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Peek-a-Boo, Jesus

I think Teo thinks prayer is just another game of Peek-a-Boo…

Kissing Disease

an outtake from our engagement photos, 1999

How romantic is it that just before Valentine's Day I caught a virus called the kissing disease? Or maybe it's not romantic at all since April didn't get it too. Hmmm…

Anyway, this morning while I was lying on the couch resting, April had the following conversation with one of the grandmas that drops her granddaughter off at school.

"How's your husband? Is he feeling any better?"

"About the same," April said.

"I'm sorry to hear that," the grandma said, and then turned to one of the other grandmas and whispered, "He has the same thing I had…but for men."

I'm still giggling as I write this down. I'm not sure what this grandma thinks I have, but considering she seems to know everyone and their dog in our neighborhood, let's hope that tomorrow morning when I go to the café for a glass of fresh-squeezed orange juice and a tostada con tomate, I don't overhear the waiters whispering to each other, "Isn't he the guy going through menopause?"

Kissing Disease

an outtake from our engagement photos, 1999

How romantic is it that just before Valentine’s Day I caught a virus called the kissing disease? Or maybe it’s not romantic at all since April didn’t get it too. Hmmm…

Anyway, this morning while I was lying on the couch resting, April had the following conversation with one of the grandmas that drops her granddaughter off at school.

“How’s your husband? Is he feeling any better?”

“About the same,” April said.

“I’m sorry to hear that,” the grandma said, and then turned to one of the other grandmas and whispered, “He has the same thing I had…but for men.”

I’m still giggling as I write this down. I’m not sure what this grandma thinks I have, but considering she seems to know everyone and their dog in our neighborhood, let’s hope that tomorrow morning when I go to the café for a glass of fresh-squeezed orange juice and a tostada con tomate, I don’t overhear the waiters whispering to each other, “Isn’t he the guy going through menopause?”

The Sun is a Planet

Alleke's drawing of the Solar System

Alleke has been trying to convince me all week that the sun is a planet. When I dug out our set of cardboard planets, laid them out on the table in front of her, and asked her to explain why there was no sun, she ignored my question, and instead returned to her original argument, which she had been beating like a dead horse. "Elena told me the sun is a planet," Alleke said, referring to her teacher who had recently begun teaching the class about the solar system.

I even looked up the definition of a planet according to the International Astronomical Union, commonly referring to as the IAU, but Alleke still insisted that Elena, her teacher, was the final authority.

So, of course, I decided to go to the source. I told Alleke to go back to school after lunch and ask her teacher again if the sun was a planet. She came home from school that afternoon and told me that Elena had confirmed that indeed the sun was a planet.

This morning, as a last resort, I told Alleke to ask Elena if the sun was a planet while Mom was still at school, so that we had a witness.

April returned from school, and I said, "And?…"

April bit her lip and grinned. "Well, Elena said that here in Spain they teach about los planetas or "the planets," and they say the sun is part of them."

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Having lived outside of my country for the last eight years, I've grown accustomed to having my basic beliefs questioned. For example, when I was asked how many continents there are in the world, I said seven, and everyone else said six. I had never heard of the continent of Eurasia. So, actually, I'm not at all surprised to find out that Alleke's teacher thinks the sun is a planet. I've learned how to slaughter my sacred cows.

What I've come to realize, however, is that I'm at a disadvantage as a parent. In this case, I don't know if I should believe Elena. Maybe everyone in Spain does think the sun is a planet…or maybe Elena is full of it. I don't know what to believe because April and I have chosen to raise our kids in a culture where we didn't grow up. While other parents rely on the conventional wisdom passed down to them from their culture, April and I have to fact-check, constantly.

The fact that I can't assume anything to be true or that I'm on the same page as the teacher makes me less confident as a parent.

The Sun is a Planet

Alleke's drawing of the Solar System

Alleke has been trying to convince me all week that the sun is a planet. When I dug out our set of cardboard planets, laid them out on the table in front of her, and asked her to explain why there was no sun, she ignored my question, and instead returned to her original argument, which she had been beating like a dead horse. “Elena told me the sun is a planet,” Alleke said, referring to her teacher who had recently begun teaching the class about the solar system.

I even looked up the definition of a planet according to the International Astronomical Union, commonly referring to as the IAU, but Alleke still insisted that Elena, her teacher, was the final authority.

So, of course, I decided to go to the source. I told Alleke to go back to school after lunch and ask her teacher again if the sun was a planet. She came home from school that afternoon and told me that Elena had confirmed that indeed the sun was a planet.

This morning, as a last resort, I told Alleke to ask Elena if the sun was a planet while Mom was still at school, so that we had a witness.

April returned from school, and I said, “And?…”

April bit her lip and grinned. “Well, Elena said that here in Spain they teach about los planetas or “the planets,” and they say the sun is part of them.”

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Having lived outside of my country for the last eight years, I’ve grown accustomed to having my basic beliefs questioned. For example, when I was asked how many continents there are in the world, I said seven, and everyone else said six. I had never heard of the continent of Eurasia. So, actually, I’m not at all surprised to find out that Alleke’s teacher thinks the sun is a planet. I’ve learned how to slaughter my sacred cows.

What I’ve come to realize, however, is that I’m at a disadvantage as a parent. In this case, I don’t know if I should believe Elena. Maybe everyone in Spain does think the sun is a planet…or maybe Elena is full of it. I don’t know what to believe because April and I have chosen to raise our kids in a culture where we didn’t grow up. While other parents rely on the conventional wisdom passed down to them from their culture, April and I have to fact-check, constantly.

The fact that I can’t assume anything to be true or that I’m on the same page as the teacher makes me less confident as a parent.

Microteatro Por Dinero

What does it say about me and my friends that when we heard the bedrooms in an old brothel had been converted into miniature kids' theaters with 15 min. shows for 3 euros, we all turned to each other and said in unison, "Why didn't I think of that!"

Despite the fact that we had to push our baby strollers down a street lined with prostitutes to get to the theater, one of the moms still asked the woman at the ticket counter if she could get a job there.

Alleke liked the puppet show where the kids had to look for the moon under the pillows they were sitting on, and then got invited to the moon's birthday party where they got to hollar the Happy Birthday Song. As we were walking out, Alleke was hanging on my arm and saying, "Please, please, please can we see another one."

I said no because the puppet show was still expensive. All four of us had to pay to see the play, even Teo who is one. Plus, I've discovered all kinds of activities for kids on the weekends that don't cost money, and I can't justify the cost when money is tight.

Still, I had to bring my kids to this ex-whore house with baby strollers parked out front. Of course the kids don't know anything about the history behind those bedrooms—and trust me, I don't want them to for a very long time—but I still wanted them to be a part of it. I wanted them to bring their innocence and laughter into this place because after all, I'm a sucker for hope. I suppose all these years following Jesus have led me to believe that even in the darkest places, there is always Hope. Plants have a way of growing out of the cracks in the sidewalk, if you know what I mean.

Microteatro Por Dinero

What does it say about me and my friends that when we heard the bedrooms in an old brothel had been converted into miniature kids’ theaters with 15 min. shows for 3 euros, we all turned to each other and said in unison, “Why didn’t I think of that!”

Despite the fact that we had to push our baby strollers down a street lined with prostitutes to get to the theater, one of the moms still asked the woman at the ticket counter if she could get a job there.

Alleke liked the puppet show where the kids had to look for the moon under the pillows they were sitting on, and then got invited to the moon’s birthday party where they got to hollar the Happy Birthday Song. As we were walking out, Alleke was hanging on my arm and saying, “Please, please, please can we see another one.”

I said no because the puppet show was still expensive. All four of us had to pay to see the play, even Teo who is one. Plus, I’ve discovered all kinds of activities for kids on the weekends that don’t cost money, and I can’t justify the cost when money is tight.

Still, I had to bring my kids to this ex-whore house with baby strollers parked out front. Of course the kids don’t know anything about the history behind those bedrooms—and trust me, I don’t want them to for a very long time—but I still wanted them to be a part of it. I wanted them to bring their innocence and laughter into this place because after all, I’m a sucker for hope. I suppose all these years following Jesus have led me to believe that even in the darkest places, there is always Hope. Plants have a way of growing out of the cracks in the sidewalk, if you know what I mean.

Not Suitable for Adults

I've watched so many episodes of Caillou in the last week while our family has been sick that I can't get Caillou's whiny little voice out of my head. I think I may have done some permanent damage.

I've decided they should come up with a TV rating for shows like Caillou called "Not Suitable for Adults."

Best Friends Forever

Alleke's teacher, Elena, and I stood at the classroom door and looked down the hallway. Alleke was sitting on a bench with her arms folded and a big lip, pretending not to notice us.

"This is the first time in months Alleke hasn't wanted to go to school," I said to Elena.

"I think I know why," Elena said as we stepped into her classroom. "As you know, Alleke's best friend, Amaya, left on vacation a few days ago. Every day since then Alleke has been sitting on a bench by herself during recess. Yesterday when I asked her to go play with the other kids, she got mad at me. She said she only wanted to play with her best friend Amaya."

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Fast forward a month and a few days. I was picking Alleke up from school when I saw Amaya's mom, Vicky, for the first time since they returned from their vacation. I mentioned to Vicky my conversation with Elena about how Alleke didn't want to play with the other kids while Amaya was gone. We both agreed that Amaya wouldn't have reacted the same way if Alleke had been on vacation. Amaya likes playing with the other kids at school.

We parted ways, and I felt uncomfortable with the idea that Alleke seemed attached to her best friend in a way that her best friend was not attached to her. Probably because at that moment I remembered myself as that little insecure child that always followed his best friend around looking for approval. The truth is I didn't want Alleke to have to deal with the same insecurity I dealt with as a kid. I wanted her to be strong…even stronger than I was.

It's unfair to expect Alleke to be stronger than I was—or at least not without a little help. Hopefully as an adult I've done my work and dealt with my insecurities, so that when I see the same insecurities in my kids, I'm able to help them deal with them better than I did.

I want Mommy

Alleke was sick on the couch. I had been sitting next to her rubbing her face and legs, filling her sippy cup and making her toast with jam while she watched TV.

April was out with her parents getting a coffee, and as soon as Alleke heard the key in the front door, she rolled over and said, "I want Mommy."

"Why do you want Mommy?" I asked. "What does Mommy do that I don't do?"

"She does lots of better things that you don't do."

"Like what?"

Alleke sighed. "I don't know."

I've spent years trying to figure out why my kids prefer their mommy over me, and the result of all my research has never been that my kids end up liking me better. Instead, I end up making up reasons why my kids don't like me based on the weaknesses I perceive in myself, and then wanting to give up on parenting completely because I've convinced myself that I'm not fit for the job.

In situations where my kids obviously prefer their mom to me, the one thing that keeps me going is reminding myself that my kids have exceptionally good taste. I prefer their mommy over everyone else too!