Dee Tenorio's Blog, page 10

New Leaf, Same Old Stick…

I think my leaves are definitely changing. :) I'm feeling more productive, I've been sleeping and little by little, I'm organizing things around the house. I got my books organized, I got my room fixed and half that vat of laundry put away.

I was talking to a friend of mine, actually, and I was beating myself up about how I don't feel my writing has picked up enough and how different it is from the way it used to be.

That's when it hit me.

I'M different. Like, completely different. Yes, I'm coming back into myself, but let's face it, I'm never going to be the person I was two years ago and that person is not the person I was two years before that, before I was pregnant and discovered that writing takes a hard back seat to insistent baby girls. And that's okay. Change is supposed to happen, although I don't really recommend super drastic changes all at once if you can avoid it, lol.

But here's what smacked me between the eyes: Despite all those changes and concessions and my learning to accept (GOD I sound like a hippy!), I've still been judging myself by the same old measuring stick.

Isn't it strange that when it comes to others, making adjustments is easier, but for ourselves, accepting less is the last thing we think about?

The question is now…how tall should my new stick be? 1k a day on the writing, a clear desk and a load of laundry folded and put away every day? That might just be a tad high. But it makes a nice goal, right?

What do you think? Have you adjusted your stick yet?

Dee

Writer Trials

Every job has it's challenges. It's disappointments and especially its crushing despair. But I must admit, as a writer, I have faced trial after trial and no trial is as tormenting to my soul…

as my damn printer!

Possibly an exaggeration, but not by much. At every point in my career, I must submit in some way to my printer. And whenever the time comes that my whole career rests on my what I'm about to print out…the bloody thing either runs out of ink (that costs a ridiculous amount to replace), won't connect to my computer for some inexplicable reason despite having used it a thousand times before or actually plays dead. As in won't even turn on anymore, then magically turns back on once I've bought another POS printer and sent out my soon-to-be-rejected manuscript, lol.

So, you can imagine my glee this morning when the printer that has printed out less than a manuscript's worth of paper tells me that it's out of bloody black ink. Out! I JUST bought you ink, you evil, evil necessity.

Writing blocks suck, but I understand them and eventually push through.

Revisions from hell, hey, I'm the one who screwed up there, no one to blame but myself.

Bad covers? Reviews that rake you over the coals for elements that aren't even in the book? Late royalties or ones so low the pub is practically asking to be paid instead? These are part of a writer's life. Why does an evil printer have to add to these trials?

The world may never know but I have a feeling I'm either going "Office Space" on this thing or I'm about to blow my diet to save myself from a blood pressure stroke.

Please tell me there's folks out there who have survived Printer streaks of cruelty. :)

Dee

Guest Post!

I couldn't pass this particular spot up, lol! I'm over at Eliza Gayle's place running amok for Halloween! Share your favorite costume of the past and you could win a copy of "Tempting The Enemy"!!

Travel Week Begins!

Over the next few weeks, I'm going to be guesting all over the place, which is good if you're looking from some free books. :)

Today's postings will find me over at Simply Ali's place, where you can be entered to win an eARC of "Shaken" or a $10 GC on the interview! Be sure to head over!

Congrats to Leni!

Leni is the winner of my Clean Desk / Google Friends connect contest! Thanks everyone for signing up and I hope to see more of you as I get this blog back off the ground. :)

Hugs all!

Dee

Feeling A Bit More Me…

Maybe it's the weight loss. Maybe it's just time, but for the first time in two years of pain and confusion and sickness and loss… I'm finally starting to feel myself again. I won't kid you, I'm not 100%. In some ways I'm still numb, still raw, still confused and lost, but… You know that second when you dive into water and you're not sure how deep it is, then…suddenly, you feel the bottom with your toes and though you can't quite take a breath of relief, you realize you've kinda got your bearings a little.

That's about where I am.

I know I've been lax about the blog and even Twitter, for those that follow me. My house looks like an explosion went off most days and really, that's how I've been inside, too. Inch by inch, the shattered pieces of me have been coming back together. I won't ever be the same and I'm not sure I'll ever see pictures of my sister without that lancing pain of loss, but…

There's days when the numbness isn't there. When I don't need to go a hundred miles an hour every minute of every day just to make it from one hour to the next. In fact, time has gotten so it's moving almost too fast for me. How'd that happen?

It feels a lot like submerging from the deep end of the pool. As you rise, the water gets less blue, things above become more clear and you feel…lighter.

So, I was really surprised when I absolutely could not stand the state of my table/desk anymore. Papers were completely out of order. Mail lost, only the most urgent, urgent stuff handled. (In some cases, mishandled.)

I'm ready to not be a disaster anymore. So, I took today off and spent 12 hours going from this…

To this (which is all of that stuff SORTED!!)

and finally…to this. My new office-ly table set up!

Taaaaaa-Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!

Here's to a fresh start and submerging!

Dee

"Shaken" Trailer Released!!

Here's hoping you like it!

Dee

Ok, I'm a Glow In The Dark Narcissist

I am, I'm terrible. I actually took most of Saturday off because I was falling down exhausted. It's just been a REALLY busy summer. I thought August might have some slowdown, but no, not so much. So, I really don't have a right to pop on here with an "Ooooh, look at me!" post.

But I'm terrible, so I'm going to. I have a pretty new ad for next Month's "Shaken" release! (See Blog sidebar for flashy awesomeness.) It makes me want to pet it and squeeze it. Am going to try to make the trailer this ...

While You Were Thinking…

So, I basically have spent the week running and ticking things off my to-do list with some epic precision, if I do say so myself. So I woke up this morning(barely) bleary-eyed and totally unfocused. I admit, I kinda pissed away my hour of time before we got up and at em. Then after getting the kids fed and going, it became clear–I needed a break. So off we went to South Coast Plaza. It's my niece's b-day this wekend and I can't think of a better way to undo the funk than to shop for our...

Carina said YES!!

WaHOOOOO! Sometime next year, the sequel to "Tempting The Enemy"–currently titled, "Deceiving The Protector", will be yours for the taking!

And if you've read "Tempting", you'll be excited to learn that the hero for Book 2 of the Resurrection series is Jensen Tate! You haven't met his heroine before, but I guarantee you, she's about to bring out the best from this wolf warrior. :)

And maybe a little of the worst…he's a bad boy after all. :)

WHEEEEEEE!!!

Dee