Niloy Shouvic Roy's Blog, page 6

Unspoken Love Yearning

In the realm of heartfelt emotions untold,

I struggle to express what my heart does hold.

For you, my love, a language falls short,

In describing the depths of this affection I've sought.

My words falter, unable to convey,

The intensity of feelings that come my way.

I yearn to embrace you, in tender embrace,

To share eternal kisses, your beauty to trace.

Every night, my soul longs for your touch,

Aching for the connection I desire so much.

Love courses through me, true and pure,

With every beat of my heart, it does endure.

Though we've yet to meet, my love unfurled,

I'm ready to dedicate my entire world.

I care not of your past or who you may be,

For it's the future together that sets me free.

I dream of a lifetime, side by side,

With you as my partner, my love, my guide.

No matter the hurdles or what may transpire,

Our love will burn bright, a passionate fire.

So let our paths converge, destiny's call,

United we'll stand, together we'll enthrall.

In the symphony of love, our hearts will dance,

Forever intertwined, a beautiful romance.

© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY 

Fevered Love's Passion (Sonnet)

Oh, cruel fate hath cast upon me this fever,

A torment fierce that grips my mortal frame.

Mine eyes, ablaze, yearn for thy visage, fair,

That heavenly visage, thy beauty's flame.

My body, aflame, doth mirror hell's own fire,

An inferno that consumes my very soul.

Thy hands, like snow, so soft and pure, I crave,

To quench this thirst, this fevered longing's toll.

I, languishing, am on the brink of death,

Yet e'en in this plight, 'tis thou I desire.

For in thy love, the fragments of my heart,

Yearn to be made whole, consumed by love's fire.

Dark Lady, 'tis thee and thee alone I seek,

To heal this fevered soul, so frail and weak.

© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY

Burning Love's Nicotine

In a realm of desire, our paths once entwined,

But now I'm consumed by a love left behind,

I'm burning my fingers, dared touchin' yours,

A touch that ignited, now anguish endures.

My lips, once aflame with the dreams we once shared,

Now burn with regret, as if no one cared,

Burning my lips that yearned for your course,

A kiss that was stolen, turned bitter, remorse.

Through cigarette's ashes, my feelings decay,

A smokescreen of memories, fading away,

If you dare to kiss me, love's gone, I say,

Lost in the smoke, where emotions betray.

No taste of affection, just nicotine's sway,

A bitter reminder of love's slow decay,

Yet I'll let the embers of our love ignite,

In the flickering flames, I'll find strength and might.

For in the ashes of what once was so true,

A phoenix shall rise, renewed and brand new,

I'll gather the fragments, let go of the pain,

And with newfound hope, I'll love once again.

© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY 

My Inner Demons! 2.0

In shadows cast upon my weary face,

They think all is well, a smile in its place.

Silent I stand, no queries to arise,

Darkness engulfs, light I yearn to embrace.

Within me resides something strange and unknown,

With whom shall I spar? My enemy's not shown.

I've tried to make them grasp my plaintive plea,

Yet resolute, they wish to claim my throne.

The fault, I admit, was mine to embrace,

But forgiveness I beseech, mercy's sweet grace.

Suffocating in this realm I reside,

Understanding eludes, a wretched chase.

Once you professed a yearning for my joy,

What changed, pray tell, that now you seek to destroy?

Give me a moment, time to make amends,

I promise uniqueness none can employ.

Unbind me from these chains, release my plea,

Is trust in my soul so hard to decree?

Rest not a shred of faith within your heart?

Not even a sliver, doubting my decree?

Sleep has forsaken me, nights void of peace,

Tears trace my cheeks, this anguish won't cease.

Pretending to be content to the world,

A weariness born, false smiles to release.

Gathering courage, I laid my soul bare,

Hoping you'd understand, with me to share.

Yet you proved me wrong, society's pawn,

Priorities skewed, leaving me in despair.

"You were stuck in your place, I in mine,

I confided, hoping solace to find.

But you turned a blind eye to my plight,

My pain was mine alone, my heart malign."

With a glimmer of understanding so slight,

I hoped you would listen, embrace my insight.

Yet time and again, you shattered my hopes,

Unexpected actions, my spirit's respite.

I didn't ask for you to linger near,

Just a moment's respite, my plea was clear.

Why was it so arduous to allow?

I sought not for paradise, just a pause, my dear.

That day I shattered, broken without cause,

Punished unjustly, by unjust laws.

You may not perceive the tears I conceal,

But someday, remorse shall tighten its jaws.

The battlefield awaits, victory unknown,

Who shall triumph, who shall be overthrown?

For now, I wage a battle within myself,

Since when it began, I can't disown.

In the depths of my soul, this war unfolds,

A struggle unyielding, stories untold.

Mayhaps someday you'll fathom my plight,

The pain that consumes, as my tears enfold.

This verse, my lament, an ode to my strife,

An echo of battles waged in my life.

Shakespearean in nature, my words to convey,

The inner turmoil of a soul in strife.

© Niloy Shouvic Roy 

Love's Jealous Yearning

I don't know what this feeling's about,

When I can't speak or see you, no doubt,

It suffocates me, makes my heart ache,

As if love's a drug, I'm unable to shake.

I yearn for your presence, your warm embrace,

To share kisses till our scents interlace,

Your body's fragrance, a sweet delight,

Your captivating eyes, shining so bright.

Every little thing about you I adore,

From head to toe, it's you I truly adore,

Yet jealousy creeps in, when others draw near,

For fear of losing you, my love, so dear.

In this whirlwind of emotions, I'm caught,

Love's intoxication, a feeling I've sought,

But through it all, one thing remains true,

I'm deeply in love, completely with you.

© Niloy Shouvic Roy 

Supportive Love, Best Friend

In that moment, you'll comprehend,

She's your biggest fan, your truest friend.

The one who supports you, hand in hand,

Through every twist and turn life has planned.

She's the companion, always there,

Through highs and lows, she'll truly care.

The love she gives, so pure and rare,

A flame that forever will brightly flare.

Among all others, she stands above,

The best lover you'll ever love,

With her, you find solace and trust,

A bond unbreakable, built from pure lust.

Her presence, a treasure, a guiding light,

Together, you conquer any fight.

She's the strength that fuels your might,

In her embrace, everything feels right.

So cherish this woman, hold her tight,

For she brings joy, day and night.

Your biggest supporter, by your side,

In her love, you'll forever abide.

© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY 

Jealous Raindrops Dance

Underneath the stormy sky, I watch you stand so gracefully.

The raindrops kiss your tender lips, it's a sight I can't unsee.

Jealousy, it fills my heart, as they dance upon your skin.

I yearn to be the rain that falls, to touch your lips and feel you within.

Each raindrop falling on your lips is making me jealous,

I long to taste your sweet embrace, to feel your love so zealous.

But as the rain keeps pouring down, I'll hide my envy well,

And cherish the moments in my mind, where my love for you will dwell.

In every drop that softly lands, a part of me wants to be,

To feel the gentle touch you feel, to taste the ecstasy.

But fate has placed me far away, from the realm where you reside,

So I'll admire you from afar, my feelings I won't hide.

Oh, the rain becomes my tears, falling for what I can't possess,

But I'll keep dreaming in the storm, hoping someday I'll confess.

Until that day arrives, I'll let the raindrops speak for me,

For each one that falls upon your lips, carries my love across the sea.

Each raindrop falling on your lips is making me jealous,

I long to taste your sweet embrace, to feel your love so zealous.

But as the rain keeps pouring down, I'll hide my envy well,

And cherish the moments in my mind, where my love for you will dwell.

So let the rain keep falling, let it wash away my pain,

For every drop that graces you, reminds me of what I can't attain.

But even in the stormy night, my love for you won't wane,

And each raindrop on your lips will always make me jealous, it'll never change.

© Niloy Shouvic Roy 

Nostalgic Love Era

I love the Landphone, Phone Booth, Sms, Letter era,

Where love was pure, its essence so clear.

People valued emotions, not just the body's lust,

A time when connections were deep, filled with trust.

In Landphone's ring, my heart would dance,

Awaiting your voice, a sweet romance.

Phone Booths whispered secrets, stories untold,

Love's mysteries shared, within their stronghold.

Sms messages, brief but heartfelt,

Words carefully chosen, like a work of art.

Letters, handwritten with love's devotion,

Expressions penned, capturing every emotion.

Gone are those days, now a distant past,

Technology advanced, relationships amassed.

Yet, I yearn for that era, where love was the goal,

Feelings cherished, filling every soul.

The Landphone, Phone Booth, Sms, Letter's grace,

An era of love, etched in time's embrace.

Let's remember those moments, hold them dear,

And honor the love we once held near.

© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY

Silent Weeps In The Dark

Dear Mom,

How are you? I hope everything is fine at home. I am also good at my in-laws. Yes Mom, I'm able to pretend like everything is fine, just the way you taught me. However, sometimes it really hurts whenever my husband hits me with his leather belt in his drunken stupor.

I use my make-up skills everyday just to hide all the scars he has given me. Mom, I know we are poor and we cannot manage the dowry anymore, I still hope somehow, someday you will save me. Mom, my heart aches even more whenever he verbally abuses me and my family. He even calls me a h*e! 

Mom! I'm really sorry. I wish my skintone was lighter, then their demand for dowry wouldn't have been this much. 

Mom, do you know that last night he and his mom burnt my left hand with a cigarette? 

Whenever a relative comes to my in-laws house, I always try to put on a fake smile and show that I'm happy here.

Still I don't know why, they ask me, "why do you look so thin?", " Are you ok? "

As soon as they leave, my mother-in-law punishes me for looking pale. 

Why wouldn't I become this thin, mumma?

Afterall, all they offer me is just 2 pieces of intentionally burnt roti! 

Mumma, I'm really sorry. 

You told me not to register a complaint in the Police Station, because if I do so, society will chew my family's reputation. 

That's why I didn't go to the Police. 

But mom, today I'm actually physically dying. Yes mom, you heard it right! I really can't take it anymore! The day I signed our marriage certificate, I had little idea that I was signing away my death certificate. 

I am really sorry mumma! I have tried my best to become a good daughter and wife. Please pardon all the mistakes I made and remember me in your memories.

Farewell Mom,

Every Daughter who died because of dowry.

© Niloy Shouvic Roy

Edited by:- Diya Mukherjee 

আমাদের কথা কেনো বন্ধ হয়ে গেলো?

 

কারোর এত কাছে এসোনা,

এরা অভ্যেস বিগড়ে দেবে।

কথা এত বলবে শুরুতে তোমার সাথে,

পরে একটি কথা শোনার জন্য তর্পিয়ে দেবে।

এই হটাৎ করে কথা বলা থেমে যাওয়া,

সবার সাথেই হয় কি?

আর নাকি আমার সাথেই শুধু এইসব অদ্ভুত জিনিস হয়?

তুমি পুরোপুরি কোনোদিনও আসনি,

আবার পুরোপুরি ভাবে যাওনি।

হয়তো আমার ভাগ্যেরই পরিপূর্ণতা পছন্দ না।

তোমার ভালোবাসাতো আমি কোনোদিনও চাইনি,

চেয়েছিলাম কি? না!

যেমনটা চলছিল, আমার জন্য সেইটাই অনেক ছিল।

আমরা বন্ধুই ছিলাম অবশ্য

আর আমি বলতামনা যদি ভালোবেসেও ফেলতাম তোমায়,

কারণ তোমার সঙ্গটাই আমার জন্য সব কিছু ছিল।

আমি এতটা জুড়ে গিয়েছিলাম তোমার সঙ্গে।

কিন্তু তুমি কোথাও পৌঁছাতে দিলে কোথায় আমাদের?

হঠাৎ নিজেকে এমন ভাবে সরিয়ে নিলে,

যেনো চেনো অব্দি না আমাকে।

কেনো শেষ হলো সেই সম্পর্কটা

যেমনি ছিল আমাদের

দুটো কথা বলে নিতাম,

একটু বন্ধুত্ব ভাগ করে নিতাম,

এর থেকেতো বেশি ভাবি অব্দিনি আমি।

শেষকথাটা ও আমাদের হাসতে হাসতেই শেষ হয়েছিল,

তো তারপর তুমি হটাৎ করে জবাব দেওয়া কেনো বন্ধ করে দিলে?

আমি পুরো মিশে গেছিলাম তোমার মধ্যে,

তোমার অভ্যেস লেগে গিয়েছিলো আমার।

সবেতো ঘুম ভালো আশা শুরু হয়েছিল,

তার আগেই তুমি স্বপ্নটা ভেঙে দিলে।

কথা বলবেনা আমার সাথে?

ঠিকাছে! বলোনা

কিন্তু এই টুকুতো বলেদাও যে আমি ভুলটা কি করেছিলাম।

হটাৎ করে কে যায়?

এত ভালো একটা সম্পর্ক নষ্ট করে

আমি ভাবতেই রয়ে যাবো যে এমনটা কেনো হলো..

পুরো এক মাস হয়ে গেলো তোমার গলা না শুনে,

আবার বছর ও কেটে যাবে,

যদিও তোমার জন্য আর নতুন কি।

কেনো এসে চলে গেলে তুমি?

আমি তো আগেই অনেক একা ছিলাম।

আর তোমাকে পেয়ে ভেবেছিলাম যে আমিও একজন সঙ্গী পেয়ে গিয়েছি।

রোজ কথা হতো

অনেক কথা হতো,

এখন শুধু সেই কথা গুলোরি কথা হয়, আমার মনে।

তোমার মনে হয়না কখনো?

যে হারিয়ে গেছে কিছু

আর নাকি জেনে বুঝে তুমি ছেড়ে দিলে

আমাকে এই মাঝরাস্তায়।

সবার নিজের সময় কাটানোর জিনিস চায়,

অনুভূতির কোনো মর্যাদাই নেই।

মুখে বলার জন্য অনেক বন্ধু পাওয়ায় যায়,

কিন্তু বন্ধু দের মধ্যে বুন্ধুত্ত এখানে নেই।

কারোর এত কাছে এসোনা,

এরা অভ্যেস বিগড়ে দেবে।

কথা এত বলবে শুরুতে তোমার সাথে,

পরে একটি কথা শোনার জন্য তর্পিয়ে দেবে,

একটি কথা শোনার জন্য তর্পিয়ে দেবে।

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