Samantha Beardon's Blog, page 35

The jigsaw of life

The jigsaw of life more complex than some,

Fitting together, our demons overcome,

I cherish those pieces of you I shared,

It had to be enough, the times we cared,

Propping me up in times of woe,

Helping to fight the common foe,

My knight in armour,

I think maybe not,  

knight in ardour,

That’s a possible plot,

We never had a future

 just a here, to adopt,

A mutual need,  so no angst or hook,

Sharing our time, like pages in a book,

Learning to grow and fulfill myself,

Came directly from  scraps, found on our shelf,

The jigsaw of life more complex than some,

Fitting together, our demons overcome,

Once more the jigsaw of life

 is tipped from the box,

Lots of the middle , retaining its locks,

Fitting the stray pieces together again,

With new insights a clearer refrain,

I cherish those pieces of you I shared,

Learning and growing, my new jigsaw is prepared

Do we ever learn

Do we ever really learn

The difference 

between holding out a  hand

Or clutching someone to us

 in a vicelike band

The fluidity of trust

Is better than control

That we all need space

Love doesn’t mean shackles

tightly in place

Do we ever really learn

Unthinking actions will cause hurt

How ever much someone cares, 

some things are cursed

How ever hard we love

Some people are not in the same grove

We are not unloveable

it’s not the right move 

Not to get stuck in despair 

let misery hold sway

That tomorrow starts another day

Do we ever really learn

lessons from yesterday

Do we ever  really learn

To live life at its best?

Storm

Relationships normal chain

The bubble has been burst

Will that be the worst

Life gets in the way

Almost every day

Changes put a strain 

On relationships normal chain

He/she can make you sad

Also make you mad

Love is but a guide

You cannot run and hide

What is this nebulous thing

The emotion that pulls our string

Attraction, sex and lust

May well just go bust

The underlying theme

That makes our eternal dream

Is a perfect symbosis 

With absolutely no neurosis

Its a rare and perfect beast

Easy to become deceased.

Silly mood

I am in a silly mood

Not the sort to cause a feud

This crazy streak 

May make me wreak

Happy havoc

As I speak

I want to make the whole world smile

Although that may take a while

So instead will start with you

Try to will you smiling too!

The joys of flying

A passenger jet

 with no room to spare,

I sit in a rare thing, a space

 with room for my knees,

My bum fits the seat 

with a just a little squeeze,

I was worried before, because I knew

the plane seats are tiny, 

more space in a zoo,

I had fingers and toes crossed, 

the seat belt would fit,

It did thank my guardian angel, I would have

felt like a twit,

Luckily the flight is only short,

A long haul in this,

 wouldn’t be sport,

My arm is wedged

 against the curve in the wall,

Understand how sardines feel,

 not having a ball,

A means to end but 

an uncomfortable lack,

Of reasonable comfort,

 give the designer the sack!

I am sat in a plane a few miles in the air,

We are descending,

 oh YES

 nearly there!

​Conduit of hope

The bridge to nowhere

My only escape

Pervasive landscape

While my heartbreaks

Only a conduit

Filtering my  screams

Holding and protecting all my dreams

Safe from those erosive streams

I balance above

Exterior rust

Inside lined, with layers of trust

Barrier  remains intact. Feels just

I run along

Landscape bleak

Seeing a sign, miseries defeat

On the otherside, freedom to speak

The bridge to somewhere.

Roll of drums

Life alive

Life alive

wheels go flying round and round

sun  peeks around the clouds

 blessed shadows hit the ground

branches move in tandem with

the breeze grazing my cheek

I move my legs and watch them push 

up the steep hill round the  curve

 wheels go flying round and round

Anticipation

Anticipation 

Starting a new chapter

Anticipation

New period of rapture

Anticipation 

Tick all the boxes

Anticipation

Expecting lots of validation

Throw out procrastination

Anticipation

Putting aside old wrongs 

Clean sheet being strong

Anticipation

 Damp down expectations

Anticipation

Waiting for  adventure, to hatch

Anticipation