt, time flies, wow, years pass
June 18, 2013
All Up In The Stars
I always forget about the stars.
I mean, I look at them every chance I get, have space and nebula wallpapers on all my computers and devices, and read about them on my Amazon Kindle… but I completely forget about what they do.
I frequently look at my Llewellyn Astrological Calendar, then walk on into my day, splash into the fray, forgetting what I saw, except maybe what moon phase we’re in or how many more days until Mercury goes retrograde again.
The last couple days have been… I’ll say doozies.
What the french toast is going on?!?
Then this evening I happened to glance at the calendar as I went to scoop Akasha’s litter.
Libra.
Our Lady Satellite has been in Libra the last two days.
Libra is the exact opposite of my Aries on the Wheel, and has always seemed to be difficult for me, just as my days are usually kite-high when the phase is in Aries.
After all this time, my first thoughts are still focused on this plane first, going GGGRRR!!! instead of pausing and feeling out Hmmm, what could be going on here?
I by no means condone blaming everything on an outside source and taking zero responsibility for our own energy and attitudes, but sometimes, we are a bit undeniably tapped (or shoved!) along by external influences.
We stay up late,
debate on how we’ll find our way,
you say it’s all up in the stars…
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Filed under: present life, rambling mind Tagged: aries, astrological, astrology, bad days, calendar, difficulties, drama, influences, libra, llewellyn, moon, planetary aspects, responsibility, stars
June 15, 2013
The Daddy Wheel
Tomorrow is Father’s Day…
The subject and word of Father brings up so very much for me, on many levels.
I’ve been thinking about this lately…
I haven’t spoken to my own father in nearly two years, though he lives only twenty minutes away. A cauldron of past issues and present issues, combined with the need to remove myself for the good of both sides keeps me away…
The book I’m editing right now with my Starfield Press speaks several times on the instant cutting off of those in our lives, even for the sake of peace and growth… it suggests that even this is done in anger, and causes unrest and peace rather than healing… This has jumped out at me, and is simmering in my consciousness…
Then the father-in-law of a really good friend passed away this week. Though it was expected, and they were as prepared as any family can be for such an event after giving so much time and energy to caring for him, it has still been a difficult and emotional time for them… and part of me wonders: How will I feel/react to/experience the death of my own father?
With as much distance and disconnection as there is now, what will that be like?
He just turned sixty years old, which is odd to think of… he always seemed older, of course, as grown-ups always seem to children… but the triplets I now have are twenty-five years younger than me— the same difference between me and my father. That is even more odd to think about. This is how old my father always was when I was that age.
And I remember being ten years old.
But all I experienced growing up with my father has driven and inspired me to be the absolute best father I can be for my own daughter, who is somehow now Twilight Zone-y three years old! (And so brilliant you need sunglasses to even look at her!)
So tomorrow is Father’s Day…
But I love how my daughter makes every day Father’s Day for me.
Her really, really loves me, so I must be doing something right with my turn at this Daddy wheel.
Filed under: flashback, past life, present life, rambling mind, the juju bird Tagged: children, dad, daddy, death, father, growing up, growth, life, love, reflections
June 6, 2013
The Energy Anthology, Volume One!
SURPRISE!
I’ve been hinting at a big surprise for a while now, and been trying my dangdest to keep my big Aries mouth shut about it… but now, HERE IT IS!
The Energy Anthology, Volume One: Root, Sacral, Solar!
The Metaphysical Epic Illustrating the Seven Major Energy Centers of the Body– the Chakras!
Available in Paperback and eBook from Starfield Press!
— ROOT —
He didn’t remember exactly where he was before he had a body, but he definitely remembered where he was when he became aware he was now inside a body.
The harder he tried to remember before, though, the further it seemed to slip away. He had to have known at one time– he remembers there was a “one time,” doesn’t he? Why was it now cruelly held captive at the edge of his awareness, taunting and teasing his muffled soul?
One thing he did know: he did not belong here. He was not from this place, he was not made for this place, he did not belong in this place. He was sure of it.
But to this place he had come.
Looking upon a sea of twisted and angry faces now, his first memory in this new reality is nearly his last.
But what is this reality?
How did he get here?
And why is he here?
ROOT is an emotional journey of love, fear, loss, and exactly what it means to be alive.
The ROOT CHAKRA processes our energies and emotions of fear, survival, foundation, family, and purpose.
— SACRAL —
There are influences in this world many go about their lives completely unaware of.
There are realities beyond the accepted realms men box their thoughts into.
There are acts of passion which hold much more intention than they may seem.
Priding herself on having and doing all the “right” things, Karina Simone has worked hard to shape her world her entire life. Little does she know that what she is about to experience will shatter her conditioning– and her taboos– forever.
The SACRAL CHAKRA processes our energies and emotions of guilt/shame, creativity, and sexuality. * Warning: Contains Adult Content *
— SOLAR —
With a near hysterical laughter, Eva curled her body and rolled to her side, hugging the cold stone beneath her as best she could. Images flooded her mind, the places she’d been, the things she’d seen.
The bodies she’d been in…
SOLAR is a story of power struggles, both inner and outer, as well as a tale of empowerment, destiny, and the redemption of the Self.
The SOLAR PLEXUS CHAKRA processes our life force energies, as well as our sense of free will, purpose and destiny, and deals with our issues of controlling and being controlled.
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