Samantha Beardon's Blog, page 75

Attracted to your light

I am attracted to your light

Like a moth to a flame

A shining beacon held tight

That I cant penetrate

I feel your spirit near me

So tantalising close

I let my essence flow free

So we can mingle the most

As we dance the air dreamy

Our essence entwined

We share so deeply

It cant be defined

Our bodies are longing

Our souls find a way

To bridge times crossing

For our minds to hold sway

Without ever touching 

I find myself drawn

To the lure of clutching

Though it has no tangible form

Though you will never be mine

In a tangible way

My heart is a shrine

Where you can stay

I am attracted to your light

Mysterious mirage

What is it about my concerns

My thoughts moving  around like terns

Charging throughout my bloodstream 

Generating a soft sensuous dream

Potent visions so close, surreal

Grinning huge, I can almost feel

The mysterious mirage of you

Experiencing near total view

Of what it will feel to truly be

With you right here next to me

What is it about my concerns

Knowing my visions are more yearns

Still enjoying the mysterious mirage of you

Who knows what might come true

Life

.

I love to escape into my mind,

my sanctuary of fantasies and visions

of all kinds,

so surreal these can be,

reach out, touch and you will see.

Something has unlocked my mind,

the key taken years to find,

opening the doors to rooms inside,

where in each a story hides.

Viewing the life choices made and yet to make,

New skills to learn new paths to create

before me paths lain to tease,

which way does my journey lead?

Looking at the world anew,

Counting blessings many not few

I view the options try the paths

Grab hold of life with pizazz.

Analyse me

I have a very serious side

I wear my dignity with pride

The trouble is its hard to hide

The frivolous me that lurks inside

Outside a lady calm and serene

Inside a girl who would like to dream

The trouble is its hard to hide

The sexy me that lurks inside

I like to play lots of games

Some that may take using brains

The trouble is its hard to hide

The scatty me that hides inside

I like to analyse my life

It helps to keep me out of strife

The trouble is its hard to hide

The impetuous me that hides inside

Who knows what the whole, maybe

Tis certain it isn’t me.

Playing a word game on line and getting hit on.

​The idea for Converging Lives came from some of the conversations, I have had with people when playing a word game on the net. I still play that game and it never ceases to amaze me the people who use it as a dating….chat up….stalking site, sex meet site. Sometimes one can get an intention of the new player by their thumbnail picture like full on genitals or a model pose but others may not have a picture of themselves but of their favourite football club mascot or a general scene. I know that lots of women have stopped using thumbnail pictures of themselves to try to avoid being hit on. It’s also sometimes revealing to look at the player statics playing 1200 days won 24 games, lost 25, resigned 12 now that isn’t many games in that amount of time, maybe that person doesn’t have the time to play often, or maybe they are just using the game as a chat up vehicle. Always interesting to see. The game has a chat function and I am not adverse to chatting to people as I play and usually say Hi at the beginning of a game even if that is the sum total of the conversation for the duration of the game. 

I did not grow up with Tinder or with selfies being the norm and I get somewhat miffed with people who hit on me sexually, without bothering to find out whether I might be up for sexy chat or an intimate meet. Or in fact anything about me at all. It’s not that I can’t deal with the issue I sure can. It just seems so discourteous to assume that a randomly generated female playing partner (who is playing a word game), would be up for sex chat, or a meet for casual sex and not to have the manners to at least do a little chat to find out if the woman is interested. 

So what do others make of this situation? 

I hasten to say that I know that there are lots of women who play the game who are happy to sex chat and women predators on the site and that is their choice. 

It’s just the notion of straight in with the chat that just so annoys me. 

I have included a conversation that happened to me recently for your amusement.

His name sums it up I Think! 

too easy: Hey:

sama: Hi. 

 too easy: You look hot 

sama: Yes well must be the weather . Lol .

 too easy: Hehe®. Single? 

 sama:No, 

Soo easy: Damn

sama: Haha! 

 Soo easy: I hoped you Like Young men;)

 sama: 1 like people I get on with regardless of age. 

Soo easy: Okay. Do you cheat ? 

sama:At  this game?  No.

Soo easy: No Real life . I want A chance to take you. Then i have to slap your ass when im fuckina you.

 sama: Perhaps you should find somebody else to play. I don’t have sex with people I have never met. I find it insulting that you can’t be bothered to find out a few things about me before suggesting that.

 Soo easy: I really want to know you before that happens:).  I Think you Like beautiful and interesting.

Soo easy: Is 25 okay for you? 

sama: Jeez I am not Mrs Robinson! Lol 

Soo easy: Hehe good . Du you have kik ? Then you Can see My Face:)

 sama : …but no way am I going to meet you for sex . So am going to resign.

 Soo easy: Give me a chance to get to know you.

  sama :Lmho! If sex is your aim….it ain’t going to be Me! 

Here is a second one.

 NEW GAME

 Kt: Hi, are you on Kik

 sama:thank you I am. 

 Kt: Like to meet?

sama :No.

 Kt:No?

 sama: If you are in a hurrayto meet somebody on kik maybe better to find somebody else . sama:1 only talk on kik with people I know….

 Kt:Ok,sorry

 sama: If that means you would rather not play anymore, would you resign so I can play another game

sama: So are you from one of the Scandinavian countries or a UK viking! 

Kt: Swedish viking

Kt: Do you like to try Kik with me?

 sama: What are you wanting to do on kik? 

Kt: Everything you like. Watch….. is my name. 

Kt: You want to see pictures of another lady I talk to, you can on kik. 

Sama: No I don’t and I think if somebody sends you pictures then you should not show them to others. 

Kt: She wants me too. 

Wow another game resigned, not good for my Statistics!  Lol

Does anybody have a take on this? 

Walk by the sea

​Aromatic plants remind me of the scent of you

As I close my eyes,  imprinted with your image,  true

I hold back a sob, as your loss cuts me deep

I seem to miss you badly, waking or asleep

As I walk by the sea, and breathe the air, ladened with brine

I replay our first encounter, in this mind of mine

The warmth of the sun, portrays the feelings of joy

As I dip into my memories, of my time with you boy

The sea breeze is setting in, bringing goosebumps to my skin

As I relive our passion, a time without sin

The sound of the waves,like huge rolling sighs

Conjures the picture of the depth of your lies

The feel of the shells crushed under my feet 

The pinpoints of discomfort, prick  my feelings of defeat

The vista to the horizon, with the setting sun plunging into the sea

Reminds me it’s time to set myself free.

S..s..sexuality

​STUPENDOUS

Sensation

SERENDIPITOUS 

Seduction

SUPERSTITIOUS

Staging

SENSATIONAL

Sharing

SWOONING

Skit

SPOONING 

Sweetly

Sliding

Shuddering

Surrendering

SOARING

Spirits

SEXUAL

Scheme

Watch “Dr Hook – “A Little Bit More”” on YouTube

Rick’s favourite chat up Video!  

What are we doing?

​What are we doing

Where are we going

Making you smile 

Tooing and froing

Hearing your dreams

Sharing your schemes

Drawing a picture

Weaving the themes

My first thought on waking

My minds undertaking

Help heal your ills

See bonds we are creating

What are we doing

No future or wooing

Seen only in pictures

Foresee dissolution

Imagine your smile

Share your every trial

Play the buffoon

Make you happy for a while

No, we, no full heart

Knew from the start

Never to touch

Always apart

Never see the whole picture

Minds in the mixture

What are you

My star or a stricture

We are dancing the mating game

But on a driverless train

When it gets derailed

Will life ever be the same

When it’s mundane

We will go insane

When we no longer talk

Life will have no refrain.

For those people who meet, chat, fall, fallout,become obsessed during online meetings. 

Dulcet tones

​Dulcet tones,  soft and sweet as honey

Lull my senses , don’t sound phoney

Eloquent words your stock in trade

Only when I listen, I feel the blade

Reasonable words cover dark cynicism 

Honed sentences cover barbs of criticism 

How can those Dulcet tones

Make me feel like they are breaking bones

Am I just being sensitive

Or is my darling a narcissist?