Azra Tabassum's Blog, page 206
October 9, 2014
You seriously get me. You don't know me, but you get me. Or I totally get you. I don't know. Either of the two. You're an amazing woman and I love your writing. It's like an adorable punch to the gut, and I mean this in the nicest way possible with total a
We get each other without knowing the other. That’s pretty cool! I love how that happens, like I always say, when you feel you know someone you’ve barely met, it’s because your souls touched when they were being made xx
fluerishing:
5000letters:
no i am not crying at Ed Sheeran’s new song and video
I started crying...
no i am not crying at Ed Sheeran’s new song and video
I started crying when the dancing began. And then I saw it was him dancing and the tears started spilling. I was like damn Ed I just woke up why are you doing this to me?
Right? Like I am not here for this, Ed. I have a degree to finish. I have books to read. I don’t have the time or the inclination to be sobbing over your ginger-haired waistcoated form as you twirl a beautiful woman around a large room and sing things like “you are evergreen” ffs think it through Ed
what song?
It’s called Thinking Out Loud. Don’t listen to it. It’ll upset you.
no i am not crying at Ed Sheeran’s new song and video
no i am not crying at Ed Sheeran’s new song and video
"Most mass murderers do not go from zero to 60. Rodger made escalating assaults on women (splashing..."
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Interesting to note that while a history of animal cruelty is widely accepted to be a link with becoming a serial killer, the link between cruelty towards women and killing women is still up for debate. If a guy abuses a cat and then shoots women we say "we should have seen it coming that guy was nuts", but if abuses women and then shoots women we say "we had no way of seeing it coming that guy was a perfectly polite, kind and wonderful human”.
October 8, 2014
"I hope it’s all in you. Worlds and constellations and every pretty thing that could destroy..."
I hope that I find it after flossing. Standing at the bathroom sink, running my tongue over the words “survive” and “together.” I’m all messed up bedroom hair and dog-tired eyes and your language is painted over me like neon signage. Let’s wake up to burning. It can be the toast or it can be all the bridges we weren’t going to cross together.
I think we began here. I think it all started in your holy hands and dirty, ugly tongue. Say things that change me. Write them on my body, I want to wake up to a different world inside of me. Take every awful thing and make it wonderful. Say “I love you” like a curse. Say it like a blessing. Don’t say it at all. Fuck, I don’t really care as long as you keep looking at me like that. Like maybe you see the beautiful thing inside of me that I already know exists. That maybe you appreciate it too and that appreciation can hold hands and walk into a fire together and it will be violent and devastating and we will love every moment of it.
I gotta warn you now though, there are ugly things inside of me. Dark things that look like whatever you were scared of when you were nine. Sometimes I’m unrecognisable because of them. I need you to love me through those times, even if you’re terrified. Even if your teeth are chattering from the cold because you’ve got them too. And I promise I’ll hold you through the awful. I promise I’ll never make you feel like I’m going to leave you behind. All your drunk and your bitter and your hateful. All the twisted things that keep you up at night. We’ll survive every damn winter together. I’ll hold your hand when the beasts are clawing at you. Let’s do this one thing for each other, here it goes: I have seen the good in you and the bad in you and I will try my hardest to always love them both. When there are days that I cannot love you like I should, I will stay. I will stay. I will straighten my shoulders, take your battle and I will stay.”
- Azra.T “Ugly Love”
"Tell them you don’t know how Eve felt
when she saw Adam in one hand, and the rest of the fucking..."
Tell them you don’t know how Eve felt
when she saw Adam in one hand, and the rest of the fucking universe in the other.
Tell them you don’t know how Eve felt
when she wanted the universe.
- Caitlyn Siehl, Maybe Eve Was a Wild Thing
(via thatsyourgold)
I swear. You and Caitlyn. You two take my breath away. Two opposing forces gripping my heart and pulling in opposite directions. One has all the ferocious beauty of a hurricane and the other is as soft and as agonizing as thorns and roses. You two are ligh
This is so, so darn lovely. It’s funny though because we both interchange those qualities. Caitlyn seems like the softest person you’ve ever met but she’s got a backbone of pure steel. She can be rock hard when she needs to be. She can be knuckles. And I turn into spun sugar, I turn so soft and so inconsequential that I’m barely there, I’m like a fucking raincloud. I think that’s maybe how we work so well together. (I know she’s gonna squeal when she reads this message, so thank you!)
"I’m not in love with you but I seem to keep acting that way. If I ever figure it out I’l let you..."
- Anne Sexton, from A Self-Portrait in Letters
October 7, 2014
"It’s dark.
You exhale a fist of memory.
I love you like weathering wood
in a room of empty..."
You exhale a fist of memory.
I love you like weathering wood
in a room of empty pianos.
When you return to something you love,
it’s already beyond repair.
You wear it broken.”
- James L. White, from “Lying in Sadness” in The Salt Ecstasies (via proustitute)
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