Page Turner's Blog, page 16

You’re Never Going to Wish You Enjoyed This Less

Sometimes I wish I could go back to that former version of myself -- the one who was scared, who thought this relationship was "too good to be true," who convinced herself that it'd all end at any time. I wish I could go back and tell her, "You're never going to wish you enjoyed this less."

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“How Can I Help You If You Won’t Show Me How You Really Feel?”

"I want you to show me how you really feel," you say. "How can I help you if you don't?"

And I want to go there. I do. But I'm not entirely convinced I won't drive you away if I do.

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To the Right People, You Won’t Be Too Much

was a relief when I got together with my husband that he didn't find me exhausting. Because my ex certainly did. He said it often. He didn't say that I had a ton of energy or that I was always working on learning something -- the way that I'd come later to view these tendencies of mine.

No, he said that I was exhausting.

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The Worst Heartaches Are All About “And”

You can miss someone AND never want to see them again. Love someone and AND know you don't make sense together.

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I Hoard Potions in Video Games & Delay Happiness in Real Life

Whenever I play video games, I tend to hold on to my items until the brink of disaster. It doesn't matter how many potions they give me; I'm always convinced I'll need them more later on.

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Trying to Take Better Care of Myself Has Been a More Realistic Goal Than Self-Love

I dunno why it's so hard to get super lovey-dovey with myself. To tell myself kind, mood-boosting things about who I am. But it is.

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How I Realized I Don’t Have to Perform for People for Them to Like Me

I learned that I don't have to perform for people for them to like me. Frankly, some days I still forget. But I'm trying to do that less.

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I Told You I Wasn’t Perfect & You Didn’t Believe Me

I told you I wasn't perfect. You seemed like you understood me at the time. Acted like I was saying something obvious.

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You Can Do Everything Right & Still End Up Hurt

t's weird whenever I post about a relationship that didn't end well... people always seem like they're on the hurt for the how and why. And not just the lesson that can be learned, but who in the story is the hero and the villain," I say.

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I Still Don’t Regret Falling for You, Even Though It Ended in Heartache

I probably should have taken it as more of a bad sign — that our rhythms were so different. You were frenetic. It came off as passionate. You had so much energy and gave and gave… But the signs were all there. It’s so clear in hindsight. For example, you were a terrible listener. Well,… Read More »I Still Don’t Regret Falling for You, Even Though It Ended in Heartache

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