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The Drug of You

The Drug of You

If poetry had a taste,
it’d taste like you;
sweet and sour,
but still sticky like glue
And if you were a pill for popping,
you’d be blue;
because you bring me up,
and let me down used, not abused
I’d get a prescription for
60 MG of I don’t hate you,
and stay limp,
staring like a statue
But you can’t be any of those;
yours is from a needle not meant for tattoos,
and mine is sold in bars
from 11 am ‘til 2
And on street corners,
bought with I.O.U.’s;
writing poems;
being dealt a deuce;
you, me, and drug abuse

© 2012 Volatalistic Phil, White Wedding Lies, and Discontent: An American Love Story

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Burned to Death

(From the 3rd book in my unpublished poetry series)

Burned to Death

The fan cowl for
my Nissan broke &
my car would overheat
without it—so an electric
fan was a cheaper
temporary fix,
but I didn’t know
much about cars
and wiring

I ran the wires
direct to a toggle
switch and to the battery,
with the wires
going behind my
dashboard

My passenger
window was broken &
wouldn’t go down,
and the door wouldn’t
open from the inside

On lunch break at
work, I went to the
Burger King drive-thru;
I was waiting in the line
when all of the sudden
I saw smoke coming
from behind my dash

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Some updates & some poems

Hello everyone, it’s been eons since I’ve written anything here. You all have Crystal of “Dreams Dissolve” to thank–she keeps writing stuff on her blog and it has somehow made me feel inadequate and now I’m posting something.

Quick updates and some poems for you beautiful people.

****UPDATES****

–I’ve been working two jobs now for a year and I don’t know how else not to hustle, but on the brighter side of things, I’m picking up another gig, so I’m thinking about growing a business, in seeing how I have a couple of contracts now. I also went to an interview for a new job where I’ll be in a position to help people, and I’m fairly certain I have the job. I did my pee test and other stuff required and I think everything has gone well. It is a little unsettling because I’ve been used to getting shit on for so long that now that things are going my way, I don’t know what to expect or how to react–but I’m still hopeful.

–My Mind’s Abyss is...

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A Special Thanks to You!

This is a very special thank you to everyone who has and continues to reach out and contact me about my book(s), and have been courageous enough to even share with me bits about their lives and their struggles and their victories in life over substance abuse and addiction.

I really didn't know what to expect when putting this book back out there, but your comments and kind words have been a victory and an affirmation for me. It's been a humbling experience, and at times even a little overwhelming, but I'm thankful for all of it.

I just wanted you to know that every one of you is special--every one of you is hall of fame in my book. I'm so proud of everyone and I hope that I'll never let you down.

Thank you so much <3,
-Phil

Congratulations to the winners!

Congratulations to the winners of signed paperback copies of My Mind's Abyss: Suicide Edition !

This time around we had: four winners from the USA, one in Sweden, one in France, one in Spain, one in Germany, one in Australia, and one in Canada.

945 people entered to win, meaning that each person had slightly better than a 1% chance of winning so congratulations again to the winners! The books go out today.

If you didn't win, don't despair! You can always pick up a paperback copy or e-book copy ($1.98) on Amazon.com -or- you can stay tuned for the next giveaway I'll be doing.

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If you have a book blog where you review books and you'd like to have a free copy of my book to review, then I'd be honored to send you a copy. Message me with details and I'll get back to you.


<3
-Phil Volatile

FREE POSTER! (While supplies last!)

Who wants a free poster of yours truly? Send me a message and a mailing address and I'll ship one free of charge. (While supplies last). (Open to USA only, sorry international peoples!)

All the best,
-Phil

Poster can be seen here:

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Poster is an 11" x 17"

Re-release of My Mind's Abyss

For a long time, almost immediately after publication, I suppressed this book, and limited all ebook and paperback copies available for it. I did this out of fear, out of shame, maybe for being a writer, maybe for what I've written. I have been tackling this notion for a long time, and that's the re-release of this book. I plan to release the original raw version (that I since suppressed), in which I wrote during times I was battling delirium tremens, hysteria, and severe depression. The original plan was to write this book and then shoot myself. I guess I didn't end up cashing my own check, and as a result of it I was consumed by fear and shame, and for a long time, it haunted me. I continued making changes to the book, until I eventually pulled it down from everywhere.

I never wanted to change this version, because I looked back on it as art. So, that is why I'm planning to release the original version in all its sometimes confusing and random glory, and also editing an amended version, which removes two of the chapters, making the book slightly less sporadic, but adds some new content, making it version 1.5 (tentatively to be known as "My Mind's Abyss: Relapse". I am currently working on book #2, which is tentatively being called, "My Mind's Abyss: Aftermath (The Art of Dying)".

So, for those of you who've been trying to obtain a copy, it'll soon be coming available, for better or worse, I suppose. I hope I'll not disappoint anyone. Thank you everyone for your interest and your support.

Two years clean and sober

In a few days (on May 12th) it'll be 2 years ago that I sat here with a gun to my head, making a choice, and spent the next year and a half thinking I pulled the trigger. Soon, I'll be two years clean and sober, but it's not enough. It's not enough to just quit abusing drugs and alcohol, but I learned that it's a start, a strong start. I don't know that the disease, the infection, the defect, or whatever the hell you want to call it--I don't know that it ever goes away, because it's there. I feel it at times, a craving will come over me, a blip on my mind's radar of what once was, and could easily be again. But I know, from experience, there isn't a way to maintain what was, that I'll pick up where I left off, and it's possible that I won't return. I wish, very much at times, that I could just make it go away, that I could take back all of the things that have gone on as a result of my substance abuse, but I can't take it back. On one hand, I try to look at it as a blessing and not a scarlet letter...

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Mr. Harry Blight is free 3/28-4/1 on Kindle!

As the title says, my twisty creepy paranormal short story is free on Amazon #Kindle from 3/28/13-04/01/13. So get a copy! Review it if you like it or hate it. Thank you!

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March Madness Update!

Hey what’s up everyone? I know it’s been a while since my last update, but it seems that finding the time has been difficult–or maybe I’ve just been lazy. My apologies.

The Scoop: I’m still just as busy as ever with school and work, but I also picked up a 2nd job because with the hours and pay of my other job, it’s hard to get by. But, what are you gonna do? We get by.

With spring break here, again, I think I may actually get caught up with some of my homework, do some more writing, but also, work on my organic garden! Yeah, I’m going to do a garden this year, and with any luck, I can sell some of the excess to make a little money. I’m also planning to do some donations from my garden, but I’d like to arrange it with some type of a read or something that will draw people out, but they can also get some grub if they need or want to. We’ll see how that goes. None-the-less, I’m very excited about it.

Writing Update: I’m still working with the prose side of my brain, but I’m not ready to




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