Annette Camp's Blog, page 6

You Should Know

You Should Know By Annette CampApril 11, 2024
You should know that I make mistakes.
I am notperfect.
I feel grief,fear, andeven anger.
I've not been emotionally supportedthrough lifealtering deathsand painfulunexpected change.
I detach andfocus on regretrather thansolutions. 
I need to workon emotionalopenness andexpression.
I want you tolisten, empathize, and be patient. 
Because I am not perfect. 
I've been neglectedand exposed topure horror,unstable anddangerous environments,felt unsafe andtrusted no one.
I take flight.I freeze andI fight.
I need to trust,take risks andbuild a secure,stable life.
I want you toexplore with memy anxieties. 
Don't walk away.I'm not perfect. 
I've been around volatile peopleand have beenviolated; physically, verbally,  sexuallyand mentally abused.My voice has notalways been heard.
Passive aggressiveness may rear its headand I may be unclearin my communication. 
I need to calmlyspeak my truth;be clear in whatI really want. 
I want you to askwhat my needs areand let me feel heard.
You should knowI'm not perfect. 
AND you should knowI'm doing the innerwork to heal.

Every Version

 

Every Version By Annette CampApril 11, 2024
The NOW thatyou are andThe PAST thatyou were andthe FUTUREyou will be.
I love everyversion ofyou.
I will loveevery versionof you.
Why?Because that's what love does.

Hope Returns

Hope Returns By Annette CampApril 10, 2024
My eyes aresparkling with love,and my heartis dancing.
My rainbowcolors arebright andmy discoball shines.
Hope hasreturned toflow throughmy veinsonce again.

Did You See?

 

Did You See?By Annette CampApril 8, 2024
Food, trees,and libraries.
Tango, art,and poetry.
Buildings andstatues, lots to see.
Meditation, travelphotos, and tea.
Look their guide,how happy is he.
Kayaking, flowers,and trails to see.
Waterfalls andrivers, everbody.
Oh how delightfuljust to be.
**This one was inspired by my friends (Elizabeth and Julia) after looking at their travel photos.

Labels and Boxes

 

Labels and BoxesBy Annette CampMarch 27, 2024
Recently in anonline profile, I was askedto select froma dropdown"up to" fiveorientations.
Quickly scrolling through the list, Iimmediately choseLesbian and Queer. 
However, the listkept going on and on.Some of them I knew:sapiosexual,homoflexible, asexual, bisexual and pansexual.
Others, though, Ihad to look up,because I have anew-age curiosity.
Benignosexual.Finsexual.Fraysexual.Gynesexual.Noetisexual.Aceflux.
Oh me, oh my. Then there was anadditional romanticorientation category.
I won't go into allof those. However,I will say I'mabroromantic.There's no need tolook it up, becauseit could change.
If you want aplay partner(s),there are other options as well.
Unicorn.Kajirus.Stone top.Cuckcake.Hucow.Vixen.Gorean.
So many labels andboxes. For me,I just lead with love and kindness.

Look Both Ways

 

Look Both WaysBy Annette CampMarch 24, 2024
When I saw her, I swiped right.
For chatting?Friendship?Something casualor long-termrelationship?
My only focus:that smile andthose blue eyes.
Attraction isso much morethan physical.Little did I really know.
It wasn't about sex but a journey.
It was aboutconnection, exploration, adventure, and love. 
Daily choosingto love anotherunconditionally.
A loving unconventional relationship. No boxes or labels.
It was a dailychoice. Untilit wasn't. 
I've learned toask more questions,and look both ways,multiple times,before crossing the street.

Oh That Dream!

Oh That Dream!By Annette CampMarch 2, 2024

And I washaving sucha good dream.
You wokeme fromthat, why?
Oh I wantto go backto my dream!
It has beenone of thosenights...

Open & Unconventional

Although this love affair did not survive, it was a part of my story for a brief time in history. 

Open & UnconventionalBy Annette CampMarch 1, 2024

She may want another AND I have her love now.
No labels.Write myworries inthe sand.
I love her.Carve theblessingsin stone.
Remembering unconditional love today andin the now.

Open

 

OpenBy Annette CampMarch 1, 2024

She may want another AND I have her love now.
No labels.Write myworries inthe sand.
I love her.Carve theblessingsin stone.
Remembering unconditional love today andin the now.

My Heart Hears Love

 

My Heart Hears LoveBy Annette CampFebruary 27, 2024
My heart hears lovewhen happinessand joy take upspace in my being.
My heart hears lovewhen my soul reallyconnects with anothersomeone or something.
My heart hears lovethrough a feeling ofwarmth and sincerity,peace and security.
My heart hears loveaccompanied with deep affection, and tendernessfor another's well-being.
My heart hears lovewhen truly valuingand honoring thatwithout expectation.
My heart hears lovein the company ofgenuine concern inthe purest form.
My heart hears lovein the emotional bond strengthened over time through supportive action.
My heart hears lovein the unlimited oozingof unconditional acceptance.
Love is a choice of powerful freedom andmy heart hears loveas it manifests itself.