I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die Quotes

“The God who knows our words before they come to mind, who is intimately acquainted with all our ways, can never be disappointed in us because we cannot surprise him. Disappointment comes from not experiencing an expected outcome, and God doesn’t anticipate us to behave in ways he already knows we’re not going to. He expects us to fall down, to make mistakes, to struggle, and to even sin sometimes because he already knows our frailties. He may grieve and ache over our struggles and choices, but he wants us to just come to him with our pain and problems.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“Like those exiles, we walked through all kinds of heartache before coming to the furnace. Though we didn't always see him, God was with us through it all. We may not smell like smoke or be destroyed by flames, but we have the great faith to believe he's good and kind and present when he walks through fire with us instead of plucking us from it.
In the fire, we learn that hope can’t rest solely on the actions of God, on miraculous healings, or on answers to mysteries we can’t comprehend. Instead, our hope rests on the character of a God who is love, who somehow brings beauty out of the ugliest ashes. We don’t have to be healed, we don’t have to be on the other side of it, to know he’s good and he’s transforming us—even in the furnace.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“I absolutely love the Bible. I hold it in high esteem and take great joy in connecting with God through Scripture. But I also recognize that it was never intended to be a medical or scientific text. It doesn't tell us how to perform lifesaving open-heart surgery. It doesn't explain how to treat diabetes, cancer, or Alzheimer's disease. It also doesn't tell us how to treat mental illness or trauma.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“Here's what I know: People are broken and messy and imperfect. They fail me time and time again. They will never be enough to fill the broken places in me, never enough to mend my soul.
And I need them anyway.
It's a beautiful mystery: People can't heal me, not of themselves. But so often, when God bends low to restore my soul, he does it through the same broken people. I've swung wide on a pendulum from desperately looking for humans to heal me, to shutting down and building walls to keep everyone out. Neither works very well. But in the middle, I'm finding balance. I'm finding that I can look only to God to transform me, and he wants to use the people he’s placed in my life to do it.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“We need faith that makes room for suffering, that refuses to deny the brokenness of this sin-sick world and our place in it. We need theology that honors the ache while clasping tightly to the hand of a God who refuses to abandon us. We need a community that doesn’t wait for Jesus to wave a magic wand and fix us before they can accept us.
Sweet friend, there is nothing wrong with you. You are not a bad Christian for toiling under the crushing weight of depression. Mental illness is not a failure of faith or evidence of a flimsy prayer life. It’s simply a common part of the human condition, one that many people will experience.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“sometimes the greater victory of faith is learning to walk with Jesus when suffering remains.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“Hope is no less powerful than miraculous healing. It still shows us that he is near and he cares deeply.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“Spending time with God is not an obligation and it doesn’t make him love you more. It’s something that is supposed to be life giving and encouraging, not something riddled with guilt for not being good enough. And here’s the truth: God knows you have a mental illness that makes it really stinking tough to focus and read. So he’s not surprised or disappointed when you struggle.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“It makes a world of difference to be able to say something like “I'm having thoughts of self-harm” instead of believing them and thinking, in your heart of hearts, that you actually want to stop living.
None of us really wants that; we just want to stop hurting so much. For some believers, this may manifest as a desire to “go be with Jesus.” While we relate to Paul's desire “to depart and be with Christ” (Philippians 1:23), that usually comes from a place of longing for our suffering to end. In reality, we don't want to miss out on the millions of beautiful moments that make up a life: laughter and smiles, the warmth of sunlight and love, a future with purpose, hope, and people we care about. We just don't want our lives to be controlled by unending darkness and pain.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“But I've learned there is no better way to know the Comforter than by being comforted. There's no peace like what you experience in the fire of anxiety.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“When we endure suffering, including mental illness, we have the opportunity to know God in an incarnational way.”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

“Why should it be that every day is a conscious choice whether or not I will live or die? Deliver me from the cage in my mind”
― Sarah J. Robinson, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die: Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression