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Day 2,701: Raising the Bar

It’s exhausting to raise the bar. And scary. And exciting.

I’ve been waking up on time for a week, now. And I’ve done what I needed to do miscellaneous work-wise. Tomorrow, it’s time to write new pages for the first time in a long time. Brand new pages. Fresh. New story.

I’m…excited. Nervous. But, calm, actually. I know that’s totally contradictory. So, maybe not calm…but focused, I think. Not holding on too tight. I hope. We’ll see how it goes tomorrow. But, the goal is going to be 6-8 pa...

Day 2,700: Improvements

Back at it again.

Didn’t have the BEST Monday in terms of productivity, but I did have a decent one. Lost some time in the middle part of the morning just by being not as super focused as I could have been. It happens. Tomorrow will be different. Got up on time! That’s still going well.

Back to writing. First drafting. Excited about it. Nervous. All the above.

Work is heating up a bit. That’s nice, too, actually. I like being busy more than I like searching for things to do. I did genui...

Day 2,699: Weeds

Got my hands in the dirt today.

I used to hate that as a kid. Gardening. It just seems like endless chaos to me. Now that I’m older, I think it was just my parents’ style of gardening: no borders, sporadically done when things got really out of control, which they did a lot because there’s so much rich soil and rain up in Humboldt.

It was a nice activity. I enjoyed it immensely. Only did it for about two hours, but it was two hours well-spent. Going to try and do it again tomorrow, I think...

Day 2,698:

Into bed on time. Woke up on time this morning. That’s four days in a row. Tomorrow will make it five.

It’s still not easy…but I must say, I was expecting resistance to be more of a factor in this project to get Ira up when he wants to be up. I was expecting it to be harder. I was expecting to be more tired.

Don’t get me wrong, I was definitely tired today. But…I did it. I was fine. It’s encouraging.

Played some music tonight on the DJ controller for the first time in a couple weeks. I ...

Day 2,697: Sleeeeeeee

Sleeeeeep.

Long day. Great day. Great week, actually, which isn’t something I figured I’d be writing for a week when I decided enough was enough and I was going to force myself to wake up at 7am immediately after losing an hour of sleep anyway due to the switch to Daylight Savings time. But…it’s true.

Podcasting tonight with J was fire. Easily one of our best sessions. So excited to put it up.

Work was great today too.

Gotta hit the hay. No break tomorrow getting up. 7am.

Night.

Day 2,696: My Job

My job right now is getting up on time. That’s pretty much it, to be honest. Everything else is a plus.

And, goddamnit if it isn’t WORKING. I was up again at 7am today. Tweaked my gd neck sleeping somehow. I really think it’s stress. Not bad stress, stress because GOOD things are happening and I’m now someone who lives with anxiety. Thanks for THAT 20s.

Man, I remember when I first had real anxiety. It was my last year of theater school. Really did a number on me. I couldn’t get my heart r...

Day 2,695: Up and Atom

Woke up on time this morning! Need to do it again tomorrow, and the next day, and the next…and the next for two weeks. Reset that internal clock. And, that’s about how long it should take.

Blech.

I really hate getting out of bed. It’s so cozy. And I’m so sleepy. But, it must be done.

Killed it today. Well…not quite “killed”…the second half of my day wasn’t all that productive. BUT…I killed it in the sense that everything I was resisting doing yesterday I got DONE today. Sent it off. My ...

Day 2,694: One Final Note…

I had another decent day today. Got stuff done that was definitely giving me resistance. But, I did it. Didn’t finish it, but made major steps forward. Walked through my book outline from beginning to end with more clarity than I’ve ever had, to be honest. Going to send it off tomorrow to the author I want to write it with. Wish me luck!

Also, didn’t get up on time. But, that changes tomorrow. I’m determined. It’ll be painful as hell, but I can do it. In fact, I’m going to set the intention r...

Day 2,693: Decent

I had a decent work day today. Not great. But, I didn’t need it to be great. I was still rather wiped out from going at it so hard last week, I took it slow for the first bit of the day. And then I gathered up steam for the last bit and was super productive to end the day!

My shoulder hurts. I injured it. For sure. It’s that kind of pain, not just soreness. I don’t know if I’ve ever had this type of pain in my shoulder, specifically. It’s right where my collar bone meets the rest of the shoul...

Day 2,692: Busy Lazy

Today was surprisingly busy for a lazy day.

Got up to play tennis with Reed, and that felt SUPER early because of the time change. Okay, so here’s the thing with daylight savings time: I love it. Don’t get me wrong, I haaaate transitioning into it, like this morning. Holy hole is that painful. And right now, it’s bed time, I should be exhausted and ready to conk out if I want to sleep enough to get up on time, but it’s actually an hour early based on my bio clock! I’m not tired!

Yes.

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