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Forever Timeless

 

Forever Timeless

By Annette Camp

November 17, 2023

I miss your smile,

your silliness,

your laughter.

I can't fight

the memory,

the love.

You're in my blood,

pumping through

my existence.

Into my life,

my heart,

my breath.

Lasting.

Unfailing.

Timeless.

Not Just Wishes

 

Not Just WishesBy: Annette CampOctober 7, 2023
I want spaceand timewith you.
Spending the daytogether.Wrapped in yourarms.Enjoying a cupof tea.
I remember your smile.I remember your kisses.
I want that forever, not justwishes.
There's nobodyI'd rather do life withthan you.

Reason Behind the Smile

Reason Behind the SmileBy: Annette CampSeptember 16, 2023 To someonefrom the outside,it was a smile for no reason.
But I knew better.I knew everythingabout the reasonbehind the smile.
It was the soundof lapping water,and the sight of agrey dragonfly.
It was talkingover loud music,and the chatterin that room.
It was laughter.It was sunshine.It was mountains,rocks and blue skies.
It was wonderfulmemories of that day. It was reminiscing about the moments.
It was pancakes and bacon. Steaks and potatoes, ice cream and chocolate cones.
It was a kiss. A hug. A gift from the heart. And a warm hand held at night too.
With the shuffleof the sheets onthe other side ofme, I pause...
And I grin...I knew everythingabout the reasonbehind the smile.

SLAM!

 

SLAM!By: Annette CampSeptember 2, 2023
There's nothing likea poetry slam torelieve your fears.
There's snaps, claps, and all kinds of things to reassure you that you arebrave. 
You are notyour anxiety.
Your difficulty.Your hardship or grief.
Your discomfort.Your distressor pain.
You can relaxinto the thoughtof it's ok - You, you, are ok.
You are clearly seenboth visibly andemotionally.
A sigh of relief.
Dating, now, that'squite the opposite.
There is hope toalleviate feelings ofisolation and loneliness.
A hope to sharecompanionship anda GOOOOD life.
A life worth living.A life that multiplesthe joy and dividesthe sorrow.
Then, there's the first contact. Thatfirst text, message,or if you're lucky, a face-to-facemeetup.
Going over and over in your headwhat to say, whattopics to avoid.
Trying on outfitafter outfit. Thatfirst impression tosummarize whoyou are.
In this situation too:fear and anxiety.Will I be seen?
I only say whatothers feel.
Feelings if left alone, unpleasantly,suffocate the life from you.
SLAM!

3am Dreams

 

3am DreamsBy: Annette CampJuly 24, 2023
My mom, sister,and threebed linens.
Dreamsand 3aminterpretations.
Mom:A positiveindicationof success.
Sis:A sign of newbeginnings,opportunities.
Appearing 3 times:A sign of afruitful life.
Bedlinens:Starting witha clean slate.
The book:10,000 DreamsInterpreted.
Internet searches ofdream symbolism.
I yearn for themeaning ofweird dreams.
Signs of success.Favorableoutcomes.
Now, I can sleep.

Body Aches

 

Body AchesBy: Annette CampJuly 18, 2023
The bandage forcefullyripped off, exposingthe skin andunderlying tissue.
Severe bleeding again.The wound aches and echoes of thelong-lasting traumaexperienced.
So my life hasbeen since youabruptly left.The damage done.
The internal injurynow exposed to theexternal world.The pain is great.My body aches.

The Bedrock

 

The BedrockBy Annette CampJuly 14, 2023
Resuscitated.
Restored to lifefrom a placethat was dying.
A painful placethat lacked TRUEconnection.
Coming from apsychologicallyexpressivedeficit.
Arising out ofa feeling ofemotionaldisconnection.
REAL talk.Sparks of light.Gentle tears.Vulnerability.
Talk about life.About love.About anything.And everything.
Not just dialoguearound the day.or family.or weather.
More thanconversationin the kitchenover a meal.
A voice spokenwithout regretor fear ofconsequence.
Honest.Supportive.Softness.And strength.
The bedrockof trust.of respect.CONNECTION.

Speechless

 

SpeechlessBy: Annette CampJuly 13, 2023
She told me toget in the carand she drove.
Where we weregoing I had noearthly idea.
Then, we arrived ata local coffee shopshe frequented. 
When we wentin, about ten orso of my friends were there. 
"What is going onhere," I asked.Then, her phonerang unexpectedly. 
She stepped awayto take the call, andI went in searchof answers.
I was told thatthey didn't knowwhy they'd beencalled, but werevery curious.
She ended hercall. Then, cameover. Taking myhand, she got onone knee.
She asked me toend my messagesof being singleand to be hersalone.
I was speechless...

Ripples in a Still Pond

 

Ripples in a Still PondBy: Annette CampJuly 11, 2023
Many a person hasreflected on theexternal effect ofripples occurring when an object isdropped in a pondor other body ofwater.
The surface isimmediately altered.
This eternal shiftis not void ofinternal modification. Just as the surface ripplesforth greatadjustments inthe external...
The internal isforever transformed.
A recognition ofthe everlasting shiftboth in the internaland external mustbe made for usalso. Truth be told,external alterationsaffect us internally.
We are foreverchanged, as rippleschange a still pond.

Stop I Pleaded

Stop I PleadedBy Annette CampJuly 1, 2023
A man has takenmy son away.I saw them leavetogether with myown two eyes. 
I ran after thevehicle, only tohave my son tearup and turn away.
As I reached outtoward him, I screamed: "Iwill save you."
With tears running down my cheeks, he mouthed, "I'm ok." I yelled to the driver to stop and pleadedwith my son tojump from themoving vehicle.
He shook his headand said, "I can't.I'm the father ofhis daughter's child."