Beth Morey's Blog, page 34

New in the Art Studio [+ the Giveaway Winner!]

 
I've been getting busy in my art studio over the past few days -- probably because the temperatures went down enough so that I could be upstairs during the day without sweating buckets.  I've never been so happy to see fall-ish weather!  I even saw my first fallen yellow leaf today . . . perhaps a sign of an early fall?  I wouldn't mind!
I overcame my fear about making art while pregnant and finished the above piece.  I'm really happy with how it turned out.  I w...

In Which I Try Not to be Afraid of Myself

"And if all I can think about is people yawning at my vulnerable dreams with their big eye-glazed stares, and my natural response is to kick, kick, kick at myself because I don’t want to be yawned at or glazed over, or be different than what is normal and convenient and that for which people have the patience for, then what, oh what, am I missing of my one true self?

What would it look like to be untamed, vulnerable, running wild, brazen, free?"

~ Mandy Steward of Messy Canvas
What would it look...

Happy Birthday, Epiphany Art Studio! {GIVEAWAY}

One year ago today, I did a scary thing.
 
I opened Epiphany Art Studio on Etsy.
   
It's been an unimaginable year, in both happy and not-very-happy ways, in my art and in my life.  But even in the hard things, there is so much to be grateful for.
   
One of the things I am grateful for?  You, of course.  
Thank you for reading my blog and following along on my art adventures.  It means more than I can say.
  

To celebrate my shop's first birthda...

Free eBook for Babylost Parents: Remembering Your Child

You may have noticed that about a month ago, I added a new tab to the navigation bar at the top of this website -- Free Stuff!  That tab was born when, upon reading of the needs of the Still Standing Magazine babyloss and infertility community, I created a free eBook to help babylost parents remember their passed on children. 


This eBook has been tucked away here for several weeks now, but I wanted to wait to officially announce it until it went live at Still Standing, too.  An...

Fear vs. Trust: Babyloss & Creativity Converge

Even though the temperatures have been a little cooler here, I've been finding it hard to sit down in my "studio" (a.k.a. our kitchen table) and push paint around.

It's because I'm afraid. 

And it's not the kind of fear that I usually run up against in creative endeavors.  It's not the I'm a perfectionist and am afraid of ruining this piece if I touch it kind of fear. 

It's of the My first baby died inside me and I'm afraid to get so engrossed in a project that I don't notice my...

Little Glimpses of What Almost Was

I've heard a lot of babylost mamas talk about how they sometimes get a sense of their lost children's presence around them, soothing and peaceful. Or they talk about how their dreams are filled with comforting visits from their children.

In the eight months since Eve died, I have not had such an experience.  The only dreams I've had of her have been pure nightmare, or at best a reliving of her death and birth.

I have not felt comforted by her.

And really, I'm not sure that I want to. ...