Niloy Shouvic Roy's Blog, page 3

Failed Attempt to Heal

In the still of night, I labor, a futile quest,

To soothe your soul, to grant you rest.

I tried my best to make you forget,

The shadows that haunt, the regrets beset.

But each attempt, a fleeting grasp,

As memories return, like a venomous asp.

Your past, a specter, looms so vast,

A relentless echo, a shadow cast.

With every smile, I hoped to erase,

The pain that lingers, the tears you chase.

Yet, one message, one call, and all is undone,

My efforts in vain, like battles unwon.

I love you, dear, more than words can say,

But trust remains elusive, slipping away.

I am not him, the one who caused such woe,

Yet his ghost still haunts, refusing to go.

So I stand here, heart heavy with sorrow,

Hoping for a brighter, less haunted tomorrow.

I'll keep trying, though my efforts seem small,

To mend what's broken, to answer love's call.

© Niloy Shouvic Roy

Last Breath of Love

In the depths of despair, I linger alone,

Nobody hears the silent cries I moan.

Yearning for love, yet met with disdain,

I offered my all, but it was in vain.

Tonight, as I fade into the dark,

I plead for a love, an everlasting spark.

Please, remember me when I'm gone,

Let me linger in your memories, dawn to dawn.

I longed to be the light in your eyes,

But alas, in darkness, my spirit lies.

My heart, aching with every beat,

My soul, weary, seeks its retreat.

I wished for my last breath, upon your chest,

But fate's cruel hand denied me rest.

You failed to grasp the depth of my love,

Now I depart to the heavens above.

Lay me to rest beneath the earth's embrace,

For fire has already consumed my grace.

Farewell to all, let happiness be your guide,

As I take my leave, on this final tide.

© Niloy Shouvic Roy

Ending Misery

Tonight I'm breaking free from all the chains,My heart's heavy with the weight of all my pains.Each shattered dream cuts deep within,And every mend just leads to bleeding again.
Tonight I swallowed all my sleeping pills,But now I'm terrified of closing my eyes.I'm fighting to stay awake, can't bear to lose,The touch of your hand, the love we used to choose.
Forgive me, everyone, for all my sins,Grant me freedom from this life I'm in.I long to breathe again, to feel the sun,To run in the light, where I used to belong.
That's why I'm ending it all tonight,Saying goodbye under this darkened light.Only my walls have seen the tears I've cried,Only my pillow knows how hard I've tried.
Sorry, Mom, for failing as your son,Couldn't bear the weight, couldn't be the one.Sorry, God, for failing as your creation,Couldn't find the strength, trapped in desperation.
Farewell to everyone, I won't disturb,The balance of this world with my troubled words.I'll take rebirth again, a free bird to soar,No longer caged, but free forevermore.
©️ Niloy Shouvic Roy

Beneath the Love Summer Storm

In the sultry summer eve, the stormy winds caress,

Their touch upon my skin, a tender, sweet finesse.

Echoes of your embrace, a balm for my soul,

Each embrace, a sanctuary, making me feel whole.

Lost in the gusts, I ponder where they roam,

Yet in my heart, I know, you're my true home.

With every gust, I feel your presence near,

A love so strong, dispelling every fear.

As raindrops fall, a symphony above,

We dance beneath the heavens, bound by love.

Though miles apart, our spirits intertwined,

In the downpour's embrace, our souls aligned.

Each raindrop a kiss, upon our lips it lands,

A silent exchange, as our love expands.

Though breaths not shared, our hearts beat as one,

In nature's embrace, our journey's begun.

Let the storm rage on, its fury we'll defy,

For in each other's arms, our love will never die.

Through wind and rain, united we remain,

In a dance of love, under heaven's reign.

In the gentle patter of the rain upon the earth,

We find a rhythm, a melody of rebirth.

A harmony of souls, entwined in this embrace,

As nature's symphony plays, we find our grace.

With every lightning flash, a spark ignites within,

A reminder of the passion that binds us, akin.

In the thunder's roar, our hearts beat as one,

In the tempest's fury, our love is never undone.

So let the storm rage on, its power we'll defy,

For in the depths of our love, we'll always fly.

Through every tempest, we'll weather the strife,

Bound together in the symphony of life.

In the aftermath, as the storm clouds part,

We'll stand together, with love as our art.

For in the stormy winds and the pouring rain,

Our love endures, unyielding, without refrain.

© Niloy Shouvic Roy

Fading Away Like Shadows In The Rain

In the shadows of our love's demise,I sacrificed all beneath the weeping skies.For your love, I morphed my very being,Yet you declared my presence too demeaning.
With every beat, I devoted my heart,Yet you tore it apart, tearing me apart.Body and soul, all laid bare,Yet your rejection hangs heavy in the air.
I altered myself, a chameleon's hue,All for the sake of pleasing you.But in the end, it was not enough,My efforts deemed inadequate, my love rebuffed.
And so, with a heavy heart, I depart,Promising to never again impartMy presence upon your world, my love,For it seems I am not what you dreamed of.
Farewell, my once cherished one,May your path be brightened by a different sun.Though I'll carry the weight of this pain,I'll fade away, my love, like shadows in the rain.
© Niloy Shouvic Roy

My Love Story to Devil

Tonight I was talking to the Devil,

I told him my story,

Sitting in the shadows, feeling oh so sorry.

Pouring out my heart, to the darkness deep,

Hoping for some solace, in the secrets that I keep.

 

Always searching for love, but I'm stuck in this abyss,

Not just a body's lust, I crave a deeper kiss.

Every time I open up, I end up feeling used,

Was it me, trusting blindly, feeling so confused?

Was it my fault for loving, giving all of me?

Now I'm left with mental scars, it's hard to see.

Every time I fall, they leave me in despair,

I'm just a human, wishing someone would care.

 

Will I ever feel the warmth of someone's embrace?

Or am I destined to be alone in this space?

I long for love, but it's always out of reach,

Will I ever find it, or is it just a speech?

 

I want to see tears fall for me, genuine and true,

Someone to put in effort, someone who'll pursue.

I dream of flowers, tokens of affection,

But it seems they're reserved for my grave's reflection.

Will I ever love again, or is it just a game?

Can I trust once more, or will it end the same?

I'm lost in this cycle, drowning in my pain,

Hoping for love, but it's all in vain.

 

Will I ever feel the warmth of someone's embrace?

Or am I destined to be alone in this space?

I long for love, but it's always out of reach,

Will I ever find it, or is it just a speech?

 

As I lay here contemplating, in the silence of the night,

I wonder if I'll ever find love, if it's worth the fight.

But until then, I'll keep on searching, through the darknessand the pain,

Hoping that one day, love will find me again.

© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY

Misunderstood Woman Seeks Love

In the tender twilight's soft embrace,Resides a woman, a portrait of grace.A touch of innocence in her gaze,Seeking love's warmth in passion's maze.
Childlike she may seem, yet beneath the veil,Lies a soul yearning, tender and frail.For she seeks not the carnal lust,But love's pure touch, a sacred trust.
Yet all who come, drawn by her charm,Seek but the flesh, devoid of harm.They fail to see her depth, her worth,Lost in the allure of her earthly birth.
Misunderstood by kin and lover,She wanders through life, longing to discover,A love that sees beyond the skin,To cherish the soul that lies within.
And I, oh I, yearn to be the one,To fill her days with laughter, with sun.To banish the shadows, the doubts that bind,And show her a love, one of a kind.
I want to trace each scar with tender care,Kiss away the pain, the despair.To whisper words of love, sincere and true,And prove that my heart beats only for you.
For you are more than just a woman, my dear,You're the embodiment of all I hold dear.A beacon of light in a world so dark,Guiding me home, like a north star's spark.
So let me be the one to hold you close,To love you deeply, to cherish the most.For in your arms, I've found my home,And with you, I'll never be alone.
Together we'll walk, hand in hand,Through life's twists and turns, we'll stand.For I am yours, and you are mine,Bound together for all time.
© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY 

Echoes of Solitude: Love's Verse in the Night

In the hush of night, I feel your absence keen,A yearning deep, a longing evergreen.I miss you, dear, with every breath I take,Each moment without you, an ache.
Tonight, I really miss you, oh so much,Your presence, your touch, your tender clutch.I wish you were here, within my arms,To soothe away these longing charms.
Oh, how I yearn to write upon your skin,Words of love, where our souls begin.With lips caressing, tracing each line,Your back, my canvas, our love entwined.
I'd pull you close, against my beating heart,As raindrops fall, our love's sweet art.The sky weeps tears, as if to say,It feels my loneliness, in every way.
But even in the storm, my love, you're near,In every whispered word, every silent tear.For though we're apart, our hearts unite,In the gentle dance of love's sweet light.
So until the dawn, when morning breaks anew,Know, my love, my heart beats for you.I miss you tonight, and every night's embrace,But in my dreams, I see your face.
© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY

Eternal Love Pledge

In the twilight of our years, when age has marked its trace,And time has etched its story upon every weathered face,I'll hold you close, my love, as I do in this moment's grace,For in my heart, forever, you'll hold the highest place.
Though wrinkles may adorn our skin, and hair may turn to gray,My love for you will never fade, it only grows each day.With every kiss, a testament, to the vows we've sworn to say,I'll cherish you, my darling, in every single way.
Through trials and tribulations, through laughter and through tears,Our bond will only strengthen, despite the passing years.For in your eyes, I find my home, dispelling all my fears,And in your arms, I've found a love that truly perseveres.
So here's my promise, dear, on this special day we share,To love you fiercely, wholly, beyond compare.For even in our twilight years, when time has silvered hair,I'll still be here, my love, always and everywhere.
Happy Promise Day, my love, may our love forever bloom,In every season, every age, dispelling any gloom.For you're my light, my heart, my everything in every room,And together, we'll dance through life, dispelling any doom.
© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY 

Romantic Details of Her

Hey my beautiful unknown love,

Today you were wearing Red Salwar and Black Jacket,

Round faced girl, with a glow like the moon above,

Doll eyes, sparkling with a celestial packet.

Your small black Bindi, a tiny universe in its own right,

Holds the secrets of a thousand constellations,

Guiding me through the darkest of nights,

With its magnetic allure and silent invocations.

Cream colored nail polish adorning your hands,

Each stroke a masterpiece of grace and finesse,

Black polish on your feet, like night's silent bands,

Binding me to you with a tender caress.

Lipstick shade MAC's Ruby Woo,

A crimson kiss upon your lips so divine,

With every smile, my heart beats anew,

Lost in the radiance of your design.

I won't be able to explain how mesmerizing you were looking,

For words fall short in capturing your beauty's gleam,

In your presence, my senses go mistook,

And in your absence, I'd surely faint in love's dream.

© NILOY SHOUVIC ROY