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January 22, 2021
Day 2,641: Check In
Check in…
How do I feel? How am I doing?
I’m…good. This week was up and down, to be sure. Last week, I remember, was dope. Really, really good. On all fronts. This week had some bumps. Honestly, nothing major. It just wasn’t as focused.
It’s really the writing that has me down on this week; I didn’t get all my sessions in. I fell off the wagon a bit. I let life crowd it out. Which, you know, happens. It does. And I really just want to make note of how much I judge whether a week is “goo...
January 21, 2021
Day 2,640: A Late One
A loooong day. It was bumpy, but it was a good one!
Technology was messing up today left and right. Our dishwasher is on the fritz. My computer was having issues. Podcasting was crazy because Josh lost power halfway through our talk and we almost had to re-record all of it…
But at the end of the day, everything I wanted to get done got done. And it’s late, yes, but not so crazy late that I won’t be able to be productive tomorrow.
This work stretch of the last five months or so should be...
January 20, 2021
Day 2,639: It’s Done
The Trump era is over. I hope we never have to talk about him again. I hesitated to even type his name, but here we are. He’s no longer president. Biden is in. Thank lord.
It was hard to concentrate early in the day because of the inauguration going on, but I rallied for the middle and latter part of the day to have a decent work day. No writing, which is two days in a row (after writing on the extra off day on monday!). Not in love with that, but I can fix it tomorrow. Good work is happening...
January 19, 2021
Day 2,638: Les Incompetent
K. So. Lupin is fun. It’s on Netflix. Just please for the love of god, watch it in French with subtitles, and not with the dubbing. The real performances are 1000x superior.
Probably gonna recommend it this week on the podcast. We’ll see. It’s not a peeeeerffeeccttt show…but it is fun.
Worked hard. Had a terrible night’s sleep last night that I’m aiming to avoid tonight. I got up right as I was falling asleep and totally fucked my cycle up. Took me another FOUR HOURS to get back to sleep. ...
January 18, 2021
Day 2,637: Gourmet Pup
Making it a quick one tonight. I got the shit done I wanted to! I wrote in the morning. First stuff I wrote was gold. Last stuff I wrote wasn’t. And I took note of just how much that affects how I think the writing day went. If I end well, the whole day feels like I’m a boss. If I end on the struggle bus, the whole day feels like I suck. Need to work on that.
Then, I worked on the finances all day, and by golly, I think I have them pretty much marshaled. A budget worked out for the entire yea...
January 17, 2021
Day 2,636: Excellence
Been doing a lot of exploration lately in therapy with why I do things the way I do them, kinda of tracing my current behaviors and habits and thought processes back to the root of where they came from, which is usually childhood. And then we watched the second episode tonight of the Tiger Woods documentary and it made me think about “excellence.”
Excellence was my solution to feeling like an outsider or awkward. I’m not saying that I was often “excellent” then or now, but what I am saying is...
January 16, 2021
Day 2,635: Crash Day
Today is what Liz and I have decided to call a “crash day.”
I was a zombie. I slept most of the day I guess I needed it. I feel much more normal now. It was a busy week! Not so much “busy” in the most straight-forward sense, I guess, in like working a super large number of hours and overtime and whatnot. I didn’t. But I did tackle some things this week that I’d been either putting off, or was saying no to entirely because of…fear, I guess at the root of it. And I said yes to those things th...
January 15, 2021
Day 2,634: Into The Great Blue
What a week.
This was…an all-timer of a week, but at the same time totally normal, down to earth, nothing huge happened. It was just…a great week. I’m doing some things that scared me. And I mean scared me in the sense that there was no good reason they should except worry and self-doubt and wanting to just keep things the same.
Work-work was also great this week. I really cooked through stuff I needed to get done. Had a couple days in a row here where I didn’t have to press so hard. That ...
January 14, 2021
Day 2,633: Easing Up
I got to ease up a bit today. I didn’t have to go so hard with it. That was a welcome relief from the past few days in which I really, really put my nose to the grindstone. I had some processes running in the background, and they took up so much of my computer resources, I couldn’t really do much else.
But! I was still productive, even so. Did some work on categorizing the expenses. I want to finish that either tomorrow, or over the weekend. Step after that is for me to come up with a rough b...
January 13, 2021
Day 2,632: Boss
I got a metric sh*t ton of work done over the past two days. Definitely wiped the eff out. Brain is wasted. Body so, so tired. I did all of my workouts. I did all of the things. It was a great day. Even writing was great.
Writing hasn’t been hard lately. That’s been a wonderful development. I can feel a shift in mindset: get it right and move on. Less handwringing. Over either the “right” or the “done.” The sessions are more determined, but less tight. Not sure that makes sense…but the determ...
