Scarlet Risque's Blog, page 15
October 31, 2016
Being submissive to you is one of THE best things
My Submission To My Beautiful Dark Queen Risque Years ago before i met you’ my dark beautiful queen’ i have been going through some tough times in my life which build up some more negative emotions inside me and parts of me feels lost but ever since i watched your videos and met you’ i felt the urge to want to be submissive to you and want to know out of curiosity how would i feel to become submissive to a dominant, beautiful, lovely, powerful, mistress type of woman like yourself especially because my life is boring and meaningless. Being submissive to you is an honor and a privilege and your pleasure. I just can’t get enough of your charming instruction videos and when you command me to slap myself’ i know my pain is your pleasure and i have no say in your presence. A part of me feels good inside for your pleasure whenever am submissive to you which i thank you for allowing me to be your Minion/knight. Being submissive to you is one of THE best things to ever happen to me.
Knight Nahum
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October 20, 2016
October 19, 2016
The Paradox of Pain and Pleasure – Thoughts on Culture
I am enchanted by historic places. The visit to the Versailles left me in a deep space that the culture of a nation is dependent on the actions of the monarchy. Paris followed the fashion trends of Marie Antoinette for she was the Queen of France. But they abhorred her for she did not socialise with the ladies of the aristocracy that lead to her head being guillotined. Similarly, the Empress Cixi of China loved Chinese Opera and had a theater built in the palace for her to watch the opera lounging beside a window, and following this tradition, they held opera performances in all the districts in China to consolidate their control over their empire through the power of culture. 
If I could go back in history, or rewrite history from this point on – I would make BDSM lifestyle a mainstream pursuit. The state of the world today has to do with the construct and introduction of financial markets and globalisation. People spend too much time in pursuing materialistic acquisitions and paying sky high mortgages than do anything meaningful. In this sense, there is a focus on self-inflicting pain and suffering on oneself to achieve material goals instead of the pursuit of pleasure, freedom, and quality of life by investing in relationships. This may not make any sense, but this is something I see very clearly when I travel.
I see the BDSM lifestyle an answer to having liberal attitudes towards sexuality and in this sense, divert the focus away from material acquisitions to investing in quality relationships. Move from the pursuit of pain, to the pursuit of pleasure. Move from loss of control, to total control. Move from misunderstandings, to compromise. I am proposing a wild answer to the state of our existence today, but it has been examined by philosophers such as Rousseau. “‘Man is born free, and everywhere he is in chains.’
These are the topics I am examining in writing The Prince.
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October 12, 2016
Grand Aunt
She laid asleep
In a rest she will never wake up from
Yet her boisterous laughter resonates
Her large presence now stilled by the
Silence of the church halls
Maybe maybe she would open her eyes
As youthfulness returns to her pale skin
But she won’t open her eyes no more
They will remain closed, as the coffin encloses her within. Her ashes will burn and she would return to earth without saying goodbye.
Only the living can say, farewell
Farewell farewell. You will be missed.
My grandaunt has been the inspiration behind the White Queen figure. She was plump and had a loud voice. You could hear her voice from below the apartment complex to the top floor. She was the matriarch and was a strong prominent figure in society. She was unabashed about her absurd requests and demands on others. And somehow, everything will go according to her way no matter how impossible it was. She would ask me to call her “grand aunt” in Cantonese and not “auntie”.
Every Chinese new year I would fear meeting her and not getting her name right. She would scream loudly if I got her name wrong. But no matter what, she still gave me a red packet filled with dollar bills. She was proud of her achievements and would announce her entourage of children and grandchildren has arrived in an almost military style fashion in a big group. Yet, she was comical and loved to joke and had a laughter that was unmistakably hers. Around her, she filled the room up with love and concern in her larger than life ways that penetrated walls and defenses. She made everyone feel at ease that with her around, nothing will go wrong and we will be safe and looked after as part of her family.
She will be dearly missed.
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Resisting Organizations
In my entire life, I resisted being part of any organisation. I refused to get a job, dropped out of grad school, precisely because I felt suffocated by having to follow rigid rules and code of conducts that suppressed my creativity. The moment I felt I wasn’t expressing myself, I would just drop out of projects although I am on the verge of finishing them. My life has been about running away from getting dominated. Or dominating others.
Even my blog, videos, and books are about resisting organisation and going undercover, into espionage mode. I was a very curious child, I would read tons of books to find ou the answers to life and of course reading more equates to more questions instead of answers. I designed my life in a way to avoid being committed to any organisation and would go rogue if I am forced into one, including relationships with men.
I spent years travelling in different types of accommodation – five-star hotels, sofa, backpackers hostel. I tried them all. I did not want to be confined to just one type of life, I wanted to experience life from different perspectives. I dated guys from rich and poor families, and tried to elope with my bf in Australia but failed. I still speak to my cousins on a regular basis although they are doing very different things in life from what I am doing, I still prod them and ask them what is life next for them?
I had put myself on the fringe of society to examine society from the outside in. But I don’t feel belonged to any one society or any country. My identity is not related to where I studied, done or did. It is fragmented and each piece of me belongs to a different part of the world I had visited, and it continues to expand as I explore new boundaries.
I reside nowhere and belong nowhere. I am not part of just one organisation, but many organisations. I refuse to stay in cliques and prefer deep one on one conversations. I am not the sum of one, but the sum of many. For this, I give the world my perspective but my perspective is one of the many perspectives and it is not the “real” or “truth”. It is for each to discover through the journey of the characters I created in my Scarlet Queen Universe.
The underbelly of China’s economic success juxtaposed with the decline of America are the themes I explore in the Blue Orca. I would regard the Hourglass Series as my thesis on the reality of the world we live in today. Pre-order now at https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01M1MPRCI
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October 7, 2016
Letter to my Editor about Blue Orca
This is an email I wrote to her after returning from China. As suspected by my reader
s, my trip to China on a vacation was to double verify the scenes and themes are accurate as it is today as I last visited China about four or five years ago. Inflation has caught up, and things are not as affordable as they used to be before. A bowl of noodles is about 30 Yuan = US$4.5 in a cafe.On my trip, I took domestic buses and trains on local routes that tourists would not take. As a result, I fell sick upon my return as the public transport system is not the most hygienic of places to be. I was mostly moody while on the train/buses as it is crowded and people spoke loudly to each other. There is hardly any personal space. There is no much of a consideration for others around them. It is a stark contrast to Japan where taking the train is quite an enjoyable peaceful activity.
Discovering the underbelly of Shanghai was an amazing journey, I completed the novel way one month before I wrote the ending. I just didn’t want the journey to end. It was like a nice train ride in the countryside that I did not want to get off. I finally wrote the ending and handed it to Tara. I used to be unable to complete my projects in the past, and left them hanging and incomplete. But now, I had learnt to let go of the result and just accept that the journey has ended for (me) and the journey for the reader begins.
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Hi Tara,
I am back from Shanghai after a ten day trip spanning Suzhou and Hangzhou. I had uploaded lots of photos visiting places that I wrote in the Blue Orca for double verification and fact checking that these places and customs exists. It is all good. I am so excited for the launch.
In China, apparently a novel costs about 35 Yuan ($5.2 USD) in the bookstore. It seems that it is not a lucrative business for publishers or writers as the book printers and book stores make the most margin from what it looks. I doubt their copyright laws and royalties law justify the amount of work put into writing a book. It is truly out of love that people are writing novels in China. Still, it is my ambition to one day translate the copies of the Hourglass series for publication in China by working with an approved publisher in China. I will look into it once I have three books published.
I found an interesting cosmetic product called “Pearl Powder” while in Suzhou. Apparently the properties of Pearl crushed into powder makes for a good skin care. I am using the Pearl infused products now. Just some trivia to share. But to “high class tai tais” they would prefer western skin care products as it is seem as of a “superior grade” to those manufactured in China.
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The underbelly of China’s economic success juxtaposed with the decline of America are the themes I explore in the Blue Orca. I would regard the Hourglass Series as my thesis on the reality of the world we live in today. Pre order now at https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01M1MPRCI
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October 5, 2016
Blue Orca Novel: Shanghai Spy – Preorder Now
AN UNFORGIVABLE BETRAYAL sets Mimi on a quest for vengeance. Janet killed Liza. Now Mimi has to kill Conan Casey, Janet’s lover.
Mimi follows them to Shanghai. She’s given a new identity and perfects her powers of seduction until she can manipulate men at will. Mimi is installed as a hostess at the elite Sky Club, keeping company with Shanghai’s most privileged men as she awaits the arrival of her prey.
She catches the attention of a patron before her mission is complete. Thomas falls under Mimi’s spell and proposes exclusivity. Will she take his offer? Or will she seek vengeance in a foreign land despite all the odds?
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Blue Orca is a stand-alone full-length novel part of the HOURGLASS Series.
Red Hourglass #1
Blue Orca #2
Purple Python #3 (To be released 30th October 2017)
Order now Amazon Blue Orca
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My Vulnerabilities – BDSM Community
This post has been rather difficult to write about. It has been weighing on my mind to write about my vulnerabilities and take on being vulnerable with others. But there is the other side of me, whom I call, Risque, who deletes the posts whenever I try to write something of this nature. “You are weak.” She says before she takes over and comes out with the next completed novel. There is a constant battle within me, between the light and dark sides of me, who are struggling to write on this page. Of course, Risque does get her way most of the time which is a good thing. But it is hard for me to be vulnerable with people, let alone on a public virtual blog space where everything is immortalised in magnitudes of servers and cookies around the world.
There was a person that scarred me for life – a violent ex boyfriend. He verbally abused me and hit me multiple times in a few different encounters till I ended the relationship. What followed was insomnia, nightmares and flashbacks. It lasted about two years when I was in university. I had panic attacks and almost fainted on the first day I was in campus from being overwhelmed in a totally new surrounding without anyone I knew in a different country. It was by miracle I graduated. I had to visit the university campus counsellor weekly. Risque would appear in and out of my visions and get things done. I had almost no awareness there was another side of me who was dealing with life when I was asleep. Slowly, I lost control of Risque, who ruled my life. She got the upper hand. She was smart, beautiful and got her way with people around her. I? I was nothing. Not anything, but a fool who believed in love.
To be fully “out” as a person in the BDSM Community me lots of courage. Before fetlife, there was collarme. Collarme was one hell of a dangerous creepy place to be. After the bad incident with my ex, I turned to collarme for answers. It turned out to be a bad experience as the person I met would text me all sorts of weird stuff. But now, with more visibility of the BDSM Community in general, and the availability of fetlife and munches, it has made the community a much safer place to be in.
After that bad experience on collarme, I resumed my vanilla life and ways and dated vanilla people whom I had almost no connection with. I kept my desires locked in a jar that I never showed to anyone. I did not write, dance or did anything to express myself artistically. I was living a dead life, and I was almost like a nun. Slowly, I regained my confidence through dancing and writing again. Now, my YouTube channel has over two million views. From where I started originally – it was something I never imagined would be possible.
Now, I volunteer my time for the BDSM community, and represent the community as a voice. My videos and writings allow me to reach the masses, and I hope to be the light for others in times of darkness – that is possible to live the life by your own design.
I no longer have nightmares. I have been called upon by the world to speak on BDSM topics on panels and events. I hope by my work, the awareness of our community will allow us more visibility and mainstream education on who we really are, and what we really do. This is my vulnerability and strength which I draw on to live each day as my last. I could have died – many times – in unsafe relationships. I am alive today, and for this, I thank the community for allowing me to explore all aspects of myself and unleash the powerful being within me.
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September 30, 2016
RISQUE IS BACK
I had decided not to go to her any more, to forget about her. But this time her appeal was more magical than ever: what dark forces had that she-devil evoked?
So it was that I found myself, once more in HER place… after I had thought to leave those memories behind me, once again I was in her dark realm, in her gloomy, enticing castle.
The door opened. She was there, lying languidly, her most beautiful legs naked to her hips… Her legs that hypnotized me: the Goddess of all sins …
She had an accurate, appealing make-up: she was a hellish beauty. No man could resist her.
“Come to me, my minion …” the Sorceress of Sexual Desire whispered, softly.
Her subtle hands caressed her taut and white calves, her imperial thighs: she used her legs to make me belong to her, to make me her succubus …
“What a beautiful legs! …” I thought to myself. “… I will never see legs so beautiful in all my miserable life! What are you doing to me, you shameless paramour? … Why are you playing with my uncontrollable cravings? … ”
She picked up a tiger cub, that was curled up at her gracious feet, and placed it next to her.
Then she began to caress him, softly, lovingly, with sensuality … Her caresses became increasingly intimate, treacherous …
She bent down to kiss him, as I saw the animal that caressed her bare and smooth thighs with his fur.
I admired those beautiful bare feet … those incomparable legs that were making me lose my head … Once again those legs were driving me crazy: I belonged to her … To her only! And I wanted to tell her that I was her personal belonging, her minion!
I knelt at her feet, while she was still stroking her pet, with delight, slowly moving her bare and seductive legs …
“My Queen! …” I uttered with a muffled voice. “Let me place my hands on your legs! … Let me kiss and lick your bare feet with devotion! … Let this disgraceful man show you how much he loves you! Let me show you how much I desire you, above any other woman! And there are no other women for me! Only you! You my most Beautiful Queen! … ”
And, although she would have laughed. Although she would have sent me away with a touch of her bare feet, I knew would have had an orgasm out of it…
Knight David
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