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The Leisurely Journey

Tonight, I spoke with the one who has a space in my heart about the need for me to do things differently than I have in the past. Rushing into relationships and my addiction to the honeymoon phase has been quite disastrous in my previous relationships. There's nothing I can't experience in time...and time with her is what I long for. I don't just want her for a few days, weeks or months. I want to invest in the relationship over the long haul, the last haul, not the U-Haul. 

The Leisurely JourneyBy Annette CampJune 11, 2024
I have a profound awareness that a symphony of chemicals ignite when the veil of intimacy is lifted, swirling like a fragrant mist around us.  
In the tender dance of touch, endorphins and oxytocin weave an intoxicating tapestry, often blurring the lines between genuine connection and the euphoria of the moment. 
May we find delight in the sound of laughter, the joy of gratitude and the quiet moments of admiration that build a foundation of trust and sincerity.
I envisionour journey to physical affection not as a hurried sprint, but as a gentle, meandering stroll through a sun-dappled forest. 
In this leisurely journey, let our souls intertwine long before our bodies do, creating a bond resilient to the fleeting buzz of physical closeness. 
Together, let us relish the art of gradual discovery, allowing our connection to blossom in its own time, nurtured by patience and gentleness.
With a heart full of hope, I tread these waters carefully. Let us savor the anticipation, cherishing each step and every shared glance.

Hearts Unite

Last night, we shared a painted scene our two hearts will always remember. A moment of togetherness despite the miles separating us. 


Hearts UniteBy Annette CampJune 11, 2024
A visual bridgeof color archingacross the heavens.
The blending ofhues, born ofsunlight and rain.
Beauty followingthe darkest of clouds.
The sky shiftsinto a tranquilsea of fire.
A farewell danceof amber, tangerine, and creamy white.
Bathing the nightin a warmembrace.
Upon departing,nature whispereda secret.
A silent songof connection in the quietude.
Under thesame sky,two hearts unite.

Patchwork of Feelings

Patchwork of FeelingsBy Annette CampJune 9, 2024
In this image, my heart finds its home. Patchwork of feelings inside me roam. With each day, a cherished gift. Thoughts of you, my spirits lift.
Blossoming daily my affection takes flight. To me this day, every thing feels right. With every moment, our bond does grow. You are in my heart, this I know.

Take One Step

Disclosure: This is NOT a call to join a church. Simply, a woman telling her story of how not to give up if you have a dream.
For those that do not know, I identify myself as a spiritual kaleidoscope. I am religiously fluid in that I do not belong to, behave according to, or believe in any one faith tradition; rather I flow among them. I have been religiously persecuted and suffered from PTSD at the hands of many religious and spiritual bodies. I have been excommunicated, disfellowshipped and asked to never return from various religious and spiritual organizations, even in my home state of Colorado. 

Today, I write about my experience after reading an exert from Jim Harmer's book Work Energy: Finish What You Start and Fearlessly Take on Any Goal. It said "Imagine I'm sitting in front of you, talking with you face to face. You tell me the goal you've dreamed, and I tell you this: 'PROVE IT. YOU WANT IT SO BAD? I DARE YOU TO JUST TAKE ONE STEP.' People can dream all they want, but the vast majority of people will dream the rest of their lives away. Do you have a goal and you really mean it? I dare you to actually do one tiny thing about it today."
I have dreamt of finding a new spiritual home. One where I feel safe and loved. After roaming in and out of places throughout the world, I took a step in yet another faith community today. I am drawn to its mission "to unleash courageous love." So courageously, I step out onto a new path. 

The Heart Dance

I can't remember a more perfect first date. Paint swirled and my heart twirled. 


The Heart DanceBy Annette CampJune 1, 2024
The beauty of her smile.The sound of her laugh.The fragrance of her perfume. The touch of her embrace. The taste of her kiss.
A communicationof connection thatcaused my pulse toquicken and myheart to dance.

My Joyous Heart

I started writing in a journal about 10 years ago called the Love Catcher. It was to help me get clear about what I wanted in a relationship and invite love into my life. There were chapters on the history of my heart, desire, conscious loving, and prompts exploring topics beyond the butterflies. I picked it up the other day to reaffirm my desire for a relationship and look over the qualities I was looking for in my ideal partner that I  had written and rewritten over the years. I posed the question to someone recently and this was my experience. 



My Joyous HeartBy Annette CampMay 29, 2024
When asked whatshe wanted in arelationship, thesetwo words she spoke:
Longevity. Stability. 
And my joyous heart sang.

All that is Good

Today, my best friend asked me why are we friends. I told her that one of the primary reasons she is my best friend is the deep emotional connection and understanding that has developed over time. We support each other in all of life's ups and downs. I can confide in her, share experiences with her, and rely on her during both good times and bad and vice versa. We are more than friends. We are family. There's a feeling of being understood and accepted for who I am with her. We share common interests, values, and experiences, and that strengthens our bond and makes our friendship special.



All that is GoodBy Annette CampMay 28, 2024
You are morethan just anotherfriend to me.
You're memories, smiles, laughter,and hugs.
You're happiness,strength, andcompassion. 
You're the present, future, andthe past.
You're kindness,loads of fun,and family.
You're a visual representation ofall that is good.

Honest Conversations

I don't know about this "something casual" option on dating apps. I've been roped into this concept of being "all in" with someone and it going sideways. So, I told myself to throw it out in the universe and see where it lands. No problem. I can do a relationship without the expectation of something more. Then, I "matched" with someone 11 years younger. She has to just want to chat or be friends, right? And so I write...



Honest Conversations By Annette CampMay 27, 2024
Online dating app options:Chatting?Friendship?Something casual?Long-term relationship?
Mine readssomething casualand long-termrelationship. 
Something casual canbe a physical oremotional relationship, but without theexpectation of a moreserious romantic relationship. 
It's short-term. No strings attached. You're free to pursue,meet, or date others.You're not the "only one."
Too busy foranything serious oremotionally supportingsomeone?
Honest conversationsare necessary regarding intentions, expectations, future plans, degree ofemotional connection, communication regularity, and exclusivity. 
I got this.Express how youfeel and ask forwhat you want.Have that conversation. 

Drifting Off

Drifting Off By Annette CampMay 26, 2024
My mind movesslowly throughthe basics:the similarities in interests,values andlife approach. 
I closely coastthrough theintangibles:her upbeat spirit,her kind heart,her growth mindset, and self-awareness. 
Then, I am carried away by the thrillof my attraction. I feel the chemistry intensify with eachmovement of hereyes and those lips.
I wonder, "Whydo I long to holdher so close to me?"The thought ofher fills my mindas I leisurely driftoff to dreamland. 

Freedom

Freedom By Annette CampMay 19, 2024
In this life, I'd riskheartache for thelove of Freedom.
Warrior. Princess.Real. Hope.Freedom.
The image I hold isto love you my wholelife and no other.
Until we look intothe eyes of oneanother again.
Namaste.